Update

Don't worry. I'm alive. Just struggling with a little depression this weekend.

I did get in a couple good runs this week. Over miles both days.

I blame the depression on TOM and PMS.

I'm also doubting myself and if I can actually do this half marathon.

I feel like I have to make myself workout these days.

All this snow is killing me. We're getting more tomorrow AND Wednesday. Although with sleet, ice and freezing rain. I don't even know where we are going to put anymore snow.

Spring and summer cannot get here fast enough.

I did gain this week. I was up 1.6 pounds. No big deal. I don't let the scale rule me. I worked out 5 times which is awesome. I ate a lot of my activity points. And it was also the week before TOM. I hope to see a loss this week. And I have 20 pounds before goal. It's not going to be easy to reach goal. Last year at this time I was 240 pounds. I'm very happy with my weight loss right now.

I've warned my boss if there is an inch of ice on the ground on Wednesday, I'm not coming to work. Just not going to happen.

I'll do a better update soon. Promise.

Waist high in snow

I know I joke about it on twitter, but the husband and I are giving some SERIOUS thought about moving to Arizona. And after this morning, I want to move even more.

I was waist high in snow. WAIST HIGH! Are you freaking KIDDING ME?! I cried when I stepped outside and saw all the snow. I am not joking. I cried. I am not cut out out for this weather anymore. I'm too old for this. And I don't think I can handle another winter like this one. And it's not even over yet. We have a long way to go before Spring. And just because March 20th (oh my Half Marathon) happens to be the first day of Spring, doesn't mean we can't get more snow. Because we have had freak snow storms in April. My sister was born during a snow storm in April.

And yes, I know it gets hot in Arizona. But I like it hot. I would rather be sweating then cleaning my car off. Which took me 30 minutes to do. And then not be able to get out of my driveway because there is too much snow for my car to move. Because that was me this morning. I got into work 40 minutes late. Which isn't a big deal, but still. I wasn't happy about it. Tuesday it took me 20 minutes to get to work and I live 5 minutes away. FIVE MINUTES!

I give. I give. No more.

And on that note, I hit the gym on my lunch today but it wasn't much of a run. I am a morning runner. I cranked out 3 miles in 40 minutes but my heart wasn't into it. I've had a hard time this past couple of days. I'm not sure why. Blame it on PMS or whatever. But I've been very blah.

It may also be the weather. Not enough vitamin D.

I am addicted

I am addicted to Kashi Go Lean Crunch Chocolate Caramel Bars. I love them and I if I have more then one in the house, I eat all of them. If I buy a box of 4, (which at Target I do) I have to have my husband hide them and give them to me one at a to me. Isn't that sad?

Starting tomorrow I am going to stop eating them cold turkey. Number one, they are not part of a clean diet. And number two, they just aren't something I want to be addicted to eating right now.

So I am not going to buy them anymore.

Anyway....

My running is going really awesome. I did 5.82 miles on Sunday. I didn't run the entire time, but I tried my best. And today I was going to blow off my workout but ran on my treadmill at home and loved it. It was a 3.60 miles and I felt fantastic afterward. I haven't updated my daily mile yet because I'm having issues with the windows computer (I use Linux which doesn't work with my Garmin).

My back feels great. I think this Chiropractor thing is a happy relationship.

So I think if I can give up my Kashi bar addiction I'll be okay. Ha!!!

And if the snow will just stop...

Wait for it...

My eating has been total CRAP lately. I mean not to the point where I have gained 10 pounds and my clothes don't feet. But I haven't been eating the best I can. I haven't been eating clean. And I need to stop it. NOW!! We haven't done a decent grocery shopping trip in like a month and that is part of it. So tomorrow after I get out of work (ugh, yes, I am working tomorrow), we are going to go out and stock up on healthy food so I can stop this downward spiral.

I weighed myself this morning and...wait for it. Wait for it... 169. ONE HUNDRED AND SIXTY NINE POUNDS!! This is going to be my weigh in for this week because I kind of slipped tonight and ate crappy. Which is okay since I can weigh in whenever I want, but still.

169! Holy crap. I haven't been 169 in 5 years. It's been a long time coming.

I finally got back to the Chiropractor tonight. After being sick and all the snow. Which I am damn sick of. It felt good. And I feel awesome. So off to the gym with me tomorrow. More running tomorrow. And Sunday. And back to the Chiropractor Monday.

I can't wait to stock up on healthy foods. It will feel good!!

All the 20's are awesome

One month from today: The Daytona 500.

Two months from today: My first Half Marathon.

Good things are happening on the 20th of the month. I should schedule something for April 20th. Ha!

I've been struggling lately to workout. Ever since my back and then getting sick it's been hard to get up and go to the gym. And then all the snow (which we are getting more of tomorrow-thrilling)...it's almost easier to not get up and go to the gym and say "I'll go tomorrow". But then I today I remembered...I have my own treadmill. I actually enjoy going to the gym better. I feel like I push myself more there. That I get a better workout. And yesterday I was so tired when I got home. After being sick and working a 10 hour day, I was beat. But I did a 2 miles this morning at home. And I loved it. It was a great run. One of the best ones I've had in awhile. Sure it wasn't much, but it was something I needed.

