Happy Halloween!!

Halloween is my favorite holiday. It always has been. One of my favorite memories I have is trick or treating with my sisters dressed as Mickey Mouse. Another one is when I went trick or treating with my bestie (who is still my bestie) when I was 14 years old. I went as Tommy Lee from Motley Crue. Oh, whatever!! I went through a hair bands phase. So, it saddens me that we don't get any trick or treaters here. We got candy, but no kids.

I'd like to apologize for all my shitty blog posts I've put up lately. My pissy moods, my I suck posts. Whatever. I shouldn't get like that. I have no one to blame but myself for the weight gain and I'm sorry. I totally don't blame you if you want to unfollow me and not read my blog anymore. I deserve that.

I feel like I got my shit together together though. Remember how I said I rejoined Weight Watchers last week? Well, I finally started counting points today. It only took 5 days. I really needed to get my head out of my own ass.

And a big congratulations to Andrea on her first weigh in since she rejoined. She is part of the reason I went back. There are plenty of others who convinced me to go back, but after reading her blog last week, I decided it was time I did it, too.

My Mom is going to be here in 18 days.

My Birthday is in 19 days.

Tomorrow is November 1st.

I'll be in New Orleans in just a little over a month.

*thud*

It kind of sucks

Sandy has come and gone. Southern Connecticut was hit hard. I'm in Eastern Connecticut so I was lucky, but it's still sad to see what has happened to my state. And I feel for all of you that are still without power, who are stuck in a hotel somewhere because you were evacuated from your home, etc. I hope that everyone is safe wherever you may be.

I worked yesterday until noon when they sent us home. We never lost power which is a shock because we ALWAYS lose power. Once I was home I promptly ate everything that wasn't nailed down. I can't even begin to think about that right now.

I tried to blog yesterday, but every time I turned my laptop on the power would flicker and go out. It always came back on, but I decided to leave my laptop off.

I don't know. I'm still struggling with eating and exercise and everything.

I suppose at some point it might come together.

Today I thought about how last year at this time (when we had an ice storm) I was 160 pounds and wearing size 10's.

It kind of sucks.

Sometimes I wonder if I should just take a blog break because I'm not much of a weight loss blogger if I'm not losing weight.

I'm always on twitter if you want to follow me.

How soon until season 6??

Here is last nights fantastic dinner:

Pot roast is the husbands favorite meal and since I forgot to turn the crock pot on the other day, I was still really craving the meal. It turned out pretty good and the husband cleaned his plate, so it MUST have been good.

This morning I was such a wimp and couldn't deal with the cold weather in the garage for my workout. So, I headed to the gym for my workout. And it was empty in there, which is always a plus. I think "Hurricane Sandy" is keeping everyone busy. I got in my 3 miles and did 30 minutes of weights.

The husband and I had talked about going out to breakfast after I got home, but I wasn't feeling up to it. I made him some greasy food (sausage, home fries, eggs) and I had these pancakes.

Holy moly were they good. I got the recipe here but added the PB2.  And no syrup needed. Tasted like banana goodness. There we go with my banana obsession again.

We finished up "Mad Men" and I'm very sad. I didn't like what happened to Lane, I don't like that Sally is now "a woman" and Glenn looks way too old for her with his creepy little mustache. And I don't like how it ended. Don't do it Don. Just don't. I'm going to miss watching the show. How long before season 6 starts??

Today I think we're going to pretty much hang out and get ready for the storm. I'm assuming I have to go into work tomorrow, but we'll see what happens. I only work 5 minutes away, so if the power goes out at work or if they send us home in the middle of a hurricane, it isn't that big of a deal. It's not a blizzard or an ice storm. Plus, we don't live near the shoreline so there is no threat of coastal flooding where I am. But, that doesn't mean we won't get flooding. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

And maybe we'll start watching "Sons of Anarchy" tonight!!

Be safe everyone!!

Sandy, shandy...

Nice 3 mile run this morning. I had planned to get up early, but 9am was when my body decided it was time to get up. What can you do? So, after my run, I had a nice yummy breakfast.

