The reason!

Again I want to apologize for the really depressing posts I've put up over the past couple of days. I was in a bit of a funk and I feel like I've finally come out of that funk.

Typical me, I was ready to stop going to weight watchers already. I was ready to just do it at home again but what would that do? Just because my scale said something different? And because I gained this week, it drove me to eat pretty badly all weekend and not exercise. So there is a good chance I may gain again this week. But I know it's coming and I have gotten things under control again and I'm back on track. I have to learn not to do that. It doesn't make this whole weight loss journey any easier by going off track.

I still feel like I didn't deserve that gain. Boo!!

I also have major PMS and that is another reason I could have gained. Ha!!

I went back to work today which was hard after being on vacation for a week. Ugh! What I wouldn't give to be wealthy and not have to work. Or to be able to work from home.

Coming home I arrived to find a package from Fashion Bug and my shirts were here!! The reason all this eating right and exercise makes it worth while!! My shirts are all a size smaller and I love them. I modeled them all for my hubby and I can't wait to wear them to work.

We're going to do a cookie swap at work. Eek! It's always tough but I enjoy doing it. Luckily we're not going to swap cookies until December 22nd so that means I won't make cookies until the weekend before. I have the best cookies to make that I made last year and everyone asked for the recipe but I won't give it out. They are s'mores cookies. They are as good as they sound. I won't give out the recipe because I know if I did my copy-cat coworker would make them just to be a pain. One year we did the swap and I wrote down I was going to make peanut butter blossoms (the ones with the hershey kiss in the middle) so she said she was going to make cookies with peanut butter cups in the middle. Isn't that the nearly the same cookie?

Anyway, I have blogs to catch up on!!

Cutting back

So I'm still mad about yesterday. I didn't deserve a 2 pound gain. Sorry about the pity party but I was really pissed off. That is why I was doing the at home thing and not going to meetings. Because I can handle a gain at home easier then at a meeting. When my scale said I was only up 1 pound and the weight watchers one said I was up 2.

I was also pissed because my leader, Beth, was not there again. She has missed 2 of the 4 meetings I have been back to. I may switch to the 9:45am meeting which is the meeting I used to go. I am the youngest person in the 11:15am meeting. It's a bunch of old ladies in there. And I got really annoyed at one of them because the sub leader, Jessica, was passing around her before picture (she lost 88 pounds) and this lady says "Were you married here?" What? Like a fat girl can't get married? She had to lose weight to get a guy? How rude is that? My mouth fell open and I was staring at her for like 60 seconds. I'm sure she didn't mean it like that but I was so irritated.

I'm going to back off on the exercise. I'm going to go back to 3-4 days a week and try to make it to the gym.

I slept until 11am this morning.

Today is my last day of vacation. I so do NOT want to go back to work tomorrow at all.

My neighbors are way obnoxious this morning.

A gain I didn't deserve

Right now I'm a little upset about being up 2 pounds this morning at weight watchers and remembered why I stopped going to meetings. I hate having to pretend I'm happy and in a good mood when I don't deserve a 2 pound gain.

I busted my butt this week. I worked out 6 days and I gained 2 pounds.

I worked out so I could enjoy my Thanksgiving and I gained 2 pounds.

I sat in the that meeting and I listened to people talk about how they overate and they didn't work out and they gained point 2 or point 4. And I gained 2 pounds.

I am incredibly upset and I left in tears.

I am very frustrated. I have been stuck in the 240's since July and I haven't been able to get out of them. I had hoped to be out of them by the end of October and that didn't happen. I had hoped maybe by the end of November and again that didn't happen. Now we're heading into December and I'm still not into the 230's. I'm sick and tired of being overweight and madder then hell at myself for gaining this weight back in the first place.

I spent most of yesterday in a horrible depression yet I manged to push myself to get outside to the garage and exercise. I think I probably didn't eat enough when it came to the exercise thing since I earned 30 AP's but I'm still very angry at gaining 2 pounds and right now I'm having a hard time not eating everything in sight.

I'm going to cut back on my exercise this week.

And I'm still very angry.

I remember why I fell in love with running

I was totally in the zone today when I was on the treadmill. I am really remembering why I fell in love with running 5+ years ago. I can't wait to get out there tomorrow and do it again. If my shins will let me. They are a little sore tonight so I may have to lay off with the running and just walk it. We'll have to see how I feel.

