Saturday, December 29, 2012

Looking forward to January

I hate snow.

No, I hate snow. I seriously hate it. The husband and I considered moving out of New England in 2011 until he started the job he has right now.

Right now it's snowing here in Connecticut and I'm annoyed as hell. Once again it most likely ruined my gym plans for tomorrow.

Damn, damn, DAMN!

Patiently waiting for January 1st. I am going to start working in some weight lifting again and stop being the cardio queen.

I will also be glad when this month is over and work gets somewhat back to normal. I worked 4 hours today to try and catch up. It's easier when no one is around.

What did you do today?

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Music ideas?

Unfortunately, I didn't make it to the gym this morning. 

I' m not too sure if it was the the plows that kept going by during the night that kept waking me up or the fact that I just didn't sleep all that well, but I wasn't up to getting up when my alarm went off at 5am so I reset my alarm and went back to bed until 6:30am.

But, tomorrow is a new day and I plan to hit the treadmill in the morning.

The weather sucks here. I'm not a huge fan of snow, ice and cold weather at all. But, leaving in Connecticut I just have to deal with it.  And since it's probably going to messy the morning, I'm just going to run it out on the treadmill.

Things are still going good with my eating. I had a flash of eating junk when I got home today while I was at work, but I blame that on some of the stress I was feeling at work. I'm going to have to come in on Saturday and I'm not exactly thrilled about it. But, I have to get everything done and extra money is always good.

I'm in desperate need of some new music for my workout list. What can you suggest for me?

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Happy Day After Christmas

I hope everyone had a great Christmas (if you celebrate). Mine was good. It wasn't GREAT (a few family issues) but last not on twitter I was being a total sour puss and I shouldn't have been.

I got the new vacuum I desperately needed. No, I really wanted it. My MIL bought it for me and I couldn't be happier.

My husband bought me a new Garmin. I can't wait to try it out tomorrow. I was going to try to hit the gym today, but I was exhausted after all the running around I did yesterday.

I got a great new water bottle, too. My old SIG was just a sad mess. I had dropped it so many times it didn't stand up without wobbling. And it's a really nice pretty purple color. 

I got a lot of gift cards, too. Can't go wrong with gift cards. I need to go over to Starbucks on Sunday after the gym so I can get me a nice strong coffee and use some of my gift card. And Target. I love me some Target.

And today started my New Years Resolution. I am not waiting until next Wednesday. I can't. I have my BIL's wedding in August I need to look AWESOME for and I can't mess around anymore. I want to look KILLER for this wedding. So I started back counting points today and so far so good. Old WW points. It's what works for me.

I also signed up for this challenge that Jess is holding. I'm always up for a good challenge.

Right now it's crazy at work. With end of the month AND year it's nuts. I am ready for it to be over now. I am sure I'll be working on Saturday.

So what did YOU get for Christmas?



Saturday, December 22, 2012

Something

I've wanted to post about the horrible tragedy that happened here in Connecticut, but I just didn't know how.  Even today, I'm still in shock and my heart is broken.

I wanted to do something. ANYTHING to help Sandy Hook.

So I signed up for this:

Sandy Hook Elementary Memorial Virtual Half and 5K.

It may not be a lot but it's something and I know it's something I can do.

Of course I signed up for the half and I haven't run over 5 miles since Christmas of last year, but it doesn't matter. I'll walk it if I half to.

I wanted to do something and it is close to my heart. Just like Connecticut.


Thursday, December 20, 2012

Back soon

December has been super busy. Getting back from vacation and back into the swing of things at work has been hard.

I've taken a little blog vacation but I promise to be back at it in 2013.

I have to. My diet and exercise are suffering, too.

But, I have a big wedding that I'm attending in August and I want to look and feel my best so I need to get ready for that.

I'm still reading everyone.

And I'll be back soon!! 

Monday, December 17, 2012

Monday, December 10, 2012

What a dope

Back from New Orleans.  Had an amazing and fantastic time!!

I didn't gain a single pound. I stayed the same so I'm pretty happy about that.  I tried to have a light breakfast and lunch so that when we had dinner I could eat a little heavier. I ate a lot of salad. A lot of salad. And chicken.

Worked out at the hotel fitness center 3 times while I was there with the other wives.

Walked A LOT. By Friday night I was exhausted and my feet were so sore.

My allergies decided to flare up super bad over the weekend before we left and I had to explain to my husbands BOSS what the hell Angioedmea was.  It was kind of embarrassing. It was bad enough when we showed up at the airport with my eye swollen shut, but everyone was staring at me like I'm some kind of jerk.

Monday night after I we got back to the hotel, I took off my sneakers I took off my shoe to find I had the worlds biggest blister. I am not kidding. I think it's because my foot was swollen so badly. It was so gross. I had to have my husband take care of it because I was so freaked out. I've never had a blister that big before.

New Orleans is crazy. Really crazy. I've never seen a city that crazy before. Not even Vegas.

And I had my first Skinny Peppermint Mocha from Starbucks. Total heaven. I want another one right now.

Our hotel room had a Keruig in it.

Today I had the day off from work so I decided to go out and do a little Christmas shopping after my run and I locked my keys in the car.  My husband had to drive from work an hour away to come unlock my door. I was so mad at myself. What a dope.

Back to work tomorrow. I'm ready to get back to normal. 

Saturday, December 1, 2012

How is it already December?

My allergies decided to come out and play today. Two days before we leave for New Orleans. Now,  it's not a big deal when I swell up on my hand, my arm, foot, etc, but when it's my face, I get really mad. And hide. It's rather embarrassing.

That is what I looked like when I left the gym and headed over to work. Right now my entire upper lip is swollen. And now it feels like the bottom one is started to swell.

I can't even tell you how frustrating and upsetting this is for me. I have a lot of things I need to do and planned on doing tonight, but because I don't like to go out in public (I'm surprised I even went to the gym but it wasn't too bad when I left the house) and have people stare at me, I won't go. I'm hoping tomorrow I'm back to normal again.

I've cried over this a couple times today. I still need to get my blood work done that I said I was going to get done in October, but never did. It's getting done when I get back from New Orleans.

In exercise news, I ran 3 miles at the gym. 3 very angry miles since I was so upset about my swelling. It's been a rough year for me with this. And I'm sick of it.

I wore my compression socks all day at work and I love them. I need to get more. I'm hoping that Santa brings me a couple more pairs.

I'm going into work again tomorrow. I have so much I need to finish up before vacation actually starts. I worked 6 hours today but only plan to go in for a couple hours tomorrow.

How was your Saturday?