Oatmeal, PB2 and banana. My love for bananas knows no bounds lately. I'm not sure what happened, but my body can process them correctly these days, so I'll eat them while I can.

I spent most of the day doing some cleaning around the apartment, some laundry and smelling the pot roast I have in the crock pot. This time I remembered to turn it on, thank you very much. I tried not to pay too much attention to the weather people. They are a little hyped up over this hurricane. Oh, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying it isn't going to be a big deal, but it isn't like Connecticut hasn't ever had one before.

Someone posted this on facebook and I thought it was hilarious.

A quick lunch between laundry rounds.

I have so much left over pork. I had to freeze the rest of it. It's so amazingly good though. I had it for lunch Wednesday and Thursday at work. I have probably 4 more servings in the freezer now. Plus left over meatloaf from Tuesday night. I'm going to cook up some chicken tomorrow for this week. That way I'm set for awhile. And I have a few different things to pick from. I'm sure there will be left over pot roast, too.

I'm sad that we're just about done with "Mad Men". We're half way through season 5. I've loved every moment about this show. Fat Betty makes me laugh. I mean, really?? I've decided my next show will be "Sons of Anarchy".  I know so many people that watch it and I've always wanted to. Actually, the husband and I watched the first couple episodes when it started, but it got lost in the shuffle.

What did you do today?

Happy Saturday!! And be safe all my East Coast friends!!

TGIF

Things I did today:

Ate chocolate cake for breakfast (don't judge me)

Rejoined Weight Watchers (I said don't judge me)

Had pizza for lunch (I can't even deal with this)

Worked with crazy people who think the world is ending because of the hurricane

Went grocery shopping and dealt with more crazy people who think the world is ending because of a hurricane

This was my day. And tomorrow I begin my journey back to losing this weight I've gained this year. I'm not happy about it, but I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself.

I'm sick of eating junk, too. It doesn't even taste good anymore.

Oh mother nature you whore

I forgot to turn on the crock pot today. Therefore, my pot roast sat out and was ruined.

The phone started ringing at work at exactly 8:30am and I swear it never stopped. I hardly got anything done all day.

I ate 3 potato hamburger buns for no reason when I came home from work and I don't even care right now.

I had 2 snack size Nestle crunch bars.

I didn't workout this morning.

All the ladies at work seemed to be in a crazy bitchy mood today.

There is a crazy hurricane heading towards Connecticut that they have decided to call "Frankenstorm". (A year ago this weekend we had freak ice storm that nearly sent me over the edge and I still have recovered. No, really. I don't do well without power. I'm not a campy type girl. So, the thought of it happening again doesn't exactly excite me the news and weather channel people right now. We lost power for 2 1/2 days and when I came home from work to find it on, I cried. No joke).

It's just been one of those days.

So...it wasn't the best day for me.

And if someone mentions the word snow one more time, I may just have to off myself. *

I do enjoy the new Taylor Swift album though.


*I'm joking people. It's a little thing I call sarcasm.

Guess what I did today??

Guess who went to the gym this morning? If you guess me, you are correct! If you said who? Well, shame on you!! I haven't been to the gym in probably a moth or so, so I'm pretty happy about it. I ran 3 miles and walked for a bit on the treadmill after, but at least I did something.

And I treated myself to a little something on my way in to work.

Half regular, half decaf. I'm still trying to cut back on my caffeine because of trying to get pregnant and all. I really don't notice much of a difference to be honest.

A little snack after my PB2, banana and Flatout breakfast. No picture of that because honestly, it always looks the same doesn't it?

Mmmmmm peanutty goodness.

And leftovers from last night for lunch:

Pulled pork, green beans and couscous. 

I eat at my desk a lot. Did you notice this? I really need to step away from my desk for lunch more.

I came home from work tonight to my neighbors having a huge fight. Not just a screaming match. An actual fight. They really go at it, too. It was a little scary to be honest with you.

I've been making dinner a lot for the husband and myself. I really enjoy it. I am trying to make something different every night. Last night was pulled pork. Tonight was meatloaf. Tomorrow is pot roast. You would think after 12 years of marriage and 16 1/2 of living together I would be used to it, but it's only recently that I started. Usually I make my own dinner and he either has cereal or picks something up on the way home. I'm trying to save us money and make healthier foods for him, too.

