Believe It, Be It part 2

I tried. I did. But for some reason when I plan to go to the gym before work my body starts to hate me. And I can't sleep. And then when I finally DO fall asleep something wakes me up and I can't fall back to sleep. For like FOREVER.

I am so tired right now.

But I am trying to be positive. Believe it, Be it just like Ali Vincent says in her book. So I didn't make this morning. I want it enough to do whatever it takes and I'll have to go at night if that is what I need to do.

I'm also going to need a lot of coffee.

Believe It, Be It

Eating is awesome!! I just can't seem to get my exercise in check. Ugh! Boo! I'm hoping I can get to the gym tomorrow morning. I have my gym bag packed, alarm set and hopes up that I can make it there tomorrow morning.

I picked up Ali Vincent's new book "Believe It, Be It" tonight after work. I can't wait to get into it.

One week from today my Mom will be here! I talked to her for 2 hours last night. I can't wait to see her. It's been over a year since she was last here! I'm so glad it worked out that I have vacation during the time she'll be visiting. I can't wait for some Mom time.

Off to finish watching "The Biggest Loser".

I'd like to thank the academy...

Actually I would like to thank, Karen over at Make Just A Ripple for giving me this ward. And I'm going to pass it on to 7 more ladies who inspire me. And then 10 things you may or may not know about me. You don't have to play along but it's fun and I thought I would.

Angie-She is totally inspiring!! I love her blog and she is always so upbeat. She helped give me that push to go back weight watchers meetings. And she told me about Lara bars. Yum!!

Annie-She seems to be always going! I used to be just like her and worked out all the time. She makes me want to be the athlete that she is. Plus she totally looks awesome.

John-He just did his first half iron man. Need I say more?

Andrea-She has lost over 70 pounds and is running more and more each week. She is very inspiring. Plus she likes cake. My favorite dessert in the world.

Glam-She is a total rock star. Need I say more? Plus I love how she got rid of her scale for awhile. I would love to do that. And I think she and I would get along super awesome in real life.

Lynn-She had burger and fries for dinner tonight and it was all weight watchers approved. How can you not love that?

Katherine-She has been losing weight for awhile and is not going to give up until she gets to her goal. She is nearly half way there!!

1. I love tattoos. I have 3 so far and want more.
2. I've been blogging since 2003. This is not my first blog. I find it really helps me since I tend to keep a lot of my feelings inside.
3. I suffer from depression. Exercise helps me not be depressed so I try to exercise as much as I can.
4. I love Nascar
5. The high school I graduated from had a total of 500 kids (my graduating class had 110 kids).
6. 80's and 90's hair bands are a guilty pleasure of mine
7. I love animals and I can't watch any move where they my get hurt. I cried through most of "March of the Penguins" and will NEVER watch that move again.
8. "Donnie Darko" is my favorite movie.
9. "Carnivale" is still my favorite television show and I'm still pissed that it was canceled. There was so much left that they could have worked with.
10. I have a nephew that is 29 years old.

Workout update

So my workout ended up ended up being 60 minutes on the treadmill at home because I just wasn't feeling up to going to the gym today. I'm pretty freaking happy with that though because I really busted my tail and did some running.

It happened to be a beautiful day here in Connecticut. It was nearly 70. In November. I'll take it. Tomorrow is supposed to be just as nice. Amazing. What is the deal with the weather anyway? It's November. Yes, November. We had 90 degree weather in April, a ton of rain in the summer, snow in October and now it's warm enough to wear capri pants. Which I may just break out for work tomorrow. Why not?

Hubby and I are no longer fighting. I even offered to cook dinner tonight. He's pretty picky about his eating and since we hardly ever eat the same thing (since I watch what I eat) I offered to cook for him if he wanted me to.

My Mom will be here a week from Tuesday! I cannot wait!!

Mu-ah!

back in the saddle

I'm still all excited about getting back to weight watchers yesterday. I went to the 11:15am meeting. I like that one because it's not too busy and I don't have to worry about not having a place to sit. I used to go to the 9:45am meeting when I lost all my weight before but it's too crowded now and I'm not up for the crowds right now.

Let me just say how pleased I am that WW is finally into the 21st century with computers. Giggle. The receptionist explained to me that I know longer have to look for my card when I come in I just get in line and hand them my card. All my info is in the computer. Imagine that. Fancy stuff.

So on their scale I was 244.8. Now I knew I would be up because (1) when I weigh myself at home I am 100% in the nude *ha ha*, (2) Weight Watchers does not let you weigh in the nude at the meetings. No I have never asked but I know people who have. (3) It's the week before TOM and I'm bloated. And (4) my eating the past couple of days could have been better. So I was ready for it. My scale at home said I would be 245.8 pounds so I liked the ww scale much better.