And since we're getting more snow tomorrow, I'm going to run again at home.

I can't wait for Spring. I am not cut out for the winter.

Like the klutz that I am

It's not nice here in Connecticut. We have a lot of snow and ice on the ground. I fell down my stairs. It was kind of like slow motion and all I could think of was "NO! NO! NO! Not my back" and managed to turn so that my right arm took the brunt of the impact. It hurt. It hurt A LOT. I sore I broke it at first. That is how much it hurt. But I didn't. But it's sore. And also my right butt cheek. But there is plenty of padding there so I don't have to worry.

I hit the gym this morning and it wasn't the best run. I ran and walked. I wasn't up to running the whole thing. But now that I am no longer sick I am going to give it 110%.

Two months from tomorrow I will be running my half marathon. OMG!! Nothing is going to stand in my way. NOTHING!!!

Still sick...

I'm still sick. I haven't been to the gym since Sunday and I went home from work yesterday because I was pretty miserable. I called out today because I still feel like ass. Hopefully I will be better tomorrow and can go get my run on tomorrow before work.

I have a half marathon to train for. A half marathon that is is almost 2 months away. I'm getting a little nervous now. A little nervous that I may not be ready for it at this point.

Back to bed...

Got my run in...

Got my run on this morning. It wasn't my best. Sure, my little Daily Mile friend says I did almost 4 miles but that includes warm up and cool down. I didn't run for 4 miles. I wish. My chest is full of... well... a lot of mucus right now.

But my Garmin is pretty cool. And I can't wait to use it again.

Now I'm going to go rest so I can be up for another workout tomorrow. And work.

Fun!!!

I am alive

Just to let you know I am alive. I didn't get buried under the 2 feet of snow that fell in Connecticut on Wednesday. Yes, 2 feet of snow. It left me trapped in the house and I kind of lost my mind. I don't like being stuck in the house and I kind of ate a lot of stuff I shouldn't.

Then the gym opened late on Thursday. So I thought Oh great. Two days of no running. But I went on my lunch and got in a 2.5 mile run. Not too bad. I still have yet to run over that.

Thursday night I started feeling sick and Friday morning I woke up miserable. So I didn't run then either.

Today however I am feeling much better. MUCH better. I haven't run since Thursday though and that makes me nervous.

I gained 0.6 this week. No big deal. I ate whatever I wanted last night because I wasn't feel well. And I will lose it this week. I'm not going to let that get me down.

I also got a Garmin Forerunner to start tracking my runs. Woot! Can't wait to try it out. I'm so excited about it.

Tomorrow I take it with me to the gym. And give it a test run.

I want to catch up on all your blogs and see how everyone is doing. Hopefully much better then me!!

Holy Freaking Moly

I had my first actual appointment with the Chiropractor tonight.

HOLY FREAKING MOLY!

I'm telling you this is the best thing I've done for myself in the past year besides losing all a bunch of weight.

The doctor said it was an old injury about 15-20 years old and I mentioned to him that when I was 15 I fell down a set of icy steps and landed, you guessed it, right on my tailbone. Where my back hurts. And he said that is most likely what did it.

I'm ready to run tomorrow morning!! I'm going back to see him after work, too. This can and will be corrected.

I have a half marathon to train for people!!!!!

2 miles

I decided my back was feeling well enough to try a short run today. 2 miles. Which yes, is short. I was scheduled to do 5 miles today. Not sure if I'll actually be ready for my half marathon at this rate but regardless.

I ran those 2 miles and feel no back pain. Okay, right now sitting here I feel a little bit of pain, but there was no pain running. Which is what I was hoping for.

And my new running shoes? I love them. They are great. I want to thank the guy at New Balance for helping me. He was so nice and helpful. And my new sneakers are amazing.

We got more snow here in Connecticut last night. I'm sick of it already and it's only January 9th. Oy....

I stopped by work for about 30 minutes and it wasn't bad. I thought my desk would be covered with junk. Sure I had about 10 inter-office envelopes on there but it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought. My confirmation bin wasn't too full either so I decided to just wait until tomorrow to worry about working. I was scheduled to have this Thursday and Friday off but because of my back issues I won't be taking those off this week.

If my back continues to feel better tomorrow I will try another short run. If not there is always the Elliptical.

Chiropractor

After missing 2 1/2 days of work I saw the Chiropractor yesterday. And, he can help me!! I am so relieved, excited, happy!!! You have no idea. I was so afraid it was going to be really bad, but it wasn't. I go back on Monday to see my X-rays and then we go from there.

I hit the gym today for the first time since Wednesday. I didn't run, even though my back feels 90% better then it has in the past couple of days. But it felt good to be back at the gym and working out again. I ellipticaled my brains out. 418 calories were burned according to my HRM. It felt good to be covered in sweat.