I'm beat. It's been awhile since I've been up at 5am for a workout. I forgot how good it makes me feel though and I was upbeat and happy all day. I need to make it a priority again. Workouts are important. Not just for my physical health, but for my mental health as well.

Funky funk

I'm here. I'm still alive. I just haven't felt like I've had much to blog about. I fell into a little bit of a funk the past couple of days and I hate to be a downer. So. I didn't want to be that person.

I'm not going to lie when I thought about locking up my blog and my twitter and calling it quits for awhile. It crossed my mind a few times over Sunday and Monday. I was pretty bitter and bitchy and just sick of A LOT of shit. But I would miss so many great friends I've made over the past few years and knew it was just the PMS talking.

I also need to workout more. I haven't worked out since Saturday and all the lack of exercise is taking it's toll on me. I've become to realize this. All work and no play makes Sarah really bitchy. And depressed. And mean. And a few other nasty words I won't repeat.

Anyway, like I mentioned in my last post, the husband and I went to Dark Manor on Saturday.  On the way down, I took a few pictures of the pretty foliage.

Trust me these hardly do it justice. It was really beautiful. We had dinner at this wonderful Italian restaurant, but it was such a small place that I didn't want to take a picture of my salad for fear that everyone would stare at me. But, take my world for it. It was great. It was a chicken salad on spinach with walnuts, craisins, and feta cheese.

After that, we went to the haunted house.

Okay. I like scary movies. I like being scared. But seriously. The woman who followed me around inside that looked like she might be from "The Ring" totally gave me the creeps. She was so tiny and I turned around and she was STILL THERE!!  And the chainsaw? I didn't even see who it. I heard it, I screamed and we ran. Haha. It was fun thought. The actors aren't allowed to touch you of course. I felt bad for the poor girl in front of us. She looked so scared.

Hopefully I'm going to get out of this funk I'm in. I hate feeling like this.

I made another awesome meal from The Gracious Pantry tonight. It's a pulled pork sandwich. It was so good. Find the recipe here if you want to try. I have leftovers for tomorrow for lunch.

Not my best run

I'm going to admit it now and let you know I got my first run in this morning since last Sunday. It wasn't pretty either, but I did it.

This was right before I headed out to the garage for my run. I really wasn't feeling it but pulled out 3 miles.

My weight lifting after? Much more into that. My arms feel like spaghetti.

Tonight the husband and I are going to this haunted house thing called Dark Manor. I'm probably going to pee myself have a lot of fun. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to take pictures or not, but I'll see what I can do. If someone reaches out and touches me? I may run screaming like a little girl.

What did you do for your workout today?

Haunted houses...yes or not?

Booya!!

I hate that I didn't get the chance to update yesterday. It was such a hectic day for me at work and I was so unhappy and all I wanted to do was come home and bury myself in a cake. Yes, the whole cake.

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But, I didn't. I was so proud of myself for not doing that. I just came and made dinner and went on with my life.

Today was much better I stopped at the store and picked up some prenatal vitamins.

Yes, I am a child and need gummy ones. I also need ones with iron because they make me feel all bloaty and icky and too much iron makes me constipated. Sorry about that.

My usual breakfast

I love it. I'm out of flat outs and bananas so I have to go grocery shopping STAT! It's a real emergency for sure. I seriously love this meal.

Snack time:

Only 50 calories for one of these. Yummy!!

The hubby and I are going are taking a little us time and going for a little getaway tomorrow night. I'm super excited. I'm going to try and take pictures. I tried to ask him to start taking pictures of his food for me via HRG but he got all sorts of freaked out and said I was crazy. WTH? Is that too much to ask? I want to know what you are eating for lunch if I can't be that.

Speaking of, I had chili again so no pictures. But it was still good. I love having leftovers and freezing them.

I lost 2.6 pounds this week counting calories. Booya! I know I said I wasn't going to weigh myself, but I couldn't resist.

I need more of this in my life tonight:

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Everyone needs more Don Draper in their life.