Friday, November 30, 2012

The Flying Pig

As our trip to New Orleans draws closer (we leave on Monday) and the New Year is about a month away (2013 already?) I have already begun to think about where I want to see myself at this time next year.

A few months ago, I had hoped to be pregnant by now. But, I was not, in my eyes, at a healthy weight mentally or physically. I didn't want to be 190 pounds, get pregnant and gain 20+ pounds.  I wanted to be where I was last year. Working  out 5 days a week, eating right and taking care of my body. Not too mention at a weight I considered healthy.

As much as I hear that baby clock ticking (and man, it ticks really loud some days) I don't think I can mentally do that to myself. I'm not ready.  And so, when I return from New Orleans next week, I am going to throw myself back into my weight loss and exercise goals. I have been doing pretty well at it over the past few weeks. I only gained 0.8 over Thanksgiving and I'm fine with that. But, I'm no longer going to be a slave to the scale. It's going away for awhile. I can't let it rule my moods.

And, no longer will I just be the cardio queen that I am. I get up, I go to the gym, I run my 3-4 miles and I come home and shower. No more. I want to run, but I also need to get in some weight lifting. And I need to shake it up a bit. Take some spin classes once or twice a week. Last night I did Yoga when I got home and I am DEAD SORE today (also got a tweet from Bob Harper HELLO?!) after I said I didn't feel anything last night. These are things that are missing. I need to keep moving EVERY SINGLE DAY!

So, as much I am dreading this trip, because of the fact I feel like this fat frumpy, gross, woman, I am going to try and enjoy myself. I hate that I can't fit into any of my cute winter clothes from last year, but it's MY FAULT and if I want that to change, I need to change it. No one else can do that.

And, but don't quote me on this yet because it's only in the beginning phases, but I've been talking with this lovely lady about  MAYBE doing the Pig Half Marathon Flying in May. It would be something to work on. Maybe. I don't even know. I'm scared. Crap.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Work has been tough!

My Mom went home today. I'm very sad about this. It seems like she just got here and now she's gone. I think that part of it is because she'll be 71 next month and since I last saw her (which was in January of 2012) she seems to have aged some. She not as bad as some elderly people, but she's not in as good shape as others. She has a hard time with walking and needs to lean on things, walk with a cane or use a wheelchair or walker at times. I guess I'm worried I may not have that much time with her. But she is in good health otherwise.

However, she does want to move back here and looked around at some apartments when she was here. Probably sometime in the spring or summer she'll move back home.

As for me, my exercise has been pretty spot on. I went to the gym Wednesday-Sunday and took Monday and Tuesday off. I decided yesterday I need to work out every day. Not just for physical but for my mental health as well.

My eating was not so spot on this weekend, but it was tough with the holiday and getting back into the swing of things. And with my Mom here. But I did the best I could and so if I gain I gain. We'll see what happens.  I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'm worth more.

Hard to believe we're leaving for New Orleans on Monday!!! I'm excited and nervous at the same time. My eating will be put to the test but there is a fitness center in the hotel.

Work has been tough. I've work 9 hour days these days 3 days and will most likely be doing the same Thursday and Friday. Plus, I'll be going in on Saturday and Sunday. I have so much to finish up before I leave for vacation.

I'm ready for Christmas though. I plan to shop while I'm in New Orleans.  I already know a few things I plan to pick up.

And Jessica Simpson is pregnant again. Wow. There are no words.

How often do you work out?

Have you ever been to New Orleans?

Jessica Simpson...what?! lol

Friday, November 23, 2012

Happy Day After Thanksgiving

I purchased my first pair of compression socks on Wednesday and I'm a bit obsessed with them.

I ordered another pair already because I'm that much in love with them. Super comfortable.

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. I hit the gym in the morning for a 4 mile run. We had a great dinner with family. And I ate. A lot. But isn't that the point? I didn't care about one day. I've already moved on from it. 

I slept in this morning because I was exhausted. I was up early yesterday to cook the turkey (my sister's oven wasn't big enough so I cooked the turkey and brought it over), the gym and to pick up a newspaper. I don't go shopping on Black Friday but I do like to look at the flyers. It's something my Mom and I have done since I was a kid. And we watched the parade together.

I ran 3.5 miles this morning. And had left over turkey for breakfast/lunch. Yum!

I was going to go grocery shopping but I'm enjoying sitting around the apartment in my pajamas.

I also lost 1.6 pounds this week. So since I went back to Weight Watchers I have lost 4.8 pounds in 2 weeks. And that is with my Birthday in the mix. The first week back I did 3 days of running. The second week back I did 5 days. I'm happy with my progress.

We'll just wait and see what today brings. 

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Busy me

I'm sorry I've neglected my blog the past few days. I've been super busy. It doesn't mean I've fallen off the wagon.

I've been trying to spent time with my Mom, work, hit the gym and get ready for Thanksgiving.  It's a little exhausting. Plus, my husband isn't feeling very well tonight so that has me worried. I hate when his kidney acts up and it always makes me scared he'll end up in the emergency room like he did in 2008 and need surgery again.

Hopefully after the holiday I'll be able to have a proper update. I feel like I don't have too much to post about right now anyway. And, I do plan on posting every day in December as a little bit of a end of 2012 blow up for myself.

Plus, New Orleans and all that.

So, Happy Thanksgiving if I don't post before that. And I'll update again Friday!!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

I just about peed myself

Best.Tweet. Ever.





Thanks Karen for the photo capture!!

I ran 3 miles today. I'm enjoying some Mom time.

Life is pretty darn good.


Friday, November 16, 2012

Happy Dance

This week was one of the best weeks I've had food wise. I counted everything I ate. I was tempted to eat anything I hadn't planned to eat. And when I was stressed or upset, I didn't reach for a bag of cookies or a doughnut or anything I knew was horrible for my body.

And with that, I managed to lose 3.2 pounds!! I'm so proud and happy with myself, too. I still have a long way to go to lose the 30+ pounds I put on this year, but I know I'm finally moving in the right direction. It feels really good, too.  Counting Weight Watchers points is really the thing that WORKS for me and my body is rewarding me with the weight loss.

This week is going to be tough, too.  I have my Birthday on Sunday which I'm going to and not overindulge TOO much. However with that being said, Monday I know working is planning a little something something for me (thanks work bff for that heads up) so I have to try and be careful with that, too. And of course, Thursday is Thanksgiving. All of this in the same week. I'm going to try and workout as much as possible this week for activity points. I'm going to need them.

I'm off from work today. Tomorrow my Mom comes to visit and I'm excited. It's been almost a year since she was last here and I can't wait to see her. Unfortunately her visit isn't just to see her daughters. My Aunt, her sister, is very sick and I don't think she is going to be around for Christmas.

