Sick

Somewhere between yesterday and last night I got sick. I spent a few hours on the couch reading book two in the "Game of Thrones" series which was great. I love the show and the books are great, but they are so detailed and I am having a hard time reading them. I want to read all of them, but it seems to be taking forever to get through book two.

After that, I got into "Mad Man" again. We had Netflix, canceled it and got it back. So I'm almost done with with season 1. I'm sorry, I'm slow. And behind. I have 4 more seasons to go.

And how did I get sick? I don't even know. I'm not happy either.

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The last Saturday in September

Unfortunately, I used my Saturday morning to sleep in and not workout. I work up after a little after 10am. Did have plans to make it to the gym, but that didn't happen. I'm not a fan of going to the gym past 10am on a Saturday morning. It's too crowded and I like having my workouts done by that time. I started to curse myself and feel upset, but it's not worth it. It really isn't it. Instead, I decided to have a nice healthy breakfast instead.

I had forgotten all about my maple coffee we got in Vermont. I need to get some more PB2. I Good stuff.

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That's right, Honey Boo Boo. That's right.

Now excuse me while I go and try to convince the husband to take me to Ikea tomorrow. I keep telling him they have a 99 cent breakfast. 

What did you eat for breakfast today?

Here we go

I have to thank you all for your kind words on twitter and the comments you left on yesterdays blog. It was hard to write, but it felt good after I did it.  Thank you all so very much.

Here is what I started off today with:

Sorry it's sideways. I tried like hell to get it going in the right direction but whatever. I took a million pictures of this damn scale before I got right, too.

192.4 pounds. That is what I am starting at. Friday was always a good weigh in day for me. Hopefully next Friday I'll see 191 or so. Hitting the gym tomorrow and grocery shopping after.


Going to make this sometime this week. Doesn't it look awesome? I love chicken, I love zucchini. It's a win/win right there. I can't wait to try it out. I'm always looking for a new recipe idea. Thanks to the lovely Cely for that.

This is hard

I've been trying to figure out how to write this post. It's a hard post to write. I've been telling myself I was going to write this blog all week.

Suzi wrote about it.

Jen wrote about it.

It started back in April when I took out my summer clothes for our trip to Texas and nothing fit. My capri pants were too small. My dresses were too snug. My tank tops too tight. I thought, well, it's not that bad. I've gained 15 pounds, I can go on vacation and when I get back, I'll lose it.

When our vacation rolled around for Florida in August, I'd be fine. I'd have lost the 15 pounds and be back at 160 pounds, a comfortable weight.  Just keep eating healthy, counting your points and running. You'll get back to wear you want to be.


In June, the husband and I decided we were going to try and have a baby. We were ready and it just felt right. I was pretty excited and started planning all the fun things I was going to do to the spare room. However, after a couple months of trying, I decided that I wanted to put that idea on hold because of my weight gain.


If you haven't noticed, and you may not have, I didn't post any pictures from my picture to Texas. I posted some on Facebook, but not a lot. I wasn't too comfortable with myself at that point, even though being 175 pounds wasn't as bad as uncomfortable as when we went to Florida in August. I hated every single picture that was taken of me on that trip and I won't be posting any of those pictures any time soon.


That is when I knew I had gained enough weight to start becoming ashamed of myself again.


2012 has not been the stellar year I had hoped it would be for me weight wise. I had hoped to get down to 150 pounds, but that didn't happen. I thought I would try other things that might help me reach that goal. I struggled. I've been a bad blogger and there is no excuse for that. I kept telling myself, you have time, you have time.

But, I clearly did not have time. Those 15 pounds I had quickly turned into 20 and those 20 turned into 25. And as of this morning they were 32. 31.8 to be exact.

I weigh 191.8 pounds. I've gone up and down over the past couple of months or so. I've seen 187. I've seen 194. But, I always seem to stay between those numbers.

I blame me. I can't blame anyone else. It's my fault for eating half a cake some nights. Or drinking too much. Or two (or more) sleeves of cookies. All in the same night.

I know what works for me to lose weight. It's Weight Watchers. Counting my points and working out 4-5 days a week. That is what works. I can't keep trying other things when they don't work.