And then when I was leaving the gym, a woman told me I looked great, keep up the good work. This is the same woman who said that to me in October. So I left with an even bigger smile on my face then normal.

I was going to attempt to go into work for a few hours, but I just don't want to deal with the office yet. I'm going to stop in tomorrow after my workout though for a couple of hours. Just to see what my desk looks like, etc. I'm sure it looks like a bomb went off.

Also, I'm 2 pounds away from being under 170!! Woohoo!! I weighed in at 171.8 pounds!!!!!! Amazing!!

Depresses me

I seriously hate my back.

Hate it.

What if I can't run because of it?

Right now that is my worst fear. I'm afraid that after I lost all this weight (again) that I'm not going to be able to do something I love. Something that I haven't been able to do in so very long.

And that really upsets me. It really depresses me.

More back problems

My back can SUCK IT! I left work today my back hurt so bad.

I bought new sneakers tonight. By the way, Fleet Feet in West Hartford? Thanks for NOT helping me. You lost my business and gave it to New Balance in Manchester. So thanks for that. And I'm sure that New Balance thanks you, too.

Anyway... I got some nice new comfy shoes with inserts. Found out that not only are my feet a size smaller then I thought, but I over pronation when I run. And it causes all sorts of issues with my feet and legs and back. So now I have some running shoes that should help with that.

I also have an appointment with a Chiropractor on Friday.

I also went to Plato's Closest (a used clothing store) and got 2 dresses and a Victoria's Secret shirt. Man, do I love shopping.

Those pants from yesterday that I blogged about? Going back.

A Whole Case of Vanilla

So I ordered these pants/tights whatever you want to call them from zappos and they came yesterday. I happened to see Bitchcakes talking about them on twitter and thought I would check them out. She mentioned that they were great for helping with impact and I was ready to try anything when it came to my back problems.

Those suckers are TIGHT! And they work! I didn't feel a thing when I did my 3.5 mile run today. I am a little sore, but nearly as bad as I was on Sunday after my 4 mile. So I'm going to try them again tomorrow for my 2 mile run and see how it goes. I have another 3.5 miles planned for Thursday and then I don't have another run planned (at this point) until Sunday. Unless I change my mind.

I am, however, going to schedule myself a massage for next week. I have Thursday and Friday off from work. So one of those days I am going to see if I can squeeze one in. And see if that helps.

I got my Old Navy order today. I love my new tops. LOVE THEM!! And I got my free Chobani yogurt. Gotta love twitter! A whole case of Vanilla

Sore back (again)

I really wish my back would stop hurting. I have a half marathon to train for. I was supposed to workout today but that didn't happen. Between the lack of sleep and my back hurting all night I decided to make it a rest day.

But I need to get back at it tomorrow.

And I really hope my back agrees with me tomorrow. I can't take my husband with me to work to massage my back all day.

As much as I want to.

This and that and a little more...

I spent the afternoon with my crazy ass family yesterday. I love them. I feel lucky to have them. And my nephew and his girlfriend are doing fantastic after their car accident in October. This is only the second time I have seen her since the accident. She is still in rehab (she has one more surgery she needs to have) but is allowed to come out on a day pass as long as someone signs her out. Which is crazy because she is 30 years old. My nephew by the way is almost 24. Anyway, my family is nuts and we are freaking crazy and I am so lucky to have them. And I am lucky my husband loves them because sometimes we get really crazy and vulgar and just OUT THERE.

My sister invited everyone over for brunch and she made sure to have healthy stuff for me!! I was so happy. I was able to have yogurt and fruit and cottage cheese. I was worried so I made sure to eat a little something before hand just in case.

After my sisters we went over to Target because I wanted to get some new exercise clothes. I had these gift cards from Christmas that I wanted to use, too. And of course, I tried on a few other things. I just love to do that now. I grabbed a pair of large exercise pants. They were too big. I ended up with a size medium. MEDIUM! I haven't been able to wear medium in forever. I'm still kind of shocked.

Those bad boys held up very nicely this morning for my 4 mile run. I think I need to go and pick up another pair this week. I'm a little sore from the run, but I don't really have any plans for the day. Maybe a little laundry. We do need to pick up some groceries.

Right now I'm just enjoying my coffee and relaxing....

Happy 2011!!!!!!

I am not making any New Years Resolutions. I just feel the need to do so.

I have things I hope to do and accomplish this year. And that is how I am going to leave it.

I want to take a spin class. My gym doesn't offer them, but the sister gym in town over does. So I am going to call and sign up. I don't have to pay extra for this because I pay extra for classes anyway. In the 9 1/2 years I have been a gym member I have never taken a class at my gym. Or the sister gyms.

I also want to try indoor rock climbing. I always have. And there is a place about an hour or so from here that has great prices. So I want to try that, too.

Oh and I want to hit my weight goal. And run my half marathon. That would be great, too.

But no resolutions.

Happy 2011 to you all! I hope you have a great year! Make it a great year!! I know you can!!