My husband gave me my Birthday present yesterday. It's a brand new laptop. I love it. It's awesome and just what I wanted. I knew my I.T. guy husband would get just what I wanted!!

I did hit the gym this morning for a 3.5 mile run which felt good. I had to push myself to go, but was so happy I went.

The house dream is moving forward. We applied for the loan so now we wait and see what we can afford. It's so exciting and scary at the same time!!

Now I need to get my butt in gear and get cleaning!!

What did you do for a workout today?

Do your parents/family live near you? How often do you see them?

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

It's still illegal

Do you ever have one of those days where you're all stabby and you have to remind yourself that murder is illegal? And you have to think long and hard about if you want to  spend your life behind bars or really throttle the person that is getting on your last nerve?

Well, I had one of those days today. All.Day.Long. All day. I swear if it wasn't thing, it was another.

And you would think that by the end of that day, when I get home and smoke start pouring coming out of the front of my car, I would have just dove into a pint of ice cream, buried my worries in a cake or both? But, I didn't. 

I've had the most stellar week food wise. 5 days and going strong. Every single thing that has passed my lips has been counted and tracked. I'm pretty proud of myself. I haven't wanted to eat crap. I have loved how happy and healthy I feel.

However, the stress and anxiety I feel is because of the lack of exercise and PMS. I need to get back to the gym tomorrow. The PMS will end once TOM gets here. I can't really do much about that.

I had waffles for dinner tonight. Waffles. Bet you're jealous.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Inset fancy title here

Sunday brought another trip to Costco to get ready for my Mother's arrival on this weekend. I wanted to make sure we had plenty of goodies for her for the two weeks she'll be visiting. Luckily she and I enjoy a lot of the same things so it was pretty easy to stock up on healthy foods.

I am however, having a lot of anxiety over the apartment not being ready in time and for that reason, I took Friday off from work to clean up and try to get as much done as I can.

We'll see if that works.

As for exercise and diet things are going well. I've stuck to my plan since Saturday without messing up so I'm pleased with myself. Today was a rest day for exercise, but I do plan to get back to it.

I'm pretty excited about Thanksgiving. Next to Halloween it's my favorite holiday. And I'm pretty excited that my Mom will be here.

We finished season 1 of "Sons of Anarchy" last night. OMG! WOW! OMG! I did not see that coming!! I won't get into details in case you haven't seen the show because I don't want to ruin it for you but WOW! I was totally shocked. And again, like with "Mad Men", the husband wasn't exactly thrilled to be watching it in the beginning, but he had to finish watching the season because he was into it by that point. So there. Haha. We'll probably have to wait to start season 2 until my Mom gets here because we'll be busy most of this week with getting ready for her arrival. 

What is your favorite holiday?

What tv show do you want to start watching?
I think after SOA I want to start "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia" for something funny for a change.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Mother Nature really hates the East Coast

Today's workout: 4 miles on the treadmill at home.

I'm convinced that Mother Nature hates the East Coast.

We had Sandy the week of Halloween and we had a snow storm this week. What is up with that Mother Nature? What is up with that? I was totally NOT prepared for the snow. The weather guys were telling us 1-2 inches so I thought no big deal.

WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! We had around 8 inches by the time the storm was over. And it took my husband over 4 hours to get home from work. Usually it takes him an hour give or take the traffic. Not okay.

If you've been reading my blog for awhile, you may recall I'm not a huge fan of snow. We had a rough 2010-2011 that left me thinking of moving to Arizona were they hardly get snow and when they do? It melts within a few hours. That winter was rough and I don't know if I can handle another one like it.

I had gone out on my lunch to go to the Chiropractor for the first time in 3 months (I know, bad Sarah) and my shoes were soaked. Again, not prepared. My pants were also soaked because they are a little too long for me.

Thursday, the day after the storm, it rained. Melting most of the snow. Today, it's in the 50's which is sure to melt the rest of the snow and tomorrow it's going to be in the 60's. Monday? Also in the 60's. I just don't get it.

As for me, I'm slowly digging myself out of the eating hell I've been in this week. I think I have it figured out. I don't know. I really need to get my head on straight. I'm a little stressed out with my Mom coming in a week and this apartment not even close to being ready for her.  We've put the baby planning on hold again because I'm so uncomfortable in my body right now and don't want to worry about that for the time being.  And we're thinking of buying a house, so that itself is pretty stressful.

I am, however, excited that my Mom will be here in a week. My Birthday is in 8 days and Thanksgiving is coming up. I have a few days off that week (I should have taken the whole week off) so I am looking forward to spending time with my Mom while she is here.

I'm listening to Christmas music (don't judge me!) while I clean up the apartment and dreaming of what we can buy at Costco tomorrow.

What did you do today?

Thursday, November 8, 2012

I'll be back!!

Excuse me while I try to get my crap together.

My head is not in the right place this week.

I promise I'll be back to blogging soon.

I'm still reading everyone!!

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

GO VOTE!!

I didn't sleep too well on Sunday night. I'm not sure if it was the time change or what, but something was up. I kept waking up thinking that I had overslept. And never mind when the sun started to come up. That REALLY confused the hell out of me.

Needless to say I had to use today as a rest day for my workout. Not that I can even remember the last time I ran or worked out on a Monday. But still.

After my salad from Moe's yesterday, it was awesome to finally get my mouth on one from Chipotle for lunch today.

This is the salad to end all salads my blog friends. Seriously.

Today it was really cold and I don't like that. It's clearly too cold for me to be running in the garage so I'll have to start getting back to the gym for my workouts. Which is fine. It's probably a better idea. Healthier, too, so that I'm not stuck in the cold air, etc. And I think I work harder when I'm at the gym.

The husband and I are talking about buying a house again. We could have a baby in the apartment, but we both think it's time to get out. It's been 16 years since we moved in. It's just time.

And finally, to all my US friends, I hope you went out and voted today. I don't care who you voted for, just DO IT!!

Monday, November 5, 2012

Sunday, Funday

After my run yesterday, I came upstairs from the garage to STARVING and wanted oatmeal. I found this.

That was not going to work for me at all!! Lucky for me, my wonderful husband went out and got me this.


PHEW!! I needed my oatmeal.

After breakfast (same as Saturday so I didn't take a picture) we showered and decided to head out and run a few errands. First stop? Costco! I have been wanting to join for awhile and we finally did.

I seriously LOVE that store. We spent two hours in there and bought the above items. $140 worth of stuff. There was so much I wanted to buy that we didn't. Can we say COFFEE? Like I need more coffee. You can't really make out the 24 pack of Monster Energy Drink under there, but it's there. That's my husbands.