Once I was all signed in and weighed I went into the meeting. Beth (my leader) was happy to see me. She said it was nice to see me and how had I been and where had I been. Then she said it was kind of an odd time to start again with the holidays and all. So I explained to her (after telling her I had been doing it online for the past 5 months) about my online blog friends had been joining and I decided to take the plunge. She thought it was great. Beth also said that she noticed a lot of newbies this week and maybe that was why.

The meeting topic was about making it through the holidays. Now for most it's Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years. You may have Hanukkah in there, too depending on your religion. I, my friends, have a Birthday the week before Thanksgiving and I am going to have my cake. It's a Wednesday this year so I am going to try to work out as much as I can. The others don't scare me much. I can handle them. It's the cake that I know I will have an issue with. And that is less then 2 weeks away.

So I am going to work it the best I can and see what happens. I know it works. I see the proof everyday with my blog friends and looking at older pictures of myself. And with myself. Because I am still 40+ pounds less then my heaviest weight thanks to weight watchers.

I am not in the best of moods right now. Hubby and I had a big fight last night and it hasn't really been resolved yet. Hopefully it will blow over soon.

I am going to have some breakfast and then get ready for the gym.

Lets talk Weight Watchers

In my last post, Scott commented and asked me what it was I liked best about Weight Watchers. That is really a good question and I had to stop and think about it.

I've been doing the whole Weight Watchers thing since I was 14 years old. The first time I did it I was lost 40 pounds. I went from 187 to 140 pounds. I don't remember how long it took but it was in time for high school and I know that I shocked a lot of my school friends when I started freshmen year. I went from a size 16 to a size 10. I was able to keep it off for most of my high school years. Until I met the soon to be husband. Ha ha. That was when I started to really gain some serious weight and when I graduated high school I was probably pushing 250 but I didn't own a scale so I couldn't be too sure.

My Mom did WW when I was 2. She lost 90 pounds the first time. She is a lifetime member. Back then (in the '70's) it was a lot different. You couldn't have ketchup. No mayo either. If you wanted tuna fish you ate it with mustard. Shudder. Ick. You had to eat LIVER daily. Even now my Mom doesn't eat ketchup.

When I first did WW you didn't have points you were allowed so many milks, veggies, fruits proteins and carbs per day. You had to check them off on your little card as you went. Trust me the points system was heaven when I rejoined in 1998. In 1998 I was 287 pounds. By 2000 I was 220. It took me awhile to drop 67 pounds but I was so happy with my success. I worked out at home 4 days a week for 30 minutes to a kick boxing VHS tape. I cheated after my meetings and yet I lost usually every week. I was fine with that. I went from a (tight) size 28 to a comfy size 18.

Then well I just kind of stopped going to meetings. Not sure what happened. I gained back 36 pounds by the time I started my current job in 2001. I was 256 pounds and in a size 22. I hated myself for putting in all that hard work and told myself I would get back to 220 pounds no matter what.

By December of 2001 I was 220. I kept going and losing. People started pulling me aside at work and asking me if I was losing weight (duh!) and then by the time we went to London in 2002 I was 200 pounds. I was wearing a size 16 pants for the first time since I could remember. I think what really helped was when I joined the gym in August of 2001. By December of 2002 I was 175 pounds. And then by June of 2003? 154 pounds. My doctor could not believe it!

Of course all along my goal was to be 130 pounds but I changed that to 150 because I felt comfortable there. And my body seemed to like it. The lowest weight I ever saw was 149 in 2004. I was a size 8 and felt awesome.

I don't know what happened. I thought I had it under control. Running 5 miles a day. But things happen. I injured myself. My coworker/friend died. Things happen. But I am working really hard right now to get back to where I was. And I know I can do it because I have done it before.

So to answer the question what do I like about WW? Everything. I love that I can eat whatever I want. I love that I can have pizza and it's fine. It's in my points to have that. I can have a beer, too. NOTHING is off limits. I always have the best success from meetings. Beth (the woman who does the meetings on Saturday) has lost over 100 pounds and has kept it off for over 15 years. How is that for success? To let you know it can be done? And she struggles, too! There was a time that she gained back 20 pounds. And she was talking to us about it. She is awesome. She is a great leader.

I have tried EVERY SINGLE diet out there and yet I come back to Weight Watchers every time because it is what works for me. I have the best success with it because I don't feel deprived. I can have what I want.

The support is great. Most of the time the support on the boards is great, too, although there can be some drama. Ha ha.

Anyway I am super excited to go to the meeting this morning. I know the scale will say differently then mine but that is fine, too.

I'll post more later. Happy Saturday!!