And yes, I do plan on working out on Thanksgiving.

My shirt came that I ordered from Old Navy. I love it. I opened it and my first thought was this is not going to fit! It looks too small. But it fits and I love it! I am so freaking proud of myself for putting all this effort into working out and watching what I eat. And now I'm able to start fitting into smaller clothes again!! Yes-I still have a long way to go to get back into my size 8 jeans but I'm on my way and I feel awesome!!

I'm also 11 pounds lighter then I was a year ago. Pretty cool.

I've earned 20 AP's so far this week. I plugged my exercise into the etools on the weight watchers site and that is what it told me. I thought I was only earning 4 for each day but it turns out it's 5.

I'm going to try and not eat too much tomorrow. We'll see what happens. I made a cheesecake and pumpkin pie. Yum!!

Heart Rate Monitor

I had a lot of fun with my Mom today. I was able to finally pick up "Fall to Pieces" by Mary Forsberg Weiland the ex-wife of Scott Weiland of Stone Temple Pilots (my favorite band). I used my gift card that I got for my Birthday. We had fun poking around Barnes and Noble for awhile. We both love to read, although my sister and I could open our own bookstore with all the books we own. We out read our Mom for sure. Ha!!

I also was able to finally show my Mom the health food store by my house that I've been telling her about for awhile. She LOVED it. She bought me some organic coffee that I can't wait to brew up tomorrow. It smells like heaven in the package let me tell you.

I'm supposed to see her again tomorrow night with my sister for some more shopping.

My Mom was happy to see my cat, the Siamese, Molly. Molly used to be her cat before she moved to Arizona in 2002.

When I got home I got in my workout. I am really enjoying my treadmill time. I'm working on my running and thinking more and more about getting a heart rate monitor. I've been looking at the Garmin 305. I know some of you have one. What do you all think? My Mom in law likes to get a big gift for Christmas and this is what I am going to ask for this year. I want something that is going to tell me how many calories I am burning off because we all know that the treadmill is LYING when it tells me I am burning 600 calories in 60 minutes (I wish). So anyway the running is coming along nicely and I'm really proud of myself.

I have pie and cheesecake to make tomorrow for Thanksgiving. Eek! I can't believe it's nearly Thanksgiving. This year has flown by!!

Off to finish watching "The Biggest Loser".

Here is a new picture of me. It was taken at the end of October so it's not THAT new but I didn't have the chance to get it off the camera until now. But it was the day I was able to get back into that blue shirt for the first time in over 2 years so I was pretty excited.

Speaking of shirts, I went to Fashion Bug yesterday. UGH! What a disappointment. I didn't buy anything. I tried on 2 shirts which I liked but it took me so long to actually pick them out that I was just annoyed and the line was so long that I ended up leaving. Instead I found 4 online this morning at home that I can't wait to get. I got a Fashion Bug gift card for my Birthday from my in-laws. I also got an Old Navy card from my sister and I used that already.

I am so beat. I got up early today and worked out first thing. I did 60 minutes of cardio. Then I spent the rest of the day cleaning up the apartment. I am so happy that the hubby decided to help me out because I don't know if I would have been able to get it all done. And now I'm ready for sleep.

Tomorrow my Mom and I are going out for the day. We are going shopping, going to have lunch and who knows what else. I can't wait!!

Wednesday I have pies to bake for Thanksgiving!!

I also have to squeeze in more exercise along the way!! I keep up with this awesome job I've been doing.

I'm going to relax and see if I can have the hubby give me a foot massage. Ha ha. My feet are killing me!!

In it to win it!!

I gave myself a rest day yesterday from exercise but today I was back at it. 30 minutes of weights and 40 minutes on the treadmill.

Yesterday we went down to visit with my Mom and sisters. They got pizza but I had some sandwiches instead. I am totally serious about this. It wasn't worth it for me to have pizza. I am in it to win it for sure!!

Tuesday I will be spending time with my Mom again. We'll be shopping and other fun stuff. I can't wait.

Hubby and I are off to do some shopping. I'm hoping to spend some of my gift cards.

What I can't believe I forgot to mention is that my Mom got me a whole bunch of lara bars for my Birthday! I haven't seen the Lemon or Banana Bread ones she got me. The lemon are so good!! Yum!!