After Costco, we hit up Target. And my husband promptly bought all of this.

This is Unreal Candy. If you have never heard of it, it's the best. Of course candy isn't GOOD for you, but if you want to eat candy, I suggest you eat this. It's all natural. No fake crap in here.

We walked around Target for awhile and finally decided to get something to eat. Since the husband eats at Moe's all the time and I am such a fan of Chipotle, I decided to give Moe's a shot.

It was good, but not spicy enough. I want it to burn my nose hair right off and make my lips catch on fire. Seriously.

The husband was pretty annoyed at me with all my picture taking.

That smile is totally fake.

Do you like Chipotle or Moe's? Or have you not tried either one?

Do you like spicy food?

Do you belong to Costco?


Sunday, November 4, 2012

I love you sleep

That extra hour of sleep was so amazing. I wish we got one every single weekend it would make Sunday so much more awesome.

While I was cleaning up the apartment yesterday I stumbled upon this:

Molly (the Siamese) and Bradley sleeping in the bed together. See Bradley giving me the stink eye? He pretty much does this when he catches me looking at him, knowing I'm going to attempt to touch him. Who couldn't NOT want to touch all that fluff? Anyway, he never sleeps in the bed. I had just changed the sheets and was getting ready to put the comforter back on, but because I didn't want to disturb him, I let them both be. Molly could care less. She's my little snuggle bunny.

We had another exciting Saturday night full of "Sons of Anarchy" and playing UNO. We just finished episode 4 of SOA. So far so good. I know my Dad would love loved this show, him being a biker and all.

I kicked the hubby's butt 5 times in UNO. Yes, don't be jealous of our evening. That is how we roll on Saturday night.




My upstairs neighbors were having some sort of party last night. I think it was a late Halloween party, but I can't be sure. For the first time in 10 years it was pretty tame and I was able to sleep. I'm impressed surprised. 

Today we're going to run around and do a few errands. I need to get some food into this house!!

I'm going for my run. 

What are your Sunday plans?

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Too soon?

I managed 4 miles this morning. I'm not sure how that happened, but it did. I'll take it. It's been awhile since I ran 4 miles. Of course, right now my body is extremely mad at me for it (sore calves hello!!) but I'm pushing through it. We have a lot to do around this apartment before my Mom arrives.

What do you think?? Too soon? I was just looking for a coffee mug and I saw it and thought why not? I clearly need a Thanksgiving one.


Breakfast was oatmeal, PB2 and a banana. I'm still addicted to bananas right now.

Right now I'm watching the husband put together my new Ikea shelf that I got for the bathroom. Words cannot even express how excited I am about this shelf. I needed one so badly. And that he's putting it together the day after it arrived.

We started watching "Sons of Archery" last night. Two episodes in and I can see I'm going to like it. I still miss "Mad Men" so this should help.

What did you do for a workout today?

Bananas yes or no?

Friday, November 2, 2012

No one thought to wake me up?

The NYC Marathon has been canceled. In the wake of Sandy, I believe it is a good thing. I am sad for my blog and twitter and facebook friends that were scheduled to run this weekend, but, it's a good thing. 

I told myself that no matter what, I was going to go to Weight Watchers and weigh in. I didn't matter that I had a rough start and didn't start counting points 100% until Wednesday. I was going anyway.

And I went today, just like I said I was going to.

And? I lost 1.6 pounds. Not bad. Not bad at all. That includes 3 days of working out, one day of inhaling all the food in my house and finally committing to what I signed up for 5 days after I signed up. We'll see what next Friday brings after I have a full week under my belt.

By the way, I burnt my ear while I flat ironing my ear this morning. That's what rushing gets you. I hardly ever straighten my hair anymore, but thought it would look pretty and was in a good mood so...you know...that happened. Nice job, Sarah.

If you follow me on twitter, you know I'm obsessed a huge fan of Blake Shelton. I love watching the awards shows, and was all over the CMAs last night. So, when he and my sister his beautiful wife won for their song "Over You" last night I was over the moon. I cried when she cried.

I was good until she started crying. That song always gets me. I tried to stay up to watch the whole show, but just couldn't. 10pm is usually my limit. How disappointed was I that no one woke me up when Blake won Entertainer of the Year? HELLO?! My husband wins THE award and no one thought to tell me??

By the way, Miranda is so freaking awesome because she is a REAL woman. I love that about her. My husband hates country music, but he's all about Miranda Lambert.

I'll be spending most of my weekend cleaning. Yay! Don't be jealous. We have two weeks until my Mom arrives and the spare room is full of junk. So, we have to get it ready for her. But, I'm pretty excited that she'll be here in two weeks.

What kind of music do you like?

What are you doing this weekend?

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Dark Chcolate Confection

Hello blogger friends!!

The country music awards are sucking up my evening so I don't have much time to update. But I just wanted to say that today was pretty awesome.

I managed a nice 3 mile run before work and it put me in a good mood. I always forget that does that and makes me not want to stab people.I had a rough night of sleep last night so I wasn't sure I was going to be able to get up this morning, but I did it and I'm happy about it.

Can we talk about this?

My coworker is always bringing these in and leaving them on our desks. They are these chocolate pieces of Polish heaven. He is polish and goodness do I love them. 5 PP but so worth it. Dark chocolate confection indeed. I want to find out where he buys them so I can buy them in bulk. Or just give him some money so he can buy me some. I'm drooling just thinking about them.

That's about it for my day. I've been swamped with end of the month stuff at work and I'm glad it's over. I'm looking forward to the weekend.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy Halloween!!

Halloween is my favorite holiday. It always has been. One of my favorite memories I have is trick or treating with my sisters dressed as Mickey Mouse. Another one is when I went trick or treating with my bestie (who is still my bestie) when I was 14 years old. I went as Tommy Lee from Motley Crue. Oh, whatever!! I went through a hair bands phase. So, it saddens me that we don't get any trick or treaters here. We got candy, but no kids.

I'd like to apologize for all my shitty blog posts I've put up lately. My pissy moods, my I suck posts. Whatever. I shouldn't get like that. I have no one to blame but myself for the weight gain and I'm sorry. I totally don't blame you if you want to unfollow me and not read my blog anymore. I deserve that.

I feel like I got my shit together together though. Remember how I said I rejoined Weight Watchers last week? Well, I finally started counting points today. It only took 5 days. I really needed to get my head out of my own ass.

And a big congratulations to Andrea on her first weigh in since she rejoined. She is part of the reason I went back. There are plenty of others who convinced me to go back, but after reading her blog last week, I decided it was time I did it, too.

My Mom is going to be here in 18 days.