One of those days

Did you ever have one of those days where you felt like everyone was pulling you in a million directions at work and you thought to yourself, "I just can't deal with you people"?? Or is that just me?

Seriously. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE LOVE my job. My coworkers are fabulous. We get along great. One of them I call my work bestie and I would just die without her. But, sometimes I just can't deal with people. And it's not my coworkers. Today was one of those days. People need to step outside the damn box.

Also, I need to run. REALLY need to run. I know when I workout I'm a much happier person, but since my feet (now both of them) are swollen, I can't fit a sneaker on them to save my life and I'm getting really bitchy.

Lunch:

Left over chili from last night. For the recipe go to the Gracious Pantry. She has some great ideas there. Good stuff let me tell you. And if I can get the husband to eat it? Score!! He loves this chili and I make it as much as I can. My breakfast was the same old thing from yesterday and Monday, and I ate it so fast I forgot to take a picture anyway.

I'm in a rather foul mood today. I hate being like that.

Why I said I was going to run today and didn't

I posted on twitter today that I was going to run when I got home from work. And I was. I got home, got dressed and headed out to the treadmill. But, I hurt to run. And this is why:

See my left foot? It's so swollen I walked around with a limp most of the day. And when I put my running sneakers I had to shove my foot in there. It feels like my foot is almost 3 times it's size. Not okay at all. I was pretty disappointed because I never want to run after work, but today was different. Hopefully tomorrow my feet will be back to their normal size.

That being sad, I was pretty happy with myself for not eating one of these today:

Don't those look freaking fantastic? I am a huge cupcake person and I was really surprised that I didn't even want to eat them. That one in the right in the front had bacon on it. Yes, I said bacon. BACON. On a cupcake. It sounds so wrong, but so right.

Again, this was breakfast.

I think it might replace my oatmeal for awhile. I've been eating that for the past 2 1/2 years and this is so so SO good.

I can't tell you how easy I find My Fitness Pal. It's a breath of fresh air. I've used it in the past, but never really gave it 100% until these past 4 days. And I haven't had to worry much about food at all. I feel like I am never hungry or worrying about when I can eat again. I'm pretty happy.

I'm still in the process of getting my URL ready. It's pretty frustrating. Someday soon I'll have it up and running. I was so upset with it last night I was ready to boot my laptop out the window.

What do you find you eat usually for breakfast?

Cupcakes or cake?
I know you want that bacon one.

One of those days

Today was just one of those days where I just wasn't feeling it at work. I wasn't up to doing ANYTHING. Do you ever have one of those days?

Here is my breakfast, which was amazing and awesome. I'm very proud of this. I'm trying to eat more bananas and we have this:

A flatout, PB2 and banana. So darn good. And yes, I was eating at my desk at work. I do that pretty much every day. And coffee. Don't forget the coffee. Since we decided to try and get pregnant, I have cut back on my caffeine intake. I usually have one K-Kup and a Half Cafe (Or decaf) mixed together. We have a Keruig at work and I have one at home, too. I really can't tell the difference.

My Mom called me today while I was at work to tell me she booked her flight. She'll be here November 17th to the 28th. Which means she will be here for my Birthday (which is the 18th) and Thanksgiving!!  I miss my Mom so much. It's been almost a year since she was here.

I took today as a rest day for exercise. I didn't sleep that well last night so when the alarm went off at 5am I knew I wasn't going to be able to get up and run. But, after reading so many awesome recaps from races that happened this past weekend, I'm pumped to get up and run tomorrow morning. One of my favorite things to do when I get home is catch up on all my favorite blogs.

What did you have for breakfast?

Did you workout today?

What is one of your favorite blogs? (I'm always looking for new ones)

What do I want out of my blog

Some of the bloggers that I really enjoy reading are the ones that post a lot. You know the ones that I mean. They schedule their  blogs to post at the "right time". They take pictures of EVERYTHING. Their spouse. Their kids. Their food. Their workouts. Their friends and family.

And I read these blogs and I think to myself, I want this. I want to be THAT blogger. I want to take pictures of my mornings and my day at work and how boring exciting it is or how fun my morning run was. I want to take a picture of my dinner I made. So, I'm trying.

