Team Tara

So I went to go check on Scooby (my sisters dog) after work. Poor puppy. He is lonely already. I let him out, gave him fresh water and filled his food bowl. Pet him and told him he was a good boy. Gave him a cookie. When I left he was on my sisters bed, eating the cookie. I feel so bad for him.

I am not working out tonight. I'm feeling better but don't want to push it. April is going to have be a big deal for me exercise wise. I felt I was just getting back into the swing of things in the past few weeks and then I hit a wall.

Totally looking foward to "The Biggest Loser" tonight. I never talked about last weeks episode so I will now. Tara kicks ass! She is a total freaking machine and I adore her! This is the first time that someone I have liked from the beginning is still there and dominating everthing. Kelly didn't win. Suzy didn't win. Kai didn't win. Coleen didn't win. Brittney didn't win. I liked Ali and Michelle both but they were not my first choice. And Ali got sent home and then came back. So it's a big deal for me to see a woman doing so well. It's usually the men. And how awful was it that everyone picks on her? I mean I know it sucks that they aren't winning but adding all that weight to her? When she won that challenge, with the extra 200+ pounds in it, I nearly cried. I probably would have if I hadn't been at the gym. So I'm totally looking forward to what tonight brings and to see how all the contestants that went home look like now.

I'm one of those people

I'm not feeling all that hot today.

Kind of achy and a little stuffy.

Thinking that going home and putting on my pajama's is the best thing to help me feel better. Although I had planned on getting back to the gym tonight I'd rather not get SICKER by pushing myself. I know it sounds like an excuse but it's the truth.

So my sister is on vacation this week and I’m taking care of her dog. Well I’m just going and checking on him because if I brought him home he would literally eat my cats. He’s a good dog and I love him but since we only have one car right now I’m getting up 30 minutes earlier in the morning to go let him out and feed him. Our older sister was supposed to take him tonight and bring him back tomorrow but she can’t so I have to stop on the way home. And I just want to go home because I don’t feel good. So I’ll be taking care of him all week until Saturday when the older sister takes him for the weekend. Sister comes back from vacation on Monday so it’s only a week. But it’s still bothering me because I hate changes to my schedule.

Yeah, I’m one of those people.

I’m just going to have to see how I feel when I get home when it comes to going to the gym. I’ve pushed myself to go before when I didn’t feel that good and ended up getting super sick and other times nothing has happened. I know I’m just being lazy and making some excuses but sometimes I just don’t want to go to the gym.

Boy do I miss the gym rat days of 5-6 days a week for 2 hours. That was some fun times. I miss running and I miss being healthy and in good shape. But I know I’ll get there in time.

It just sucks I let myself go (again).

Glad that weekend is over...

I had a rough weekend depression wise. Sunday didn't turn out to be a great day for me eating wise. But that's okay. I'm human and I'm entitled to have bad days.

Today I'm back to eating right and feeling better. TOM is due any day and I'll be super glad when it finally gets here.

I haven't worked out since Saturday and I haven't been to the gym since LAST Tuesday but I will be there tomorrow night.

Work was much better today. Better then it has been in awhile.

Off to catch up on blogs.

65 minutes on the treadmill

I haven't accomplished much today. It's a little TOM depression.

I did do 65 minutes on the treadmill and listened to a Jillian Michaels podcast. I totally LOVE them. I did 4.47 miles all together so that isn't bad.

It was so beautiful here today. I am feeling some spring fever for sure.

I am looking forward to watching "Midnight Bayou" tonight on Lifetime. I love that book and it should be interesting to see what they did with it.

I have found myself watching "Little Miss Perfect" on WEtv today. This show disturbs me in every way but here I am. Ha ha.

Oh and to answer your question, Bri, I am eating a lot of chicken or turkey meatloaf for lunch with some rice and vegetables. It's really filling and I enjoy it. I need to branch out and make some different meals but this works for now.

Saturday stuff

I am totally happy about my loss this week. I really busted my hump to get it and I am hoping next week to see a little bit more come off since TOM is due any day now.

I will admit that I had one cookie yesterday at work. But considering all the stress I've been under at my job over the past couple of weeks I am lucky I didn't inhale the entire box of them and I don't believe that one cookie is going to kill me. Its all about self control, right?

