Music to gym by

Songs on my play list for the gym as requested by the lovely Natasha:

"I Kissed A Girl" by Katy Perry (I cannot get this song out of my head today)
"It Happens" by Sugarland
"See You Again" by Miley Cyrus (I'm a dork what can I say?)
"Sucker Train Blues" by Velvet Revolver
"Dirty Little Thing" by Velvet Revolver
"Slither" by Velvet Revolver
"Crackerman" by Stone Temple Pilots
"Sex Type Thing" by Stone Temple Pilots (Hmmm I sense a theme here)
"Unglued" by Stone Temple Pilots
"Vasoline" by Stone Temple Pilots
"Heaven and Hot Rods" by Stone Temple Pilots
"Dumb Love" by Stone Temple Pilots
"Fast As You Can" by Fiona Apple"
"Attitude" by Guns N Roses
"Spend the Night" by The Donna's
"Now It's On" by Grandaddy
"Lucky Kid" by Sheryl Crow
"Everybody Out of the Water" by the Wallflowers
"What's the World Coming To" by Fleetwood Mac
"The Gold Medal" by The Donna's
"My Little Demon" by Fleetwood Mac
"Psycho Therapy" by Skid Row
"The Beautiful People" by Marilyn Manson
"Negative Creep" by Velvet Revolver
"Eight Easy Steps" by Alanis Morissette
"Body Movin'" by the Beastie Boys
"Days Go By" by Keith Urban
"Black Betty" by Ram Jam
"Lubbock or Leave It" by The Dixie Chicks
"Before He Cheats" by Carrie Underwood
"Last Name" by Carrie Underwood
"All My Life" by the Foo Fighters
"Green Light Girl" by Doyle Bramhall II
"Backwards" by Rascal Flatts
"Gunpowder and Lead" by Miranda Lambert

you’re on your way

So this girl got herself to the gym AGAIN this morning. Yeah for me. Ha. I actually feel like I got a kick ass workout on the elliptical this morning. I did 45 minutes of cardio and then 30 minutes of weights. I added some new songs to my workout mix and it really got me going this morning. Plus I got to use one of the new pieces of equipment since they have added more ellipticals to the gym recently.

I know I’ve said it before, but I am going to say it again. I hate when people don’t clean their equipment. It’s disgusting. And with the swine flu threat, can’t you take the extra couple of seconds to maybe keep everyone safe? WTF!

I had another awesome night of sleep last night. I slept straight through until my alarm went off.

One of my coworkers was watching me get my breakfast ready (cereal with strawberries) and told me if he ate as healthy as I did he’d be skinny. I laughed and said well I’m not skinny. And he said oh but you’re on your way. *Smile*

“Lost” was awesome last night!! Not sure how many people watch it but I enjoyed it.

“Grey’s” tonight.

Man, I watch too much television.

“I am so blogging about this.”

I had packed my gym bag last night and planned on trying to go to the gym again this morning but I decided to enjoy my sleep a little longer. For the first time in a LONG time I slept through the whole night, right up until my alarm went off at 5:30am. I was so happy about it, I snoozed for another 45 minutes. Plus, something that Bob had mentioned last night on “The Biggest Loser” popped into my mind about resting your muscle groups and I thought I should do that. Before yesterday I hadn’t worked out at the gym in a bit. And I am feeling it a little today. So I am hoping that I can make it there tomorrow and Friday, making one day a cardio only day. I will just have to wait and see.

The Keith Urban concert is a week from Friday! Woohoo!! I am so excited. I was lucky enough to see him in February of 2008 and that was one of the best concerts I’ve been to (and I’ve been to TONS). Plus Sugarland is opening so bonus!!

I totally forgot to talk about when I came home on Saturday from weight watchers and my neighbor was tanning himself. He’s been doing it for the 13 years we’ve been living in the apartment, but it’s so odd to me. Sitting out on the blacktop driveway, with one of those silver things that helps catch the sun to help you tan better. He’s probably 50 or so or close to that and he’s just hanging out like he’s at the beach. And again on Sunday he was out there when we came home. I turned to the hubby, laughing and said “I am so blogging about this.” I forgot until now.

It was 94 degrees here in Connecticut yesterday. It’s April. And today it’s supposed to reach 67. That’s a 30 degree difference.