Not ALL of my favorite blogs are like that, but most of them are. And I envy these ladies because they all seem to have their shit together. Or at least, online they do. And by having their shit together. They have a spouse, a baby, a job, whatever and they have their shit together.

All of these things I want. I want to have my shit together.

So, I'm trying. I'm trying to have my shit together as best as I can.

I'm not expecting everyone to read my blog and I'm not expecting 100 comments everyday. Most of the time I just write for myself and that's that. I figure once I get my URL up and running it might be different.

What do YOU want out of your blog?

Beautiful Sunday

I was up early for a Sunday morning. I usually like to sleep in and get up around 9am and get my workout done around 10am or even 11am. But, today, the husband and I planned to out to breakfast and go the movies. So, I was up at 6:45am (which is usually when I get up for work when I don't work out in the mornings) and on the treadmill by 7:30am for a 3.16 mile run.

And it was rainy and cold and I wasn't really feeling it when I first got up, but much happier by the time I was done.

Breakfast was good. Egg whites, turkey, potatoes and wheat toast. Oh and coffee, too.

We went to see "Sinister" which wasn't as SCARY as I hoped, but creepy. I like creepy movies, too. I like it if I have to jump out of my seat or grab the husbands arm or slap my hand over my mouth a few times. So, I liked the movie. It kept me guessing the whole time, too.

Today turned into a nicer day. It was cool and rainy when we left the house, but it has to be close to 70 now. The weather has been crazy here lately. It was probably 25 on Friday night into Saturday morning.

I found a new blogger to read thanks to SkinnyRunner and she just also happens to be a Mom. If you have never read STUFT Mama before you totally need to. Her cat cracks me up. And how does she get him to where clothes? My cats would kill me if I did that to them.

We'll be starting season 4 of "Mad Men" tonight. Season 3 ended with us going OMG? WOW!! I didn't see that coming at all. That show is addicting. Love it.

What did you do today? Do you like to sleep in on Sunday?

What is a blog you enjoy reading?

Saturday fun

Today was the ING Hartford Marathon here in Connecticut and I have to admit I was thrilled watching it. I watched the coverage on television and remembered how exciting it was when I ran the NYC Half Marathon back in March of 2011. I know that someday I am going to run a FULL marathon. It's on my bucket list. Odds are it will be the Hartford Marathon because it's 20 minutes from my house and I won't have too far to travel.

It also got me motivated to get myself moving for my workout this morning. I ran a little over 3 miles on the treadmill and hit the weights after for 30 minutes. I feel really good, too. I've been using my Bowflex that I got for my Birthday last year and some free weights. I'm already thinking I need for a "home gym" that I don't already have.

Most of the day I've spent doing laundry and cleaning up the apartment. Not too exciting for a Saturday. I was going to go into work, but decided against it.  And tonight we're going to watch a little more "Mad Men" on Netflix I'm sure. Hubby hasn't been feeling too well. His kidney is bothering him. For those that don't know, my husband only has one functioning kidney.

Speaking of "Mad Men" if you watch it, do you not want to slap Betty across the face sometimes? Is that just me? We're almost done with season 3. We have a couple more episodes to go. Betty annoys the crap out of me. I love Joan. She's such a tough ass. And Peter...really dude? REALLY??  I'm still shocked by the amount of drinking and smoking that goes on in that show. My mother swears to me that it was like that. She said she smoked through all her pregnancies (thanks for that Mom).

Also... "The Walking Dead" returns tomorrow night!!

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Tomorrow is "Sinister" day. I'm so excited. We already bought the tickets. We're going to go out to breakfast first, too, to one of our favorite little places.  I'm surprised I was able to get him to agree to go to the movies. He has a hard time sitting still for a long period of time sometimes, but he knows how badly I want to see this movie and he wants to see it, too. I love scary movies.

Have you ever run a marathon or do you want to?

What did you do for exercise today?

What do you have for your home gym that I should have?