And instead of eating sodium filled tv dinners all week (I've been listening, Jillian ha ha) I made my lunches and had was so full after every one that I didn't eat an afternoon snack.

Right now I'm trying to decide between hitting the gym or just using my treadmill. Saturday's are usually used for cleaning and laundry. If I go to the gym I think I'll miss most of that and it needs to be done. 60 minutes on the treadmill would be better. Tomorrow is a gym day for sure.

down 1.2 pounds

I'm down 1.2 pounds today.

No gym since Tuesday. Plans to go tomorrow and Sunday.

Another crap-ass day at work.

I am so glad it's the weekend.

For smiles here is my Princess, Miss Molly Moo.

Who shot Miss Moo??

Here I am!!

Yesterday I was totally in a funk and worried about work stuff. I was a mess last night and worried about stupid stuff. Everything is over and done with now and I'm feeling much better. I also decided to give myself a break from the gym. I do plan on going tomorrow night though.

Instead I stayed home in my pajamas and scanned some pictures for my facebook and just enjoyed my evening.

Plus "Grey's" was really good and I'm glad I watched it tonight.

I am really looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow. I worked out 3 days for and burned off nearly 2000 all together. My eating has been SPOT ON and I hope to see a little loss. I say little because TOM is due and I know I'll see a better loss next week.

TGIF!!

anxious

I have a lot on my mind tonight. I'll probably do a real update tomorrow.

Gym results

Great workout tonight!! I ended up doing 70 minutes on the ellitpical because I didn't want to miss "TBL" and what was going on. I am not going to talk about it now but it was freaking awesome!!

I totally pushed myself tonight and may be a little sore tomorrow. But that's okay. I like sore.

45 minutes of weights and 70 of cardio!! ROCK IT!!

Reality bites

Going back to work was HARD! I really should have worked on my resume this weekend. HR came in and I thought that I was going to get into a bit of trouble because of what happened last week but I didn't. She wanted to talk to everyone about things that were going on and make sure we all knew we could talk to her blah blah blah.

Whatever. Nothing ever changes and since I've been working there for nearly 8 1/2 years, I know that.

I was trying to talk myself out of going to the gym tonight but what would be the point of that? I'd sit around doing nothing watching television. So I'm going. Since "the Biggest Loser" is on a 9pm tonight I'll probably see the first 45 minutes or so at the gym and watch the rest when I get home. I totally want Tara to make 100 pounds lost tonight. Okay, Kristin too, even though I don't really care for her.

At least it's a short week and tomorrow is Wednesday.

Bradley

I know I should get mad at him for doing this, but Bradley just looks too darn cute.

Awesome day

I had a great day today with the husband. It was awesome to be able to sleep in on a Monday and then just kind of be lazy for awhile.

First thing we did once we get out of the house was stop at this natural/organic store that is like 30 seconds from my house. Seriously. I've been saying for months now I want to stop by and check it out. It was pretty cool. I picked up this really good kettle corn that is organic/gluten free etc. Pretty tasty stuff.

After that we went to the used paperback book store. Or should I say, I went inside, hubby isn't into books like me. So he went over to visit his friend that works right by the store while I browsed. I traded in 4 books and bought 4 books so I guess it turned it out kind of even. I'm usually the type of person that rereads her books but the ones I traded in were ones I didn't really care for so why not see if I can let someone else enjoy them?

Then we went to my favorite store in the whole entire world, Target. Yeah! I finally got the "Twilight" dvd after reading about everyone else picking up a copy. Ha. We also looked at mountain bikes and discussed possibly getting new bikes for ourselves. Hubby's friend that he visited with while I was at the bookstore, has lost a bunch of weight and mentioned he was getting one. I have been thinking about getting one, how nice it would be to ride a bike and how much fun it was when I was a kid and riding a bike. But we'll see. I am enjoying going to the gym these days so I don't want to buy a bike if I'm not going to use it.

We hit a couple more stores before heading home. I was able to pick up a filter for my coffee machine so that I don't have buy the little cups all the time and use the coffee I have in my freezer. I've been looking everywhere for that thing. Also got some light hot dog buns. I swear my grocery store is always out of them.

Then I made dinner, did some laundry and made my lunches for the rest of the work week. I'm trying to get better by cooking my own meals and not having sodium filled tv dinners all the time. I think Jillian's podcasts are totally paying off.