I just want to lose 10-15 pounds at this point so that when we go to New Orleans in December I'll feel a little more comfortable. And so that in January we can start trying to have a baby again. I'll worry about the rest of the weight after the pregnancy.

I am going to start blogger more. I promise!!

Not working

You ever feel like you need a change? Like when it comes to your food? I love my exercise routine. My running and my weight lifting. I love that.

But I am one of those people that eats the same the same things all the time and that my dear friends, is very boring. I've spent most of today in a little bit of a funk. And I got to thinking about what I need to do about my eating. I know I can't go too off the beaten path because some things don't work for me. But I do like the idea of The Whole 30 but not without having to give up some of the foods I love (like Ketchup).

I can't give up my dairy 100%, but I can cut down on it as much as possible. And I can eat more vegetables and more healthy fats.

I'm going to see what I can come up with.

You just never know.

Because what I'm doing is not working anymore. 

Life is good.

My attitude towards food has changed a lot over the past few weeks. I can't exactly explain it, but it has.

I spent most of this week eating when I was hungry and stopping when I wasn't. It wasn't about how many points is this and no I can't have that.

I'm not sure what is going on in my head, but I like it. A lot. I'm starting to realize that if I'm hungry and it's healthy, it's okay to eat it. If I'm hungry and it's not healthy, I shouldn't eat it.

I worked out 3 times again this week and I'm extremely proud of that. I'm going for 4 this week.

The scale went down 1.2 pounds this week despite the fact that I didn't track everything I ate. Why? Because I'm aware of what I'm eating and that what I eat is healthy and I know what I'm doing.

I'm proud of how far I've come and I'm listening to my body.

Life is pretty good.

Cupcake Classic

So...

I just signed up for this:

Which you can find out more about over here if you go visit Jess and her website. Should be fun.

As for the Whole30 thing? I was able to handle it for about two days. I just missed ketchup way too much. Isn't that sad? You have to understand my love of ketchup. No, really. I put it on a lot of stuff. I tried, I really did. I'm back to my BFF Weight Watchers.

But, I feel good. I've been working out more. Last week I hit the gym 3 times and this week I've already been twice. My week start on Saturday. I don't know why I do that, but I do. My clothes are feeling a lot less snug and that's a plus.

My allergies are crazy today. My hands are both swollen beyond belief today. I blame the stress of work. It's been beyond crazy this past week. Hopefully it will die down soon.

Hard to believe it's alreeady Sunday night. This weekend FLEW by.

Next weekend is my 12 year wedding anniversary. Seems like only yesterday we got married.

Whole 30 Day 1

I've finally decided to change my diet and try something new. I mean REALLY new.

I ran across the Whole30 plan a couple months ago when Andrea was doing it and I bookmarked it. But in my mind I thought to myself there is no way in HELL I can give up my Chobani yogurt. No way. I simply cannot do it. I have at least 1 (or 3) a day. So I bookmarked it and went along my way without really giving it much of a thought.

And the other night on Facebook something popped up about it again. I must have liked it on Facebook and it got me thinking about it again. I went and got their book for my Kindle, It Stars With Food and read it and everything started to make sense. I read the forums and the success stories and thought to myself I can give up yogurt for 30 days. I can live without sugar (or Splenda) in my coffee for 30 days. I can do that. It's only 30 days. I don't buy bread anyway so I don't need to worry about that. I do eat a lot of pasta and oatmeal, but maybe it's time for a change. Maybe I need to switch it up. I mean, after all it's been 2 and a half years and maybe my body needs a change.

Yesterday and last night with it for me and grains and sugar and yogurt. We went to wedding and I ate a lot. I had wine and I had bread and I had cake (oh and it was really good cake, too) and I said adios to the sugar demon that always gets me in trouble.

Today I went grocery shopping and stocked up on healthy meats, fats, vegetables and fruits.

Drinking my coffee black is going to be different and strange, but I can do it. I want to see what changes with my body. I have been suffering from adult acne for 12 years and I want to see if it clears up.

I think I eat clean and healthy, but maybe it's not as clean and healthy as I thought it was.

I have 30 days to find out.

I'm baaaaaaack!!

Did you miss me?