Finally Friday

Here's the deal. I've decided to use My Fitness Pal to track my calories. No more points counting. I enjoy it. I like it. So. We'll see. I weighed myself this morning and I will not be weighing myself again until the day before Thanksgiving. I'm going to workout as much as I can whether at home or at the gym and see how it goes.  I'm going to take my measurements tomorrow as well.

If you're on MFP and want to add me, my name is Mockingbirdgirl.

I went grocery shopping tonight for the first time in almost two weeks and the house is full of healthy foods. My allergies are 90% gone and I no longer look like someone punched me in the face. SCORE!

The husband and I are going to see "Sinister" on Sunday. That movie looks creepy as heck! I cannot wait. I love scary movies.

I'm going in to work tomorrow to make up some of the time I was out this week. Not an exciting Saturday, but what can you do?

Any plans for the weekend?

Do you like scary movies?

What is your favorite movie?

I have so many. "Donnie Darko" is one. Don't let the rabbit on the cover scare you. "Titanic" of course is another. "A Beautiful Mind" still gets me, too.

Back to work

If you don't read Mizfit, what is wrong with you? you should. She's now selling these awesome skirts.

Go check them out here. I totally want one.

I'm exhausted from work. It kept me really busy today and I hardly ate anything. Not good for me at all. I'm assuming I'll be back at the gym by Saturday when my face returns to normal.

This is what I looked like yesterday. I love Angioedema so much. Just picture it today but the opposite side. My nose doesn't look like that today. Sorry I look a mess, but I hadn't even showered when I took this picture. I was documenting it for my doctor. I'm going for blood work next week. This is the worst it's been since February.I was feeling better enough today to make it to work. My eyes were still pretty swollen, but I was getting depressed sitting at home and not having any human contact, so I had to go in today. By the end of the day my right eye was almost completely open and my left eye was about 3/4 of the way. You can see why people might stare. I look like someone punched me in the face. But, no.

It's just a number

False alarm. I'm home again today. I woke up with my eye swollen shut and both feet swollen. I tell you this disease is a bitch. I was suppose to get some blood work done awhile back, but since I haven't had any flare ups, I put it off. Guess what I'm going to get done next week?

Sitting home for two days without any human contact is depressing. We have no food in the house since I usually go grocery shopping on Monday nights, but didn't go this week because of my Angiodema. I had some frozen meals that I had made and put away in the freezer, but I'm pretty much out of those. The hubby picked me up a few things last night but tonight he's going to have to back to the store since I won't go into public like this.

And I sit here and think about all the work that is piling up on my desk. I was doing so well, too. I was about a day behind and so caught up. UGH!! Looks like I'll be going in on Saturday for a little make up time.

I miss working out. It's been a couple days. I'm up a couple of pounds, which is to be expected. I hate that scale. I really need to get rid of it for awhile and just go with out how my clothes fit. The scale does not rule my life.

I love this and I'm very tempted to do the same thing to my scale.

Hopefully I'll be able to hit the gym before work tomorrow. It's getting a little too cold for me to workout in the garage. Yes, I'm a wimp like that and don't like the cold at all. I've been sleeping in a sweatshirt at night. I miss the summer already. 

Do you have a scale? Do you weigh yourself often?

What is the weather like where you are?

Best doctor ever

I stayed home from work today. I had no choice. My allergies were too bad and all I could do was dope myself up with medication and sleep it off. I hate missing work over stupid stuff like this. I hate missing work in general unless it's for vacation. Now I'm going to have try and make up some of the time for the rest of the week.

I'm feeling much better now and the swelling in my face has gone down a lot. I like almost normal again. I will be going back to work tomorrow and I'm looking forward to that. The only GOOD thing about staying home is all the extra snuggle time I get with my this furry face.

Best doctor ever.

I have a URL now and I'm going to try and move this blog to it. Probably sometime this weekend if I can figure it out without going insane. Actually, I've always had said URL but I haven't used it in a long time. Hopefully I won't lose anything in the move, but you never know.

I've come to the conclusion that I watch too much television. We watched Sunday nights "Dexter" before "the Voice" came on last night. Now tonight we'll catch up on "Boardwalk Empire". And "The Walking Dead" comes back on Sunday. That means 3 shows to watch. Plus we're now on season 3 of "Mad Men" thanks to Netflix. So much television goodness.