Speaking of Jillian and her podcasts, my husband has loaded me up with a bunch more. So my workouts are going to be totally full of Jillian Michaels this week.

Not exactly looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. But I am looking forward to going back to the gym.

Ready to watch "Dancing with the Stars" tonight.

Tagged

Okay, the rules of the award is to list seven (7) things that you love and then pass it on to 7 bloggers that you love. So here goes:

I love my husband
I love my 3 cats
I love working out
I love eating healthy
I love sleeping in
I love my family and friends
I love reconnecting with people on facebook

I was tagged by Purple Moon Flower. I am tagging:

Holly over at Holly on the Run
Angie over at Angie all the Way
I'm Such a Scale Whore
Lex over at Sweet Tooth
Swirl over at Body for Life
Sars over at Sars's Journey to the NYC Marathon
Katherine over at Katherine's Daily Adventures
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Sunday at the gym

The gym was unexpectedly slow when I got there. I thought for sure it would be packed, but it wasn't. Nothing makes me happier then not having to fight over Elliptical machines.

I did 65 minutes on the elliptical and 40 minutes of weights.

I was a bit disturbed to see a young boy, around 11 or 12 years old using the weight machines. Now, tell me if I'm wrong, but I believe that's wrong, no? Or is that just me? I would think that his mother would not want him to be lifting weights at such a young age.

I also hate when people don't clean off their equipment when they are done (see above). Ewww.

I am super glad to have a 3 day weekend. It will be nice to sleep in on Monday. Ha!

Slept in

I got up later then planned today so I'll be heading out to the gym in about an hour or so. I had some breakfast and want to wake up a bit before I leave.

I am just not a fan of getting up early at all these days. I know it must be the medicine I'm taking for allergies that totally knocks me out.

I hope everyone has a great Sunday!

Saturday

Highlights of my day:

-spent time with my hubby
-slept in (it was nearly 11am when I got up)
-had a great breakfast of cereal and fruit
-caught up with "Grey's Anatomy" and "Hell's Kitchen"
-did some laundry
-did some cleaning
-enjoyed my day

Gym tomorrow! Yeah!!

Super tired.

Hubby and I went to the gym tonight. I did 60 minutes on the elliptical and then 15 minutes of weights. Hubby did 45 minutes of cardio. He's just getting into the whole workout thing so he doesn't want to jump right in. Can't say I blame him. When I joined the gym nearly 7 years ago I coudln't do 15 minutes on the elliptical so he's in better shape then I was back then. lol

We came home and freshened up and then went to karaoke. I did not sing (ever) but hubby loves it and he's super good at it.

Does it count that I ate 2 onion rings and a mozzarella stick? Whatever. Could have been worse. I say it gets zeroed out because I burned off 600 calories prior to eating it. lol

Off to bed. Totally sleeping in tomorrow.

up again this week

Can we talk about how much I enjoyed the Jillian Michaels podcast last night while I was working out? Her show is freaking awesome!! I listened to one from February. I have a couple more to listen to but I want to get them all. She really made me think about what I was eating and what I shouldn’t. Less sodium, more protein, less carbs, more fruit/veggies, more organic, less processed. I’m working on this, one step at a time.

Unfortunately I’m up again this week. I’m up 0.6 pounds. I was immediately angry about it but then again, I did eat a lot of junk LAST Friday because I gained 3.2 pounds (which I’m still confused about). Instead of heading for the food AGAIN tonight, the hubby and I have plans to go workout. So that next week I can see a couple pounds come OFF. I have to learn not to let the numbers on the scale put me in a good mood or a bad one. I’m worth more then that. It’s still hard to not be upset with all the hard work I’ve been putting in. I worked out Saturday and Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday so I would have hoped to at least maintain. And I know my body is getting used to working out again, too. We’ll just see what happens.

Today starts the 20 pounds in 20 weeks challenge that I have joined. I know I’ve joined a couple other challenges and then kind of fizzle out, but I think that this time it’s totally doable and I hope to be 20 pounds less (or more) by August 20th. Head on over to http://ashisfit.blogspot.com/ to check it out.