It’s grocery night tonight and as much as I hate it (it’s my least favorite chore) I look forward to my dinner. I always enjoy these yummy chicken nuggets that are in the health food section. I can’t wait for dinner tonight.

I also can’t wait to see “Lost” tonight.

Does anyone watch “Breaking Bad”? I absolutely LOVE that show. It’s quickly becoming my favorite (all right now that is reserved for “The Biggest Loser”). I highly recommend it if you have thought about watching it.

I just started reading “PS I love You” and I’m having a hard time with it. I saw the movie (I’ve seen it several times) and it’s a real tearjerker but the book is even worse. I’m thinking of hitting up the paperback bookstore this weekend after weigh in. I need some new books and have some I want to get rid of.

And speaking of “The Biggest Loser” spoilers ahead so if you didn’t watch it do not read on…
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I wanted Ron to go home. Is that wrong of me? I know he needs the help more then any of them there but I am so upset with his behavior last week that I am really sour against him. I feel horrible for Filipe because I know how badly he wanted to win and help his family and all. Tara kicked major butt AGAIN at the challenge. I’m sure everyone is sick and tired of her winning but I’m not. I couldn’t be PROUDER that the contestant I picked from the first episode is still there and making it to the finale. She is stunningly beautiful. And how tiny is Helen?! Holy cow! Those skinny jeans she tried on made her look so small. However I become a little nervous about Helen because I never thought she would get this far and now that Jillian reminded us she is from the pink team (think Ali and Michelle) she could spoil the whole game. Just a thought. I really enjoyed the train the trainer. Bob was hurting after that one. I am sad that the season is almost over. I need the inspiration.

I’m off. Much to do at work and it’s almost lunch time. I am totally starving!!

I am the energizer bunny!

Guess who went to the gym this morning? Yeah, that would be me. I am so happy with myself. I did 40 minutes on the elliptical (425 calories burned thank you very much) and 30 minutes of weights. I had a fantastic workout and loved every minute of it.

For some reason I find it easier to exercise when it's hot (it was over 90 today and around 60 when I got to the gym) then when it's cold. I find it easier to watch what I eat (who wants to turn on an oven?) and eat more fruit and vegetables.

Unfortunately I forgot to put my shirt in my gym bag last night (I try to pack as much as I can the night before) so I had to come home and get it, making me late to work. But I got over it and it turned into an amazing day.

I had my awesome smoothie after dinner last night. I love it and I haven't had it in awhile. I am thinking of making one for tomorrow for work. I like to through some protein powder in it for after my workout. I mix one cup strawberries, one cup pineapple, 6oz Greek yogurt (I like the plain best) a little splenda and a little water in the blender. Then blend until smooth. It's super good! A nice after dinner summer treat. Or a good breakfast, as I mentioned. Yum!!

My wonderful husband cleaned the litter box, made the bed AND emptied the garbage today since he didn't have school. That was a nice treat for me.

I am super excited for "The Biggest Loser" tonight!! Go Tara!!

$117.99

Does anyone have a $117.99 that wouldn't mind giving me so I can buy this dress for when I reach my goal? It's so darn awesome! Found it here.

I’m totally exhausted.

Ha. I think I’ve convinced myself to just use the treadmill tonight and try to hit the gym in the morning. I’m totally exhausted.

Did I mention that I slept like total ASS last night? Well I did. I woke up like every hour.

Things with SWF coworker have smoothed over a bit.

totally annoying

Gym tonight. If I can’t get my butt up in the morning, then I have to go at night.

This humid weather, as much as I like it, is a bit much for this big girl. And it’s only April. I am seriously going to ask the hubby to put the air conditioner in tonight. It’s supposed to be 90 (again) tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE the weather but it’s hard when you heavy to actually enjoy it.

Plus I want to wear tank tops again.

SWF coworker is back and totally annoying. Her attitude problem has to go. We all have to work, so get over it. I told her I don’t need her attitude today when she gave one to me.

Whatever.

up 0.6

HA! I thought it was going to be a 2 pound gain and it turned out to be only 0.6 pounds. I was so happy about that. Next week I am totally going to see a decent loss because I plan to kick some serious ass this week!!

The weather is amazingly beautiful today. I love it.

I worked up a big sweat vacuuming the apartment today. Yeah.

I am going to try a new dinner tonight, one I got out of the Hungry Girl cook book. I'm really looking forward to it.