A rock and a hard place

My allergies make me HURT!! I hate them. I hate how they make me feel today. I made it through work without killing anyone any problems, but I didn't eat much because it hurt to move my mouth. My head hurts. My face hurts. My teeth hurt.

For those that don't know, I have a little something called Angioedema and it's embarrassing to say the least when it breaks out on my face. When it's my arm or feet or fingers it's not a big deal. But when your eyes swell shut or it looks like someone popped you in the lip, people stare. I have no clue when it's going to happen or where it will appear. This year I have had a good year, but not today. It's a rare disease. Lucky me.

It's clear to me that what I'm doing eating wise is not working. What am I going to do? I don't know. I haven't decided yet. I understand it worked for me in the past, but it's not working now. I've been thinking about going back to Weight Watchers meetings. I'm not sure though. If I get pregnant, I stop going. I have never made Lifetime and I've always wanted to. I don't know what to do to be honest. I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

My Mom is coming to visit next month and I want to drop some of this weight before she gets here. I was 165 the last time she saw me and all she could was comment on how skinny I was. It's not that she'll say I'm fat, but you know how Mom's can be. And she loves me, I know she does. We're close, but I haven't exactly told her how much weight I've gained.

Looking forward to "the Voice" tonight. Love me some Blake Shelton.

What show do you watch on Monday night?

Do you have allergies?

Apology

Today didn't go as planned. I don't know why, but I was just in a bitchy mood this morning. And my husband took the brunt of my bitchiness.

Right now? I'm home and he's at the baby shower. Crazy right? I guess it was just one of those weekends for me. I've been super bitchy and moody and I don't know what it is.

I don't know these people. The people who are having the baby shower. He does and so I guess it's not that big a deal that I didn't go. And to be honest, I don't think I really wanted to go because I would end up feeling sad and depressed that I'm not pregnant or it wasn't my baby shower.

So in the end it's probably a good idea that I didn't go. I probably would have been miserable the whole time I was there and forced a smile and a total bitch the way there and the way back.

Basically, I haven't been a lot of fun this weekend and I know I owe my husband a big apologize when he comes home tonight.

So, now I'm just catching up on "Grey's Anatomy" since I'm 2 seasons behind. I stopped watching in 2010 when we went to Arizona and never got caught back up. Thank you, Netflix.

In my dreams

Last nights dinner. I'm still dreaming about it. Seriously. How did I live before Chipotle? I don't even know. I told the hubby we could try Moe's tonight since he loves that place. I've never been, but since we'll be out and about today for the baby shower, we could stop and pick up something on the way home.

I hit the treadmill this morning 3 miles. I'm super excited about it. Yesterday I managed 2 after my 2 week break and today I was able to get in 3. After that I did 20 minutes of weights.

I'm looking forward to running this next week:

There is still time to sign up if you haven't.

What was your exercise for the day?

What meal are you dreaming about?

Lets make a baby!!

The hubs and I went to Babies R Us tonight to pick up a gift for the baby shower we are attending tomorrow. Let me tell you it made my ovaries just tingle with all the cuteness.

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It is what it is.


I bought jeans. I hate jeans. I seriously do. There is something about the way my muffin top hangs over the top of them that I just don't like. The first pair I tried at Target made me want to hurl them into a ball and stomp on them. I didn't do that. The second pair I tried on at Old Navy was a much better experience.  I also picked up a new shirt and a pair of exercise pants.

I got the husband to try Chipotle and he was not impressed. After all the raving I did the other day, I was hoping for more. I still loved my salad, but he didn't enjoy the tacos as much as I had hoped. His love for Moe's still lives on.

What did you do today?

What was for dinner?

Jeans yes or no?

 

Uh, that's my cell phone

I'm sitting here and enjoying some coffee after my workout. Did you catch that? I said workout. I do enjoy sleeping in on Saturday mornings with my husband and my kitties (my Siamese is a totally snuggle bug let me tell you). But, that didn't stop me from getting in my first workout in two weeks.