My Birthday is in 19 days.

Tomorrow is November 1st.

I'll be in New Orleans in just a little over a month.

*thud*

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

It kind of sucks

Sandy has come and gone. Southern Connecticut was hit hard. I'm in Eastern Connecticut so I was lucky, but it's still sad to see what has happened to my state. And I feel for all of you that are still without power, who are stuck in a hotel somewhere because you were evacuated from your home, etc. I hope that everyone is safe wherever you may be.

I worked yesterday until noon when they sent us home. We never lost power which is a shock because we ALWAYS lose power. Once I was home I promptly ate everything that wasn't nailed down. I can't even begin to think about that right now.

I tried to blog yesterday, but every time I turned my laptop on the power would flicker and go out. It always came back on, but I decided to leave my laptop off.

I don't know. I'm still struggling with eating and exercise and everything.

I suppose at some point it might come together.

Today I thought about how last year at this time (when we had an ice storm) I was 160 pounds and wearing size 10's.

It kind of sucks.

Sometimes I wonder if I should just take a blog break because I'm not much of a weight loss blogger if I'm not losing weight.

I'm always on twitter if you want to follow me.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

How soon until season 6??

Here is last nights fantastic dinner:

Pot roast is the husbands favorite meal and since I forgot to turn the crock pot on the other day, I was still really craving the meal. It turned out pretty good and the husband cleaned his plate, so it MUST have been good.

This morning I was such a wimp and couldn't deal with the cold weather in the garage for my workout. So, I headed to the gym for my workout. And it was empty in there, which is always a plus. I think "Hurricane Sandy" is keeping everyone busy. I got in my 3 miles and did 30 minutes of weights.

The husband and I had talked about going out to breakfast after I got home, but I wasn't feeling up to it. I made him some greasy food (sausage, home fries, eggs) and I had these pancakes.

Holy moly were they good. I got the recipe here but added the PB2.  And no syrup needed. Tasted like banana goodness. There we go with my banana obsession again.

We finished up "Mad Men" and I'm very sad. I didn't like what happened to Lane, I don't like that Sally is now "a woman" and Glenn looks way too old for her with his creepy little mustache. And I don't like how it ended. Don't do it Don. Just don't. I'm going to miss watching the show. How long before season 6 starts??

Today I think we're going to pretty much hang out and get ready for the storm. I'm assuming I have to go into work tomorrow, but we'll see what happens. I only work 5 minutes away, so if the power goes out at work or if they send us home in the middle of a hurricane, it isn't that big of a deal. It's not a blizzard or an ice storm. Plus, we don't live near the shoreline so there is no threat of coastal flooding where I am. But, that doesn't mean we won't get flooding. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

And maybe we'll start watching "Sons of Anarchy" tonight!!

Be safe everyone!!


Saturday, October 27, 2012

Sandy, shandy...

Nice 3 mile run this morning. I had planned to get up early, but 9am was when my body decided it was time to get up. What can you do? So, after my run, I had a nice yummy breakfast.

Oatmeal, PB2 and banana. My love for bananas knows no bounds lately. I'm not sure what happened, but my body can process them correctly these days, so I'll eat them while I can.

I spent most of the day doing some cleaning around the apartment, some laundry and smelling the pot roast I have in the crock pot. This time I remembered to turn it on, thank you very much. I tried not to pay too much attention to the weather people. They are a little hyped up over this hurricane. Oh, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying it isn't going to be a big deal, but it isn't like Connecticut hasn't ever had one before.

Someone posted this on facebook and I thought it was hilarious.

A quick lunch between laundry rounds.

I have so much left over pork. I had to freeze the rest of it. It's so amazingly good though. I had it for lunch Wednesday and Thursday at work. I have probably 4 more servings in the freezer now. Plus left over meatloaf from Tuesday night. I'm going to cook up some chicken tomorrow for this week. That way I'm set for awhile. And I have a few different things to pick from. I'm sure there will be left over pot roast, too.

I'm sad that we're just about done with "Mad Men". We're half way through season 5. I've loved every moment about this show. Fat Betty makes me laugh. I mean, really?? I've decided my next show will be "Sons of Anarchy".  I know so many people that watch it and I've always wanted to. Actually, the husband and I watched the first couple episodes when it started, but it got lost in the shuffle.

What did you do today?

Happy Saturday!! And be safe all my East Coast friends!!



Friday, October 26, 2012

TGIF

Things I did today:

Ate chocolate cake for breakfast (don't judge me)

Rejoined Weight Watchers (I said don't judge me)

Had pizza for lunch (I can't even deal with this)

Worked with crazy people who think the world is ending because of the hurricane

Went grocery shopping and dealt with more crazy people who think the world is ending because of a hurricane

This was my day. And tomorrow I begin my journey back to losing this weight I've gained this year. I'm not happy about it, but I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself.

I'm sick of eating junk, too. It doesn't even taste good anymore.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Oh mother nature you whore

I forgot to turn on the crock pot today. Therefore, my pot roast sat out and was ruined.

The phone started ringing at work at exactly 8:30am and I swear it never stopped. I hardly got anything done all day.

I ate 3 potato hamburger buns for no reason when I came home from work and I don't even care right now.

I had 2 snack size Nestle crunch bars.

I didn't workout this morning.

All the ladies at work seemed to be in a crazy bitchy mood today.

There is a crazy hurricane heading towards Connecticut that they have decided to call "Frankenstorm". (A year ago this weekend we had freak ice storm that nearly sent me over the edge and I still have recovered. No, really. I don't do well without power. I'm not a campy type girl. So, the thought of it happening again doesn't exactly excite me the news and weather channel people right now. We lost power for 2 1/2 days and when I came home from work to find it on, I cried. No joke).

It's just been one of those days.

So...it wasn't the best day for me.

And if someone mentions the word snow one more time, I may just have to off myself. *

I do enjoy the new Taylor Swift album though.


*I'm joking people. It's a little thing I call sarcasm.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Guess what I did today??

Guess who went to the gym this morning? If you guess me, you are correct! If you said who? Well, shame on you!! I haven't been to the gym in probably a moth or so, so I'm pretty happy about it. I ran 3 miles and walked for a bit on the treadmill after, but at least I did something.

And I treated myself to a little something on my way in to work.

Half regular, half decaf. I'm still trying to cut back on my caffeine because of trying to get pregnant and all. I really don't notice much of a difference to be honest.

A little snack after my PB2, banana and Flatout breakfast. No picture of that because honestly, it always looks the same doesn't it?


Mmmmmm peanutty goodness.

And leftovers from last night for lunch:

Pulled pork, green beans and couscous. 