Me and my man

Here is a little something I got from Crystal.

What are your middle names?
Mine is Sundae and his is Sidney. When I met him he wanted to be called Sid. He was a (and still is) a huge Pink Floyd fan. I didn't like them much then but now they are my second favorite band.

How long have you been together?
We started dating on May 14th, 1993. Which also happens to be his brothers birthday. We were married on September 22, 2000.

How long did you know each other before you started dating?
About a month or so. We worked together at a local supermarket.

Who asked whom out?
I asked him to go out on our first date but he asked me to be his girlfriend.

How old are each of you?
I just turned 34. He is 33.

Whose siblings do you see the most?
Mine. His brother lives further away and I work with one of my sisters. I also have 4 sisters and he only has 1 brother.

Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple?
Having one car. It sucks.

Did you go to the same school?
No we didn't.

Are you from the same home town?
Nope. But they are right next to one another.

Who is smarter?

He totally is.

Who is the most sensitive?
I think we both are equally as sensitive. He'll kill me for saying that but he is just as senstivie as I am. I love that about him.

Where do you eat out most as a couple?

There is a local pizza place we like to eat at that has great grilled chicken salads that we get a lot.

Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?

London, England in 2002. It was amazing and I want to go back.

Who has the craziest exes?

We don't really see either of our exes anymore but at the time we started dating probably him. That was so long ago.

Who has the worst temper?
Hands down he does. But don't count me out when I do get mad. I have a hell of an Irish temper.

Who does the cooking?
Me. But he does like to grill in summer.

Who is the neat-freak?
I can be but I'm not as bad as I used to be.

Who is more stubborn?
That would be me. I was born a Scorpio but my moon is in Taurus.

Who hogs the bed?

He does.

Who wakes up earlier?

He does.

Where was your first date?

We went to Riverside Amusement Park. It was horrible and I didn't think we would go out again. But we did and here we are. That amusement park is now a Six Flags and not nearly as fun as it used to be.

Who is more jealous?
It used to be me but now it's about 50/50. That girl at Burger King had just better back off. Ha ha!

How long did it take to get serious?
He told me he loved me about 3 weeks after he asked me out.

Who eats more?
He does, he has to eat every 2-3 hours.

Who does the laundry?
I do but he doesn't eat healthy.

Who’s better with the computer?
He is and always has been. It's what he's going to school for.

Who drives when you are together?
He does.

2.4 more pounds bite the dust!!

Another 2.4 pounds bite the dust! I am super excited. I guess all that exercise totally paid off for me this week. I wasn't going to work out today but I'm rethinking that.

I've lost 4.4 pounds since rejoining weight watchers and couldn't be happier about it.

We talked about Thanksgiving in the meeting. I can't believe a slice of pumpkin pie is 8 points. EIGHT POINTS! Holy smokes. Totally worth it of course but wow. I am totally doing the same thing I did this past week and hope for another amazing loss.

"New Moon" was awesome last night. The line was huge when got there and we got there 40 minutes early. The guy that worked there said people were lining up over an hour before the movie started. It's not a huge theater so I'm not sure what the big deal was. And they hearded us into the theater like sheep. It was a great movie though and I can't wait for "Eclipse" to come out. June 30th, 2010. Ha ha!!

Need to eat something and then heading out to the treadmill. Dinner with Mom tonight, too. My hubby isn't feeling well. We were going to do some karaoke later but it depends on how is he feeling. He's congested and stuff.

Happy Saturday!!

6 days of exercise

For the first time in a very long time I worked out for 6 days. Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. I earned 24 activity points. I had originally wanted to do it because I knew with my Birthday on Wednesday I was going to need those activity points. I knew there would be cake and that we were going out to dinner at Red Robin and I wasn't going to deny myself a few goodies on my Birthday.

But I really enjoyed all my workouts and I didn't feel I had to push myself to actually do it. This morning I actually was excited when I pulled out my free weights this morning.

I am planning on doing it again this week with Thanksgiving coming up. And I am again, looking forward to it.

I am also looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow. I didn't over eat too badly on my Birthday. I did have cake and I did have a huge cheeseburger but I didn't totally stuff myself so bad that I felt sick like I might have in the past.