I hit the treadmill (I do have one of those still) and didn't know what would happen. TWO MILES!! I thought maybe a mile, but I looked down at my Garmin and saw I was at two. Not too bad for someone who slacked off for two weeks. After that I walked for a bit and jumped off and hit the weights for 20 minutes. I managed a nice workout for an hour.

After that disaster struck. The husband and I have the same phone. Mine has a purple back on it, but it's the same phone. He was running out and he took my phone. I threw a fit.

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Tell me something I don't already know, Britney. So, I ordered myself a pretty new case that will make sure that doesn't happen again. Because you just don't take my cell phone.

Now I'm going to enjoy this beautiful weather. It's October, yet it's warm. Not too warm. And I love it. Happy Saturday!!

Pinky swear!

Ta Da!!

I don't even know how I did it either to be honest with you. I ate nothing but junk for 3 days and didn't work out after I said I would, but I stayed the same. I'll take it.

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This week has is going to be better.  I miss running.


We (yes I said we and that includes the husband) have a baby shower to go to on Sunday. I've never been to a baby shower that includes both women and men. Should be interesting. I'll be all sorts of jealous, but I love baby stuff. It's a girl so I'm sure it will be all pink and purple.

Gym tomorrow. I pinky swear!!

It's a sign!

This is what I had for lunch today:

How come no one has every told me how totally banging Chipotle is?? HELLO?! I ate this salad (and yes, it IS a salad, you just have to get past the chicken, pinto beans, salsa and onions) like I hadn't eaten in months. Seriously. Best salad I have had in a very long time. It gave Whole Foods a run for it's money. And I love salads from Whole Foods.

By the way, I still haven't managed to make it to the gym yet, but I'm trying. Every night I pack my gym bag and every morning I reset the alarm when it goes off at 5am. I'll get there. I swear I will. Maybe Molly is trying to tell me something?

Twice I have found her snuggled up in my gym bag. I think it's a sign. She means business.

Baby fever

Even though we're waiting to a few months to have a baby, that doesn't stop me from reading baby blogs. I have a couple favorites right now:

The Hungry Rummer Girl 

and

Healthy Tipping Point

I started reading HRG right before we had her little girl so it's been fun reading how she is getting used to being a Mom. As for HTP, she had her boy after I started reading, but I enjoy her as well.

I enjoy their blogs because it gives me time to dream about what my future is going to be like. I only hope that I can be half the Mom's these girls woman are.

Sometimes I want to just say screw it all and keep trying. Forget the extra weight I'm carrying around and go for it. But do I really want to have to lose 40, 50, 60 pounds after I have a baby? No. I'd rather it only be 30 or 40 pounds if that is possible.

So, I can wait. I've waited this long. A few more months won't matter.

I blogged about it so what didn't it happen?

I'm not going to lie. This weekend? This weekend was not one of my best. I was all pumped up and ready to go. I was going to get back on track and lose a little weight. After all, I blogged about it. If I blogged about it, it was going to happen.

Saturday morning I woke up and didn't feel all that good. I also didn't make it to the gym after sleeping until after 10am. It was a hectic and busy week for me at work. It was end of month and end of quarter, so there was a lot going on. I figured all the stress was bringing me down, so I went with it.

Saturday night did not go over easy food wise. And Sunday? Well, I was still not feeling well and there was no exercise. I hadn't gone grocery shopping or left the house since Friday which meant eating whatever was in the house. And it wasn't good.

By the time I got to work on Monday I was a wreck. I was trying to hide it, but it wasn't easy.

Last night when I was at the grocery store, glaring at everyone that got in my way, I realized something. When I work out and eat right, I'm happy. I LIKE eating right and running. I ENJOY salads and apples and low fat yogurts and frozen grapes and all the other healthy foods I eat. When I eat junk food (cake, cookies, sugary cereals) I don't feel good and I get depressed. Mix in a few glasses of wine (I was not feeling good okay??) and it all comes to an angry head.

Not to mention I haven't worked out in over a week. It's not pretty people. Not pretty at all.

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My gym bag is packed and I'm hoping to make it there tomorrow. Feel free to kick my ass if I don't get there tomorrow because I'm becoming a depressed ball of ass over here.