I eat at my desk a lot. Did you notice this? I really need to step away from my desk for lunch more.

I came home from work tonight to my neighbors having a huge fight. Not just a screaming match. An actual fight. They really go at it, too. It was a little scary to be honest with you.

I've been making dinner a lot for the husband and myself. I really enjoy it. I am trying to make something different every night. Last night was pulled pork. Tonight was meatloaf. Tomorrow is pot roast. You would think after 12 years of marriage and 16 1/2 of living together I would be used to it, but it's only recently that I started. Usually I make my own dinner and he either has cereal or picks something up on the way home. I'm trying to save us money and make healthier foods for him, too.

I'm beat. It's been awhile since I've been up at 5am for a workout. I forgot how good it makes me feel though and I was upbeat and happy all day. I need to make it a priority again. Workouts are important. Not just for my physical health, but for my mental health as well.



Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Funky funk

I'm here. I'm still alive. I just haven't felt like I've had much to blog about. I fell into a little bit of a funk the past couple of days and I hate to be a downer. So. I didn't want to be that person.

I'm not going to lie when I thought about locking up my blog and my twitter and calling it quits for awhile. It crossed my mind a few times over Sunday and Monday. I was pretty bitter and bitchy and just sick of A LOT of shit. But I would miss so many great friends I've made over the past few years and knew it was just the PMS talking.

I also need to workout more. I haven't worked out since Saturday and all the lack of exercise is taking it's toll on me. I've become to realize this. All work and no play makes Sarah really bitchy. And depressed. And mean. And a few other nasty words I won't repeat.

Anyway, like I mentioned in my last post, the husband and I went to Dark Manor on Saturday.  On the way down, I took a few pictures of the pretty foliage.





Trust me these hardly do it justice. It was really beautiful. We had dinner at this wonderful Italian restaurant, but it was such a small place that I didn't want to take a picture of my salad for fear that everyone would stare at me. But, take my world for it. It was great. It was a chicken salad on spinach with walnuts, craisins, and feta cheese.

After that, we went to the haunted house.

Okay. I like scary movies. I like being scared. But seriously. The woman who followed me around inside that looked like she might be from "The Ring" totally gave me the creeps. She was so tiny and I turned around and she was STILL THERE!!  And the chainsaw? I didn't even see who it. I heard it, I screamed and we ran. Haha. It was fun thought. The actors aren't allowed to touch you of course. I felt bad for the poor girl in front of us. She looked so scared.

Hopefully I'm going to get out of this funk I'm in. I hate feeling like this.

I made another awesome meal from The Gracious Pantry tonight. It's a pulled pork sandwich. It was so good. Find the recipe here if you want to try. I have leftovers for tomorrow for lunch.


















Saturday, October 20, 2012

Not my best run

I'm going to admit it now and let you know I got my first run in this morning since last Sunday. It wasn't pretty either, but I did it.

This was right before I headed out to the garage for my run. I really wasn't feeling it but pulled out 3 miles.

My weight lifting after? Much more into that. My arms feel like spaghetti.

Tonight the husband and I are going to this haunted house thing called Dark Manor. I'm probably going to pee myself have a lot of fun. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to take pictures or not, but I'll see what I can do. If someone reaches out and touches me? I may run screaming like a little girl.

What did you do for your workout today?

Haunted houses...yes or not?

Friday, October 19, 2012

Booya!!

I hate that I didn't get the chance to update yesterday. It was such a hectic day for me at work and I was so unhappy and all I wanted to do was come home and bury myself in a cake. Yes, the whole cake.

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But, I didn't. I was so proud of myself for not doing that. I just came and made dinner and went on with my life.

Today was much better I stopped at the store and picked up some prenatal vitamins.
Yes, I am a child and need gummy ones. I also need ones with iron because they make me feel all bloaty and icky and too much iron makes me constipated. Sorry about that.

My usual breakfast

I love it. I'm out of flat outs and bananas so I have to go grocery shopping STAT! It's a real emergency for sure. I seriously love this meal.

Snack time:

Only 50 calories for one of these. Yummy!!

The hubby and I are going are taking a little us time and going for a little getaway tomorrow night. I'm super excited. I'm going to try and take pictures. I tried to ask him to start taking pictures of his food for me via HRG but he got all sorts of freaked out and said I was crazy. WTH? Is that too much to ask? I want to know what you are eating for lunch if I can't be that.

Speaking of, I had chili again so no pictures. But it was still good. I love having leftovers and freezing them.

I lost 2.6 pounds this week counting calories. Booya! I know I said I wasn't going to weigh myself, but I couldn't resist.

I need more of this in my life tonight:





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Everyone needs more Don Draper in their life.





Wednesday, October 17, 2012

One of those days

Did you ever have one of those days where you felt like everyone was pulling you in a million directions at work and you thought to yourself, "I just can't deal with you people"?? Or is that just me?

Seriously. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE LOVE my job. My coworkers are fabulous. We get along great. One of them I call my work bestie and I would just die without her. But, sometimes I just can't deal with people. And it's not my coworkers. Today was one of those days. People need to step outside the damn box.

Also, I need to run. REALLY need to run. I know when I workout I'm a much happier person, but since my feet (now both of them) are swollen, I can't fit a sneaker on them to save my life and I'm getting really bitchy.

Lunch:

Left over chili from last night. For the recipe go to the Gracious Pantry. She has some great ideas there. Good stuff let me tell you. And if I can get the husband to eat it? Score!! He loves this chili and I make it as much as I can. My breakfast was the same old thing from yesterday and Monday, and I ate it so fast I forgot to take a picture anyway.

I'm in a rather foul mood today. I hate being like that.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Why I said I was going to run today and didn't

I posted on twitter today that I was going to run when I got home from work. And I was. I got home, got dressed and headed out to the treadmill. But, I hurt to run. And this is why:

See my left foot? It's so swollen I walked around with a limp most of the day. And when I put my running sneakers I had to shove my foot in there. It feels like my foot is almost 3 times it's size. Not okay at all. I was pretty disappointed because I never want to run after work, but today was different. Hopefully tomorrow my feet will be back to their normal size.

That being sad, I was pretty happy with myself for not eating one of these today:

Don't those look freaking fantastic? I am a huge cupcake person and I was really surprised that I didn't even want to eat them. That one in the right in the front had bacon on it. Yes, I said bacon. BACON. On a cupcake. It sounds so wrong, but so right.

Again, this was breakfast.

I think it might replace my oatmeal for awhile. I've been eating that for the past 2 1/2 years and this is so so SO good.