I may stay the same. Or maybe, just maybe, I might see a loss tomorrow.

"Days of Our Lives" is really confusing. I don't even know who half these people are. Ha ha.

Hubby and I have to go grocery shopping when he gets home from school. And then tonight my sister and I are going to see "New Moon". Woohoo! I can hardly wait!!

20

20 AP's and I have one more day of exercise before weigh in!

Tomorrow is "New Moon" day. I am so excited.

I am on vacation and so happy to have some time off from work. I am burnt out.

I am so tired. Going to get some sleep since I've stayed up too late all week and gotten up early for work.

60 minutes more on the treadmill tonight. Was able to watch "Grey's" while on the treadmill. Super cool.

Can't wait for some vampire awesomeness tomorrow!!

Vacation!!

Did I mention my vacation starts at 5pm today? I have 8 hours of work to get through and then I'm off until November 30th.

I have 4 gift cards to spend from my Birthday. Old Navy, Barnes and Noble, Fashion Bug and Bath and Body Works.

"New Moon" comes out tomorrow. Like a 14 year girl I cannot wait to go see it. I am super glad we bought our tickets early.

My Mom is here!!

Woohoo!!!

Great day!!

I got a New Moon cake for my Birthday! Ha! I ate unhealthy today but it was my Birthday. My coworkers wanted me to take my cake home but I knew if I did I would eat it all. I only had one piece.

It was great to see my Mom!! I can't wait to spend more time with her.

I got some gift cards for clothes! I can't wait to go buy some new ones.

I am stuff and tired. I am going to sleep well tonight.

Back in the saddle with points and exercise tomorrow.

Super sad about "The Biggest Loser" last night.

Satellite Television

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No more clutter!!

Another day of exercise under my belt. And today it makes 16 days of AP's. Ugh. A math genius I am not. Ha!!

My Mom is in Connecticut!! I can't wait to see her. My sister picked up at 6pm from the airport and brought her back to her house. I will be seeing her tomorrow night. I spoke with her before she boarded the plane. I am super excited. One because I haven't seen her in over a year (not since September of 2008) and two because my Mom has lost weight and I can't wait to see how she looks!!

My hubby stayed home from school today and cleaned up the apartment. Talk about a nice thing to come home to. I know I've mentioned before that I am not the best housekeeper in the world. I have been a better one in the past but a lot of it has to do with clutter around the house and now it's GONE! I am super excited.

I wore a shirt today to work I haven't worn in a long time. And a pair of pants that I have never worn. Nothing fancy or anything but it's like new cloths. I can't wear a lot of what I was wearing just a few months ago but the shirts are super huge and make look bigger then I am.

Off to watch "The Biggest Loser". I love the makeover show!!

Worst picture EVER!

I had my license renewed today. Worst picture EVER! Ugh. I hated to see the last picture go because I was so happy when I got it. I was thin for the first time I could remember and I was so happy to have a skinny picture on my license.

Plus they have you look down when they snap your picture. And that is just unflattering. So my face looks bigger then normal. I already have a big head anyway (I have a complex) and it just looks horrible. Oh well. As my hubby said it will just look even better when I lose all the weight again.

Oh and speaking of my hubby, his doctor wants him to weigh 150 pounds. The same as me. He's 5'6" (an inch taller then me). Um hi. I don't like super skinny men and I don't want to be married to one. He would have to drop around 60 pounds to get there. I don't find him overweight. Sure he has a belly but I love him and don't care. Which is kind of like how he feels about me. My doctor, who is in the same practice as his, says 150 is fine for me. I think my hubby would be fine at 175. We'll see what happens. He wants to go to the gym with me. I don't know what he'll about his eating. He's changed his habits a bit but not a lot. He loves to snack on super bad things. He drinks tons of water so that is good.

I have already exercised. So that means 3 days down. I have earned 16 AP's so far. Woohoo!! I wanted to earn at least 20 so I'm on my way!!

Biggest Loser Yoga

Um this kicked my ASS! I was going to do my new Jillian DVD but decided not to. Instead I pulled out my the Biggest Loser Yoga DVD and 30 minutes later was covered in total sweat. It was freaking awesome.

I can't explain why I'm not going to the gym but as long as I'm getting in 60 minutes of of exercise I'm super happy.