“Biggest Loser” talk now so if you didn’t watch Tuesday’s episode yet, you probably don’t want to read this:


Why would Helen do that to Tara? Really? You’d rather Sione win then Tara? He’s on your team, why didn’t you eat a cookie for him? I know that people are annoyed because Tara wins everything but for once I’m not. Usually someone on the show I don’t care for wins everything and is really smug about it. I don’t believe that Tara is like that and I truly like her. For once, the person I picked from the beginning is still there and still kicking ass. But even though Helen ate that cookie and ruined Tara’s chance at winning $10,000 Tara had the fastest time and no one can take that away. The blue team is just getting slaughtered this season. I wonder when they will switch them to individuals so that the blue team can have a chance. Personally, my least favorite people are Ron and Kristin. I don’t like how Ron says “It’s your turn to go home”. Who made you king? And I just don’t like Kristin. Something about her rubs me the wrong way. I felt HORRIBLE when Mike went home and his brother started crying. I was pretty choked up myself. It’s so hard being overweight and worse when your young.

So glad that the first day of spring is here! Wish it felt like spring.

5pm can’t get here fast enough so I can have a 3 day weekend.

groovy!!

So I kind of feel like I'm getting my groove back when it comes to exercise and going to the gym.

I went again tonight. 60 minutes on the Elliptical and 45 minutes of weights.

I'm feeling pretty good.

Hopefully this is going to last!!

blowing off some steam

I’m taking Monday off from work for a mental health day. I totally need it and am looking forward dot having a 3 day weekend.

I’m still pretty upset about work stuff. I’m not the only one who is upset and I’m just not ready to talk about it right now. Things are really screwed up and I am supposed to be talking to my boss today, if he ever decides to show up to the office today.

Eating is good. I stepped on the scale this morning and I’m up a little bit from last week (oh maybe because Friday I ate everything that was glued down). But I am feeling 100% committed these days and I hope to either maintain for my weigh in or be up a tiny bit. But next week, I hope to see a nice loss.

Planning on hitting the gym tonight and tomorrow. Hubby is going to start going with me starting tomorrow and I am really looking forward to it. I know that I am totally looking forward to going tonight and blowing off some steam. I’m going to FINALLY get to listen to some Jillian Michaels podcasts while I am there. Pretty excited.

“Biggest Loser” talk coming soon.. I finished Tuesday’s episode last night. Happy but also not happy with the show and things that happened.

**edit** 2:11pm

I spoke with my boss about the situation that came up yesterday and I’m feeling better about things. Hopefully things will blow over and go back to “normal” soon enough.

Reasons

Sometimes I know the reason behind my weight gain and lack of weight loss is because of my job.

I need to work on my resume.

The one in which I go to the gym....

As much as I was trying to talk myself OUT of going to the gym tonight, I went. And I'm super glad that I did, as usual.

65 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes of weights. Woohoo!!

The gym was surprisingly quiet tonight. I enjoyed that. Could have been because of St. Patrick's Day. Could just be because it's warming up and people aren't going to want to work out in a hot, sweaty, gym (it was darn hot).

I watched the first hour of "the Biggest Loser". Very good. I'll catch up on the rest of it tomorrow night before "Lost".

Off to catch up on a few blogs and then hit the hay.

anxiety

So right now I’m sort of arguing with myself about working out tonight. I want to go but then I don’t. A little anxiety and I’m ready to run home and stay on the couch all night long.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

I’m half Irish so of course I have to wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick’s Day today. Last night I made Irish soda bread for work and it’s already gone this morning. I had a little slice myself since I made it and all. I figured it was probably 2 points since there isn’t much in the soda bread itself.

I spoke with my Mom last night for the first time in like 2 weeks. She’s doing super good and healing up nicely. She wants hubby and I to come visit her but I keep telling her I want to lose a little weight before I get on a plane first. I’m just not comfortable flying at this weight.

I’m not as sore this morning as I was yesterday. My ribs don’t hurt and I can laugh without feeling like I’m going to die. I am planning on going to the gym tonight. I am so happy that hubby will be able to start going with me on Friday. That is going to be a big help for me for sure.

I have leftovers from last night’s dinner for lunch today. I had wanted to cook lunches for this week over the weekend but I was stuck in such a funk that I didn’t want do anything. I know it’s better for me and healthier for me in long run so hopefully this weekend I do that. I love having tv dinners and all but sodium wise it’s better and I feel like I get more out of a 6 point lunch I make then a 6 point tv dinner.