I can't tell you how easy I find My Fitness Pal. It's a breath of fresh air. I've used it in the past, but never really gave it 100% until these past 4 days. And I haven't had to worry much about food at all. I feel like I am never hungry or worrying about when I can eat again. I'm pretty happy.

I'm still in the process of getting my URL ready. It's pretty frustrating. Someday soon I'll have it up and running. I was so upset with it last night I was ready to boot my laptop out the window.

What do you find you eat usually for breakfast?

Cupcakes or cake?
I know you want that bacon one.



Monday, October 15, 2012

One of those days

Today was just one of those days where I just wasn't feeling it at work. I wasn't up to doing ANYTHING. Do you ever have one of those days?

Here is my breakfast, which was amazing and awesome. I'm very proud of this. I'm trying to eat more bananas and we have this:

A flatout, PB2 and banana. So darn good. And yes, I was eating at my desk at work. I do that pretty much every day. And coffee. Don't forget the coffee. Since we decided to try and get pregnant, I have cut back on my caffeine intake. I usually have one K-Kup and a Half Cafe (Or decaf) mixed together. We have a Keruig at work and I have one at home, too. I really can't tell the difference.

My Mom called me today while I was at work to tell me she booked her flight. She'll be here November 17th to the 28th. Which means she will be here for my Birthday (which is the 18th) and Thanksgiving!!  I miss my Mom so much. It's been almost a year since she was here.

I took today as a rest day for exercise. I didn't sleep that well last night so when the alarm went off at 5am I knew I wasn't going to be able to get up and run. But, after reading so many awesome recaps from races that happened this past weekend, I'm pumped to get up and run tomorrow morning. One of my favorite things to do when I get home is catch up on all my favorite blogs.

What did you have for breakfast?

Did you workout today?

What is one of your favorite blogs? (I'm always looking for new ones)


What do I want out of my blog

Some of the bloggers that I really enjoy reading are the ones that post a lot. You know the ones that I mean. They schedule their  blogs to post at the "right time". They take pictures of EVERYTHING. Their spouse. Their kids. Their food. Their workouts. Their friends and family.

And I read these blogs and I think to myself, I want this. I want to be THAT blogger. I want to take pictures of my mornings and my day at work and how boring exciting it is or how fun my morning run was. I want to take a picture of my dinner I made. So, I'm trying.

Not ALL of my favorite blogs are like that, but most of them are. And I envy these ladies because they all seem to have their shit together. Or at least, online they do. And by having their shit together. They have a spouse, a baby, a job, whatever and they have their shit together.

All of these things I want. I want to have my shit together.

So, I'm trying. I'm trying to have my shit together as best as I can.

I'm not expecting everyone to read my blog and I'm not expecting 100 comments everyday. Most of the time I just write for myself and that's that. I figure once I get my URL up and running it might be different.

What do YOU want out of your blog?

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Beautiful Sunday

I was up early for a Sunday morning. I usually like to sleep in and get up around 9am and get my workout done around 10am or even 11am. But, today, the husband and I planned to out to breakfast and go the movies. So, I was up at 6:45am (which is usually when I get up for work when I don't work out in the mornings) and on the treadmill by 7:30am for a 3.16 mile run.

And it was rainy and cold and I wasn't really feeling it when I first got up, but much happier by the time I was done.

Breakfast was good. Egg whites, turkey, potatoes and wheat toast. Oh and coffee, too.

We went to see "Sinister" which wasn't as SCARY as I hoped, but creepy. I like creepy movies, too. I like it if I have to jump out of my seat or grab the husbands arm or slap my hand over my mouth a few times. So, I liked the movie. It kept me guessing the whole time, too.

Today turned into a nicer day. It was cool and rainy when we left the house, but it has to be close to 70 now. The weather has been crazy here lately. It was probably 25 on Friday night into Saturday morning.

I found a new blogger to read thanks to SkinnyRunner and she just also happens to be a Mom. If you have never read STUFT Mama before you totally need to. Her cat cracks me up. And how does she get him to where clothes? My cats would kill me if I did that to them.

We'll be starting season 4 of "Mad Men" tonight. Season 3 ended with us going OMG? WOW!! I didn't see that coming at all. That show is addicting. Love it.

What did you do today? Do you like to sleep in on Sunday?

What is a blog you enjoy reading?

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Saturday fun

Today was the ING Hartford Marathon here in Connecticut and I have to admit I was thrilled watching it. I watched the coverage on television and remembered how exciting it was when I ran the NYC Half Marathon back in March of 2011. I know that someday I am going to run a FULL marathon. It's on my bucket list. Odds are it will be the Hartford Marathon because it's 20 minutes from my house and I won't have too far to travel.

It also got me motivated to get myself moving for my workout this morning. I ran a little over 3 miles on the treadmill and hit the weights after for 30 minutes. I feel really good, too. I've been using my Bowflex that I got for my Birthday last year and some free weights. I'm already thinking I need for a "home gym" that I don't already have.

Most of the day I've spent doing laundry and cleaning up the apartment. Not too exciting for a Saturday. I was going to go into work, but decided against it.  And tonight we're going to watch a little more "Mad Men" on Netflix I'm sure. Hubby hasn't been feeling too well. His kidney is bothering him. For those that don't know, my husband only has one functioning kidney.

Speaking of "Mad Men" if you watch it, do you not want to slap Betty across the face sometimes? Is that just me? We're almost done with season 3. We have a couple more episodes to go. Betty annoys the crap out of me. I love Joan. She's such a tough ass. And Peter...really dude? REALLY??  I'm still shocked by the amount of drinking and smoking that goes on in that show. My mother swears to me that it was like that. She said she smoked through all her pregnancies (thanks for that Mom).

Also... "The Walking Dead" returns tomorrow night!!

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Tomorrow is "Sinister" day. I'm so excited. We already bought the tickets. We're going to go out to breakfast first, too, to one of our favorite little places.  I'm surprised I was able to get him to agree to go to the movies. He has a hard time sitting still for a long period of time sometimes, but he knows how badly I want to see this movie and he wants to see it, too. I love scary movies.

Have you ever run a marathon or do you want to?

What did you do for exercise today?

What do you have for your home gym that I should have?

Friday, October 12, 2012

Finally Friday

Here's the deal. I've decided to use My Fitness Pal to track my calories. No more points counting. I enjoy it. I like it. So. We'll see. I weighed myself this morning and I will not be weighing myself again until the day before Thanksgiving. I'm going to workout as much as I can whether at home or at the gym and see how it goes.  I'm going to take my measurements tomorrow as well.

If you're on MFP and want to add me, my name is Mockingbirdgirl.

I went grocery shopping tonight for the first time in almost two weeks and the house is full of healthy foods. My allergies are 90% gone and I no longer look like someone punched me in the face. SCORE!