I am feeling stronger and smaller everyday. *Giggle*

I used, for the first time, recipe builder on the weight watchers site today. I put in the pumpkin ziti from Paula Deen which I am going to go make for my lunch for this week. I thought it was 6 points per serving but it's telling me 5. Score!!

Funny how yesterday I was starving and today I am not hungry at all.

Off to make my lunches!!

Exercise

I know I haven't done a paid blog post in awhile so please just skip over that one below this. I need the money.

I'm not sure what my deal is with the gym these days but I have no desire to go. So I'm going to break out a DVD (I got a new Jillian one) and then hit the treadmill. Exercise is exercise and I'm going to do this.

I want to earn at least 20 AP's this week and next week. I want to work out as much as I can over the next 2 weeks. I have a Birthday and Thanksgiving to worry about. I know I'm going to try to be good on Thanksgiving. But my Birthday? No. I always let myself enjoy that day. Cake is my favorite thing in the world. So I know if I get in enough exercise I'll be alright. If I gain I'm okay. If I maintain even better. I'm going to do my best and see what happens.

My Mom will be here in 2 days! OMG!!

Direct TV

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Direct TV in state makes it simple and easy when your moving when you already have a lot to worry about when you are moving. Direct TV is there to make it hassle free for you.

down 2

Week one back at weight watchers was a success!! Woohoo! I'm down 2 pounds!! Super excited.

I was disappointed that my leader, Beth, wasn't there today. There was a sub, Jessica who alright but she is no Beth. Jessica has lost 88 pounds (Beth was her leader) so that is pretty impressive. We talked about the holidays and traditions. I am the dessert maker so that is kind of hard for me but I think I'll be okay this year. I plan to work out as much as I can over the next couple of week so not gain TOO much. Or maybe maintain.

I was going to go to the gym after but was mobbed. Instead hit the treadmill for 60 minutes when I got home. I am going to go the gym tomorrow.

Now I'm going to do a few things around the apartment and enjoy my weekend.

Skinny Vibes!!

First weigh in back at weight watchers meetings tomorrow.

*Fingers Crossed*

Eating was great.

I only exercised once. So....we'll see what happens.

Baby steps.

Mom will be here in a few more days. Her plane flies in at 6pm on Tuesday night!!

Vacation starts at 5pm on Thursday. Woohoo!!

I so need a hair cut. I have to get my drivers license renewed on Monday (ew) and want to make sure my hair looks good. *Giggle*

Oh and "New Moon" opens a week from today. Good times. My sister and I are going to see it.

I finished Ali's book. It was very moving. I highly recommend it.

Skinny vibes to all my fellow weight watchers for tomorrow!

What? No rain!!

I find that it's going to rain on my Birthday UNACCEPTABLE! What is that about? No rain on my Birthday. Whatever weather guy. I am not going to let you ruin my day. And the weather could change in 6 days.

I am totally loving "Believe It, Be It". I am finding the book very inspiring.

I am heading to the gym tonight. I need a good workout for sure. It's been awhile.

This week is totally dragging on.

Ran into a friend at the grocery store last night and she said she could see that I had been losing weight. Woohoo!!

Believe It, Be It part 2

I tried. I did. But for some reason when I plan to go to the gym before work my body starts to hate me. And I can't sleep. And then when I finally DO fall asleep something wakes me up and I can't fall back to sleep. For like FOREVER.

I am so tired right now.

But I am trying to be positive. Believe it, Be it just like Ali Vincent says in her book. So I didn't make this morning. I want it enough to do whatever it takes and I'll have to go at night if that is what I need to do.

I'm also going to need a lot of coffee.

Believe It, Be It

Eating is awesome!! I just can't seem to get my exercise in check. Ugh! Boo! I'm hoping I can get to the gym tomorrow morning. I have my gym bag packed, alarm set and hopes up that I can make it there tomorrow morning.

I picked up Ali Vincent's new book "Believe It, Be It" tonight after work. I can't wait to get into it.

One week from today my Mom will be here! I talked to her for 2 hours last night. I can't wait to see her. It's been over a year since she was last here! I'm so glad it worked out that I have vacation during the time she'll be visiting. I can't wait for some Mom time.

Off to finish watching "The Biggest Loser".

I'd like to thank the academy...

