It's a sign!

This is what I had for lunch today:

How come no one has every told me how totally banging Chipotle is?? HELLO?! I ate this salad (and yes, it IS a salad, you just have to get past the chicken, pinto beans, salsa and onions) like I hadn't eaten in months. Seriously. Best salad I have had in a very long time. It gave Whole Foods a run for it's money. And I love salads from Whole Foods.

By the way, I still haven't managed to make it to the gym yet, but I'm trying. Every night I pack my gym bag and every morning I reset the alarm when it goes off at 5am. I'll get there. I swear I will. Maybe Molly is trying to tell me something?

Twice I have found her snuggled up in my gym bag. I think it's a sign. She means business.

Baby fever

Even though we're waiting to a few months to have a baby, that doesn't stop me from reading baby blogs. I have a couple favorites right now:

The Hungry Rummer Girl 

and

Healthy Tipping Point

I started reading HRG right before we had her little girl so it's been fun reading how she is getting used to being a Mom. As for HTP, she had her boy after I started reading, but I enjoy her as well.

I enjoy their blogs because it gives me time to dream about what my future is going to be like. I only hope that I can be half the Mom's these girls woman are.

Sometimes I want to just say screw it all and keep trying. Forget the extra weight I'm carrying around and go for it. But do I really want to have to lose 40, 50, 60 pounds after I have a baby? No. I'd rather it only be 30 or 40 pounds if that is possible.

So, I can wait. I've waited this long. A few more months won't matter.

I blogged about it so what didn't it happen?

I'm not going to lie. This weekend? This weekend was not one of my best. I was all pumped up and ready to go. I was going to get back on track and lose a little weight. After all, I blogged about it. If I blogged about it, it was going to happen.

Saturday morning I woke up and didn't feel all that good. I also didn't make it to the gym after sleeping until after 10am. It was a hectic and busy week for me at work. It was end of month and end of quarter, so there was a lot going on. I figured all the stress was bringing me down, so I went with it.

Saturday night did not go over easy food wise. And Sunday? Well, I was still not feeling well and there was no exercise. I hadn't gone grocery shopping or left the house since Friday which meant eating whatever was in the house. And it wasn't good.

By the time I got to work on Monday I was a wreck. I was trying to hide it, but it wasn't easy.

Last night when I was at the grocery store, glaring at everyone that got in my way, I realized something. When I work out and eat right, I'm happy. I LIKE eating right and running. I ENJOY salads and apples and low fat yogurts and frozen grapes and all the other healthy foods I eat. When I eat junk food (cake, cookies, sugary cereals) I don't feel good and I get depressed. Mix in a few glasses of wine (I was not feeling good okay??) and it all comes to an angry head.

Not to mention I haven't worked out in over a week. It's not pretty people. Not pretty at all.

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My gym bag is packed and I'm hoping to make it there tomorrow. Feel free to kick my ass if I don't get there tomorrow because I'm becoming a depressed ball of ass over here.

Sick

Somewhere between yesterday and last night I got sick. I spent a few hours on the couch reading book two in the "Game of Thrones" series which was great. I love the show and the books are great, but they are so detailed and I am having a hard time reading them. I want to read all of them, but it seems to be taking forever to get through book two.

After that, I got into "Mad Man" again. We had Netflix, canceled it and got it back. So I'm almost done with with season 1. I'm sorry, I'm slow. And behind. I have 4 more seasons to go.

And how did I get sick? I don't even know. I'm not happy either.

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The last Saturday in September

Unfortunately, I used my Saturday morning to sleep in and not workout. I work up after a little after 10am. Did have plans to make it to the gym, but that didn't happen. I'm not a fan of going to the gym past 10am on a Saturday morning. It's too crowded and I like having my workouts done by that time. I started to curse myself and feel upset, but it's not worth it. It really isn't it. Instead, I decided to have a nice healthy breakfast instead.

I had forgotten all about my maple coffee we got in Vermont. I need to get some more PB2. I Good stuff.

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That's right, Honey Boo Boo. That's right.

Now excuse me while I go and try to convince the husband to take me to Ikea tomorrow. I keep telling him they have a 99 cent breakfast. 

What did you eat for breakfast today?

Here we go

I have to thank you all for your kind words on twitter and the comments you left on yesterdays blog. It was hard to write, but it felt good after I did it.  Thank you all so very much.

Here is what I started off today with:

Sorry it's sideways. I tried like hell to get it going in the right direction but whatever. I took a million pictures of this damn scale before I got right, too.

192.4 pounds. That is what I am starting at. Friday was always a good weigh in day for me. Hopefully next Friday I'll see 191 or so. Hitting the gym tomorrow and grocery shopping after.


Going to make this sometime this week. Doesn't it look awesome? I love chicken, I love zucchini. It's a win/win right there. I can't wait to try it out. I'm always looking for a new recipe idea. Thanks to the lovely Cely for that.