Florida was great. I had fun. Would I go again? Yes. But I wouldn't drive. It was a very loooong drive to Florida. The hubby thought he could do it all in one day. Which didn't happen. After about 10 hours on the road we had to stop and find a hotel. We got to Florida around 1am on Sunday morning (that would be the 26th of August).

On the way way down we were side tracked for about 3 hours in North Carolina because of a flooded highway. That was fun. And about an hour away from our hotel in Tampa we almost died. No, I did you not. We were on a 2 lane highway and it was dark. There were no lights just the cars and there was a car in the middle of the two lanes. We almost slammed right into it. It looked like it had been in an accident except there wasn't another car there, so maybe they fell asleep and hit something? What I don't know.  It was a little scary.

I have never seen so many Waffle Houses or Cracker Barrel restaurants in my life. We don't have Waffle Houses here in Connecticut which saddens me. I wanted to eat at one, but never had the chance.  I did eat at a Perkins though and had the best Belgian waffle ever!!

It's a bit humid in Florida. Connecticut gets hot and humid, but Florida? WOW! It's always fun to be smacked in the face with humidity when you walk out of your hotel room every day.

We hit up Universal Studios thanks to the hubby's cousin who works there. I almost peed my pants on the Harry Potter ride. Seriously. I'm not a fan of heights and swore I thought I was going to fall (I hear you laughing and I don't like it at all).

We visit with the hubby's family. That was nice. It made me homesick for my cats while we visited with one of his Uncles because he and his girlfriend had cats. They were so sweet and I missed my babies so very much. Luckily  my sister took very good care of them while we were gone.

Our last full day in Florida, Friday, we went to Disney. I was so excited because I have always wanted to go. All I wanted to do was find Eeyore and have my picture taken with him. Unfortunately, we read that Eeyore wouldn't be making any appearances that day. I was bummed, but was going to enjoy myself anyway. We got to the park in time for it to open. Around 10am we decided to get some breakfast. As we waited in line at the buffet, I noticed that it looked like Piglet was in the restaurant. And so was Tigger. That was when I noticed Eeyore! I kid you not, I totally started jumping up and down with excitement. It turns out they have a Winnie-the-Pooh breakfast every day at this restaurant. I got my picture with Eeyore, Pooh, Piglet and Tigger. My lucky day I guess. I'm just a kid at heart. We spent all day at Disney. The last ride did us both in. It was one of those simulated rides and it left us both sick to our stomachs. I can't handle anything that spins or goes upside down (which means no roller-coasters for me, although I did go on Space Mountain) . This one left me wanting to puke my guts out. And the husband, too.

We were both sun burnt and exhausted and ready to go back to the hotel. We needed to pack up and get ready to leave the next day.

There were so many things I didn't get to do. I didn't get to meet up with my friend who lives in Daytona or my friend that lives in North Carolina. I never stepped foot in any gym and I didn't work out for 10 days. I ate whatever I wanted and drank whatever I wanted. We had a bad experience at one hotel that had us running out of there at 2 in the morning and left us washing and drying out clothes at a laundromat and buying new luggage (can you even guess what might have caused that?). I saw my first and hopefully last centipede which freaked me the hell out (anything with that many legs cannot be trusted). I made sure to hit up the Super Target. A lot (why is there not a Super Target near me??). I finished book one in the Game of Thrones series and started the second one (those books are so good but so detailed). The husband and I had a great time together and didn't fight at all which is a miracle within in itself.

I lost 7 pounds the week before we left. And I gained them all back while I was on vacation. But, like I said, I ate and drank whatever I wanted and I didn't workout at all. But it was vacation and now I'm back and I'm back on track with my eating and exercise. I'm looking forward to New Orleans in December and the fact that there won't be any driving to this location.

I'm glad to be back on my schedule again. Vacation really messes with my system. I'm a pretty "regular" person, if you know what I mean. My body likes to eat healthy and when I don't do that it lets me know how upset it is. When I go a couple days without being regular...I get uncomfortable and unhappy and I don't like that.

I'm also glad to be back at work. As crazy and hectic it is, I miss that madhouse when I'm not there.

Now I'm off to catch up on everyone else and see what I missed.