Actually I would like to thank, Karen over at Make Just A Ripple for giving me this ward. And I'm going to pass it on to 7 more ladies who inspire me. And then 10 things you may or may not know about me. You don't have to play along but it's fun and I thought I would.

Angie-She is totally inspiring!! I love her blog and she is always so upbeat. She helped give me that push to go back weight watchers meetings. And she told me about Lara bars. Yum!!

Annie-She seems to be always going! I used to be just like her and worked out all the time. She makes me want to be the athlete that she is. Plus she totally looks awesome.

John-He just did his first half iron man. Need I say more?

Andrea-She has lost over 70 pounds and is running more and more each week. She is very inspiring. Plus she likes cake. My favorite dessert in the world.

Glam-She is a total rock star. Need I say more? Plus I love how she got rid of her scale for awhile. I would love to do that. And I think she and I would get along super awesome in real life.

Lynn-She had burger and fries for dinner tonight and it was all weight watchers approved. How can you not love that?

Katherine-She has been losing weight for awhile and is not going to give up until she gets to her goal. She is nearly half way there!!

1. I love tattoos. I have 3 so far and want more.
2. I've been blogging since 2003. This is not my first blog. I find it really helps me since I tend to keep a lot of my feelings inside.
3. I suffer from depression. Exercise helps me not be depressed so I try to exercise as much as I can.
4. I love Nascar
5. The high school I graduated from had a total of 500 kids (my graduating class had 110 kids).
6. 80's and 90's hair bands are a guilty pleasure of mine
7. I love animals and I can't watch any move where they my get hurt. I cried through most of "March of the Penguins" and will NEVER watch that move again.
8. "Donnie Darko" is my favorite movie.
9. "Carnivale" is still my favorite television show and I'm still pissed that it was canceled. There was so much left that they could have worked with.
10. I have a nephew that is 29 years old.

Workout update

So my workout ended up ended up being 60 minutes on the treadmill at home because I just wasn't feeling up to going to the gym today. I'm pretty freaking happy with that though because I really busted my tail and did some running.

It happened to be a beautiful day here in Connecticut. It was nearly 70. In November. I'll take it. Tomorrow is supposed to be just as nice. Amazing. What is the deal with the weather anyway? It's November. Yes, November. We had 90 degree weather in April, a ton of rain in the summer, snow in October and now it's warm enough to wear capri pants. Which I may just break out for work tomorrow. Why not?

Hubby and I are no longer fighting. I even offered to cook dinner tonight. He's pretty picky about his eating and since we hardly ever eat the same thing (since I watch what I eat) I offered to cook for him if he wanted me to.

My Mom will be here a week from Tuesday! I cannot wait!!

Mu-ah!

back in the saddle

I'm still all excited about getting back to weight watchers yesterday. I went to the 11:15am meeting. I like that one because it's not too busy and I don't have to worry about not having a place to sit. I used to go to the 9:45am meeting when I lost all my weight before but it's too crowded now and I'm not up for the crowds right now.

Let me just say how pleased I am that WW is finally into the 21st century with computers. Giggle. The receptionist explained to me that I know longer have to look for my card when I come in I just get in line and hand them my card. All my info is in the computer. Imagine that. Fancy stuff.

So on their scale I was 244.8. Now I knew I would be up because (1) when I weigh myself at home I am 100% in the nude *ha ha*, (2) Weight Watchers does not let you weigh in the nude at the meetings. No I have never asked but I know people who have. (3) It's the week before TOM and I'm bloated. And (4) my eating the past couple of days could have been better. So I was ready for it. My scale at home said I would be 245.8 pounds so I liked the ww scale much better.

Once I was all signed in and weighed I went into the meeting. Beth (my leader) was happy to see me. She said it was nice to see me and how had I been and where had I been. Then she said it was kind of an odd time to start again with the holidays and all. So I explained to her (after telling her I had been doing it online for the past 5 months) about my online blog friends had been joining and I decided to take the plunge. She thought it was great. Beth also said that she noticed a lot of newbies this week and maybe that was why.

The meeting topic was about making it through the holidays. Now for most it's Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years. You may have Hanukkah in there, too depending on your religion. I, my friends, have a Birthday the week before Thanksgiving and I am going to have my cake. It's a Wednesday this year so I am going to try to work out as much as I can. The others don't scare me much. I can handle them. It's the cake that I know I will have an issue with. And that is less then 2 weeks away.