The husband and I are going to see "Sinister" on Sunday. That movie looks creepy as heck! I cannot wait. I love scary movies.

I'm going in to work tomorrow to make up some of the time I was out this week. Not an exciting Saturday, but what can you do?

Any plans for the weekend?

Do you like scary movies?

What is your favorite movie?

I have so many. "Donnie Darko" is one. Don't let the rabbit on the cover scare you. "Titanic" of course is another. "A Beautiful Mind" still gets me, too.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Back to work

If you don't read Mizfit, what is wrong with you? you should. She's now selling these awesome skirts.
Go check them out here. I totally want one.

I'm exhausted from work. It kept me really busy today and I hardly ate anything. Not good for me at all. I'm assuming I'll be back at the gym by Saturday when my face returns to normal.

This is what I looked like yesterday. I love Angioedema so much. Just picture it today but the opposite side. My nose doesn't look like that today. Sorry I look a mess, but I hadn't even showered when I took this picture. I was documenting it for my doctor. I'm going for blood work next week. This is the worst it's been since February.I was feeling better enough today to make it to work. My eyes were still pretty swollen, but I was getting depressed sitting at home and not having any human contact, so I had to go in today. By the end of the day my right eye was almost completely open and my left eye was about 3/4 of the way. You can see why people might stare. I look like someone punched me in the face. But, no.


Wednesday, October 10, 2012

It's just a number

False alarm. I'm home again today. I woke up with my eye swollen shut and both feet swollen. I tell you this disease is a bitch. I was suppose to get some blood work done awhile back, but since I haven't had any flare ups, I put it off. Guess what I'm going to get done next week?

Sitting home for two days without any human contact is depressing. We have no food in the house since I usually go grocery shopping on Monday nights, but didn't go this week because of my Angiodema. I had some frozen meals that I had made and put away in the freezer, but I'm pretty much out of those. The hubby picked me up a few things last night but tonight he's going to have to back to the store since I won't go into public like this.

And I sit here and think about all the work that is piling up on my desk. I was doing so well, too. I was about a day behind and so caught up. UGH!! Looks like I'll be going in on Saturday for a little make up time.

I miss working out. It's been a couple days. I'm up a couple of pounds, which is to be expected. I hate that scale. I really need to get rid of it for awhile and just go with out how my clothes fit. The scale does not rule my life.

I love this and I'm very tempted to do the same thing to my scale.

Hopefully I'll be able to hit the gym before work tomorrow. It's getting a little too cold for me to workout in the garage. Yes, I'm a wimp like that and don't like the cold at all. I've been sleeping in a sweatshirt at night. I miss the summer already. 

Do you have a scale? Do you weigh yourself often?

What is the weather like where you are?




Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Best doctor ever

I stayed home from work today. I had no choice. My allergies were too bad and all I could do was dope myself up with medication and sleep it off. I hate missing work over stupid stuff like this. I hate missing work in general unless it's for vacation. Now I'm going to have try and make up some of the time for the rest of the week.

I'm feeling much better now and the swelling in my face has gone down a lot. I like almost normal again. I will be going back to work tomorrow and I'm looking forward to that. The only GOOD thing about staying home is all the extra snuggle time I get with my this furry face.

Best doctor ever.

I have a URL now and I'm going to try and move this blog to it. Probably sometime this weekend if I can figure it out without going insane. Actually, I've always had said URL but I haven't used it in a long time. Hopefully I won't lose anything in the move, but you never know.

I've come to the conclusion that I watch too much television. We watched Sunday nights "Dexter" before "the Voice" came on last night. Now tonight we'll catch up on "Boardwalk Empire". And "The Walking Dead" comes back on Sunday. That means 3 shows to watch. Plus we're now on season 3 of "Mad Men" thanks to Netflix. So much television goodness.





Monday, October 8, 2012

A rock and a hard place

My allergies make me HURT!! I hate them. I hate how they make me feel today. I made it through work without killing anyone any problems, but I didn't eat much because it hurt to move my mouth. My head hurts. My face hurts. My teeth hurt.

For those that don't know, I have a little something called Angioedema and it's embarrassing to say the least when it breaks out on my face. When it's my arm or feet or fingers it's not a big deal. But when your eyes swell shut or it looks like someone popped you in the lip, people stare. I have no clue when it's going to happen or where it will appear. This year I have had a good year, but not today. It's a rare disease. Lucky me.

It's clear to me that what I'm doing eating wise is not working. What am I going to do? I don't know. I haven't decided yet. I understand it worked for me in the past, but it's not working now. I've been thinking about going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm not sure though. If I get pregnant, I stop going. I have never made Lifetime and I've always wanted to. I don't know what to do to be honest. I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

My Mom is coming to visit next month and I want to drop some of this weight before she gets here. I was 165 the last time she saw me and all she could was comment on how skinny I was. It's not that she'll say I'm fat, but you know how Mom's can be. And she loves me, I know she does. We're close, but I haven't exactly told her how much weight I've gained.

Looking forward to "the Voice" tonight. Love me some Blake Shelton.

What show do you watch on Monday night?

Do you have allergies?

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Apology

Today didn't go as planned. I don't know why, but I was just in a bitchy mood this morning. And my husband took the brunt of my bitchiness.

Right now? I'm home and he's at the baby shower. Crazy right? I guess it was just one of those weekends for me. I've been super bitchy and moody and I don't know what it is.

I don't know these people. The people who are having the baby shower. He does and so I guess it's not that big a deal that I didn't go. And to be honest, I don't think I really wanted to go because I would end up feeling sad and depressed that I'm not pregnant or it wasn't my baby shower.

So in the end it's probably a good idea that I didn't go. I probably would have been miserable the whole time I was there and forced a smile and a total bitch the way there and the way back.

Basically, I haven't been a lot of fun this weekend and I know I owe my husband a big apologize when he comes home tonight.

So, now I'm just catching up on "Grey's Anatomy" since I'm 2 seasons behind. I stopped watching in 2010 when we went to Arizona and never got caught back up. Thank you, Netflix.


In my dreams

Last nights dinner. I'm still dreaming about it. Seriously. How did I live before Chipotle? I don't even know. I told the hubby we could try Moe's tonight since he loves that place. I've never been, but since we'll be out and about today for the baby shower, we could stop and pick up something on the way home.

I hit the treadmill this morning 3 miles. I'm super excited about it. Yesterday I managed 2 after my 2 week break and today I was able to get in 3. After that I did 20 minutes of weights.

I'm looking forward to running this next week:

There is still time to sign up if you haven't.

What was your exercise for the day?

What meal are you dreaming about?