I’m off to get some work done. I’m feeling much better then I have in the past few days so hopefully my little depression funk is over for awhile.

20 in 20

Step 1: Make a plan and set your goal!
My plan: To lose 20 lbs. in 20 weeks
My goal: To lose the weight and keep it off!!

Step 2: Choose rewards!

(To be determined)

Step 3: PLAN!
I know I'll be following Weight Watchers and working out 4-5 times a week.
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So I stumbled upon this a little while ago and wanted in. I haven't really done all that great this year with BLBE2 and I love that challenge and will rejoin next time if they do it but right now I thought this would be something great to try, too. Plus 20 pounds in 20 weeks? That's totally doable if I work my tail off. Which I plan to.

I am so freaking sore from the past 2 days of P90x. My ribs are so sore every time I laugh or cough it hurts. I am resting tonight, hitting the gym tomorrow, resting Wednesday, hitting the gym Thursday and Friday. Then Saturday may be a day of rest. We'll see how I feel. If not it's probably going to be a DVD.

So I'm feeling a little better then I have in the past couple of days. I totally need to start looking for a new job but I'm so scared about it.

Thanks to everyone for following me over here from my old blog. I totally love the layout that I found. It's so cute and girlie.

I have a question for the girls (okay maybe some guys have done it, too but we'll see). Do you wax? Or have you waxed? Just curious. I've never done it but just purchased some do it yourself stuff. I HATE shaving (I do it like every day) and thought this might help me out a bit. Comments? Suggestions?

I'm off to catch up on blogs and watch "DWTS". So super glad that Ashley is gone on "Rock of Love Bus." Totally hated her!!

Damn you superman banana

I’m awfully grumpy today. I’m just so SICK of the crap that goes on at work. Ugh. I was pretty close to staying home today but thought better of it. It probably would have been a good idea in the long run since I’m not in the best of moods but what can you do? I’m just going to try to keep myself as busy as possible today so that the day goes by somewhat quickly.

I am super sore today. My abs are KILLING me. Which I am sure is a good thing but it hurts to laugh. Damn you superman banana. Damn you. Supposed to exercise again tonight but we’ll just have to wait and see how I feel when I get home.

Didn’t do too much yesterday after my workout. Watch tv. Took a nap. Finally hubby convinced me to go out and run a couple errands with him. I ended up sitting in the car but at least I got out of the house. We had Subway for dinner which was yum.

Got a little bit of spring fever. Nice weather here in Connecticut. I wish I could be outside enjoying it.

Sunday morning

Today I did Cardio X from P90x and that was pretty awesome. I really need to get some sort of mat for yoga stuff but other then that I really enjoyed it. I worked up a hell of a sweat.

And I was pretty surprised at how sore I was this morning when I woke up. I didn't think I worked my abs much and they are sore. As well as my thighs.

I wish the weekend would last forever. I do not want to go back to work tomorrow at all. I don't have any planned time off for a while but I may have to take a few days off soon.

Off to finish watching "Rock of Love Bus".

Phew

I am out of shape. Waaaaaaaay out of shape. I did my first P90x tonight and wow. It beat the crap out of me for sure. I was a little upset during one part. For letting myself get like this again. For letting myself get so fat and out of shape. Ugh! But I pushed on and managed. Anyway, the first one I did was Core Synergistics and it was tough. A great workout, but tough. Damn that superman banana. lol

Not saying I'm going to do this for the rest of my life but for days I'm not hitting the gym or days I don't WANT to hit the gym, it works well. With hubby nearly able to start working out (his 6 weeks will be this Friday) I may actually go to the gym more since he wants to start. We'll see.

I'm kind of in a bit of a depressing "funk" right now. Hopefully I'll get out of it soon. I think besides my weight issues, work is doing a number on me.

Off to watch Thursday night's "Grey's".

Moving along nicely....

I'm slowly getting this blog to look like I want it to. I've added a bunch of my favorite blogs and hope to have readers soon.

I even added my weight! I am pretty embarrassed at it, but it has to be done.

More to come!!

Coming soon

Coming soon, a woman’s journey from a size 20 back to a size 8!