So I am going to work it the best I can and see what happens. I know it works. I see the proof everyday with my blog friends and looking at older pictures of myself. And with myself. Because I am still 40+ pounds less then my heaviest weight thanks to weight watchers.

I am not in the best of moods right now. Hubby and I had a big fight last night and it hasn't really been resolved yet. Hopefully it will blow over soon.

I am going to have some breakfast and then get ready for the gym.

Lets talk Weight Watchers

In my last post, Scott commented and asked me what it was I liked best about Weight Watchers. That is really a good question and I had to stop and think about it.

I've been doing the whole Weight Watchers thing since I was 14 years old. The first time I did it I was lost 40 pounds. I went from 187 to 140 pounds. I don't remember how long it took but it was in time for high school and I know that I shocked a lot of my school friends when I started freshmen year. I went from a size 16 to a size 10. I was able to keep it off for most of my high school years. Until I met the soon to be husband. Ha ha. That was when I started to really gain some serious weight and when I graduated high school I was probably pushing 250 but I didn't own a scale so I couldn't be too sure.

My Mom did WW when I was 2. She lost 90 pounds the first time. She is a lifetime member. Back then (in the '70's) it was a lot different. You couldn't have ketchup. No mayo either. If you wanted tuna fish you ate it with mustard. Shudder. Ick. You had to eat LIVER daily. Even now my Mom doesn't eat ketchup.

When I first did WW you didn't have points you were allowed so many milks, veggies, fruits proteins and carbs per day. You had to check them off on your little card as you went. Trust me the points system was heaven when I rejoined in 1998. In 1998 I was 287 pounds. By 2000 I was 220. It took me awhile to drop 67 pounds but I was so happy with my success. I worked out at home 4 days a week for 30 minutes to a kick boxing VHS tape. I cheated after my meetings and yet I lost usually every week. I was fine with that. I went from a (tight) size 28 to a comfy size 18.

Then well I just kind of stopped going to meetings. Not sure what happened. I gained back 36 pounds by the time I started my current job in 2001. I was 256 pounds and in a size 22. I hated myself for putting in all that hard work and told myself I would get back to 220 pounds no matter what.

By December of 2001 I was 220. I kept going and losing. People started pulling me aside at work and asking me if I was losing weight (duh!) and then by the time we went to London in 2002 I was 200 pounds. I was wearing a size 16 pants for the first time since I could remember. I think what really helped was when I joined the gym in August of 2001. By December of 2002 I was 175 pounds. And then by June of 2003? 154 pounds. My doctor could not believe it!

Of course all along my goal was to be 130 pounds but I changed that to 150 because I felt comfortable there. And my body seemed to like it. The lowest weight I ever saw was 149 in 2004. I was a size 8 and felt awesome.

I don't know what happened. I thought I had it under control. Running 5 miles a day. But things happen. I injured myself. My coworker/friend died. Things happen. But I am working really hard right now to get back to where I was. And I know I can do it because I have done it before.

So to answer the question what do I like about WW? Everything. I love that I can eat whatever I want. I love that I can have pizza and it's fine. It's in my points to have that. I can have a beer, too. NOTHING is off limits. I always have the best success from meetings. Beth (the woman who does the meetings on Saturday) has lost over 100 pounds and has kept it off for over 15 years. How is that for success? To let you know it can be done? And she struggles, too! There was a time that she gained back 20 pounds. And she was talking to us about it. She is awesome. She is a great leader.

I have tried EVERY SINGLE diet out there and yet I come back to Weight Watchers every time because it is what works for me. I have the best success with it because I don't feel deprived. I can have what I want.

The support is great. Most of the time the support on the boards is great, too, although there can be some drama. Ha ha.

Anyway I am super excited to go to the meeting this morning. I know the scale will say differently then mine but that is fine, too.

I'll post more later. Happy Saturday!!

Weight Watchers tomorrow

Still feeling kind of icky but I made it through work. I have a lot to do with vacation coming up and really wasn't feeling bad enough to miss a day of work.

My eating wasn't spot on last night due to my feeling sick and today it could have been better but tomorrow is the day I've been talking about all week and I'm really excited about going back to Weight Watchers. Yes, I have lost 15 pounds in the past 5 months but I think I could lose more if I was going to meetings.

I need new clothes. That is pretty awesome. Most of my tops are getting too big and I have some older ones that fit that haven't fit in 2 years but I need more. I like the idea of getting new clothes and hope to get some gift cards for my Birthday.

I am going to throw myself back into Weight Watchers 100%!! Woohoo! I just have my Birthday and Thanksgiving to get through after I join. Ha ha.

Hope I'm not getting sick!!

I'm not feeling all that well. Hopefully I'm not getting sick. Last night I felt like this I was able to fight it off by going to bed early.

Settling down for the night to watch "Flash Forward" and "Grey's Anatomy" with the hubby with some diet cranberry soda.

I am still planning on going back to Weight Watchers on Saturday and really looking forward to it. I was going to join a few weeks ago and didn't and wish I had. But anyway now I'm going to do it. I had the most success (lost over 100 pounds that way) and I know I can do it again.

"Biggest Loser" talk so if you haven't watch it yet don't read on.

I haven't talked much about this season much. Not sure why but I am enjoying it. Rudy, Rebecca and Andrea are my favorites. I was so glad to see Tracey go home! She was just evil!! She looks great now though. I enjoyed seeing her on "Leno" even if I didn' t like her. I was so happy Rebecca one the challenge!!

Ali Vincent (the first female winner) has a book coming out this month. I can't wait to get it.

Off to lay down on the couch. TGIF!!

Going back to meetings

Today started off so good. I was pretty positive and happy and things were so well.

Until my hubby called and told me that the car was having problems. AGAIN!

It's been like every other week for the past 2 months I swear. I lost it. I was crying and feeling totally stressed out.

I've only had 3 mini kit kats and that isn't a lot and I'm not having more. I stopped before it got out of control and that is good.

I've realized that after 5 months I've lost (only) 15 pounds. Again that is good but it could (should) be more and I'm going back to weight watchers meeting starting Saturday. I always have better and more success when I go to meetings.

The car is fine now. Hubby is not sure what the problem is or why it stopped running but it is running now. I am sick of sharing a car and hate that he isn't working and that we can't afford to buy another one right now. I am happy that he is going to school and that it's paid for but it sucks. UGH!

PMS SUCKS!! Blah!!

Hamburgers

I got my workout in when I got home tonight. I did 30 minutes of weights and then 30 minutes on the treadmill. I'll be hitting the gym on Thursday and Friday. I worked out at home so I could make sure I was home to watch "The Biggest Loser" tonight.

The whole time I was in the garage on the treadmill all I could smell was hamburgers. My neighbors were grilling. It was torture.

2 weeks from today my Mom will be here! I can't wait.

Not much diet talk here

I'm not sure how many of you are aware that I watch Nascar or not but OMG! Watching your driver land on the roof of his car and then on top of another driver's car is a pretty scary ordeal. Not to mention they had to have him cut out of his car, too. Luckily, Ryan Newman (my driver) was okay and walked to the ambulance after the wreck yesterday but it was so scary. It's amazing how safe these cars are these days.

Work was super busy today. We were short one CSR so that is always hectic. I took 7 orders and my coworker took 2. Hmmmm doesn't seem too fair, huh? Vacation can't get here fast enough.

I am 3 episodes behind on "Grey's" so tonight I am going to try and catch up!!

Also me and Jen Lancaster would so be BFF's if we lived in the same state! Ha! I am super excited that her new book is scheduled to come out in May of 2010. She follows me on Twitter (eek! I know right?) and I am currently rereading her books. I total think you should run out and get her first book "Bitter is the New Black" but I started with "Such A Pretty Fat". Thank me later.

Happy November

To kick off November just right I hit the gym this afternoon. I did 30 minutes of weights and 35 minutes of cardio (40 if you count my warm up). I'm feeling pretty good these days so I'm hoping that feeling continues through the week.

Little nervous about the fact we're into November and it's just 17 days until I turn 34. Eek!! I can't believe I'm going to be 34 already. When did I become an adult anyway?

I am really looking forward to my Mom coming to visit and vacation!!

Hubby and I are watching the "V" mini series on SyFy today. I loved this when I was a kid. I am looking forward to seeing the new show when it starts. Should be interesting.

Have a happy Sunday and stay away from the Halloween candy!!