I am worth more then a number on the scale

It looks like I’m going to be up 2 pounds at weigh in today. I’m a little upset about it because I didn’t think I deserved TWO pounds. I don’t have weigh in until 11am (my time) so we’ll see what happens. I was pretty upset about it and the first thing I wanted to do was eat crap.

But hopefully I’ll be able to control myself and get through it. I am worth more then a number on the scale.

Speaking of scales, I am thinking of getting a new one. I stopped (on my way to work some overtime ) this morning at the store and was looking at them. They have a weight watchers one that I think I might pick up. It gives you your starting weight, current weight, weight lost and your goal weight. It wasn’t too much money $36 so I am going to talk to the hubby. I spent much more on my current scale (with BMI) 5 years ago or so.

Well I’m off to work my overtime.

It’s already GORGEOUS here in Connecticut!! Be jealous.

beautiful weather for the weekend

What a freaking madhouse at work today. It was stupid busy. I was more happy then normal when 5pm rolled around and I was able to come home.

I was even more excited to come home because the hubby had suggest grilling tonight. With the beautiful weather, how could I say no? I was so tempted to be bad, after the stress and weird feelings I was having today, but I was able to control myself and enjoy some veggie burgers.

I am still going in to work in the morning for a little overtime. I don't have to, but the money will be nice.

I have weigh in tomorrow and I know I'm going to gain, but it's the week before TOM and all and I'm okay with it. I deserve it.

Next week I hope to get myself back in gear with the gym. I suck at it these days.

More beautiful weather for the weekend. It's supposed to be 87 on Sunday!!

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I’m feeling a little “off” today. I just don’t feel right.

The weather is beautiful and is supposed to be all weekend.

So glad it’s Friday.

2.08 miles

I did 2.08 miles tonight on the treadmill when I got home. And that was only 30 minutes. I'm happy with that.

Going to try and make it to the gym tomorrow.

SWF coworker comes back Monday. As peaceful as it's been without her, I will be happy to give her back her work to do. I'm so behind in mine.

Off to watch "Grey's".

TGIF!!

reconnected on facebook

I’ve made the decision that I am going to start running again. One because I miss it and two because I want to run a 5K. Watching Kristin on “The Biggest Loser” the other night totally inspired me. Last night I picked up the latest issue of “Runner’s World” and read it from cover to cover and really feel the itch to run again. Now I know at 253 pounds I’m pretty heavy to be running but I don’t care. So tonight I am planning on hitting my treadmill and working on my running.

Here is my thing. Those of you that are running and run at the gym on the treadmill and are not exactly small, do you get looks from people? I mean I don’t really CARE but I don’t want to warrant any crazy looks because people think I’m nuts for running at this weight.

Running was something I really threw myself into at one point and loved it. I want that again and I’m envious of a lot of you for the running you are doing. I’ve NEVER run outside, always on a treadmill, but to me it was pure heaven and totally burned away a lot of stress (and fat).

I am pretty sure I’m going to gain this week. I’m not excited about it but I deserve it.

Last night the hubby and I ran into a girl I went to high school with. I haven’t seen her in about 12 years or so. We have reconnected on facebook but I haven’t seen her in years. It was really cool and she even invited me and the hubby over to her house this summer to swim in her pool. She teasingly said “If you don’t mind this in a bathing suit” and pointed to herself and I laughed, saying “Yeah and look at this”. She used to be rail thin in high school and now not so much. But she is happy and doesn’t care, which sometimes I wish I could be. I told her I was so going to come swim in her pool, especially since she said she has a big German Shepard that loves to swim with people.

SWF coworker had to call me today. While she’s on vacation. Ugh. Lame!

Swamped again at work. So glad tomorrow is Friday.

Looking forward to “Grey’s” tonight.

Who doesn't like FREE?

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I am totally hitting the treadmill tonight! I want to start running again and tonight I start!! I'll update again later. I fell asleep on the couch last night watching "Ghost Hunters". lol

Swamped!

Now that I’m all hopped up on coffee (3 cups this morning) I’m in a little better mood.

The whole corporate thing was a joke really. And, just like I told Ellen, they totally IGNORE customer service, even though we freaking MAKE this office. But all the credit goes to other people and we just got pooped on. I learned that a long time ago.

I have been starving all day today. Woke up hungry. Hungry right now. I haven’t eaten anything less or different today. I’ve been eating the same way for the past few weeks. I’m saying it’s TOM. I just keep chugging back the water.

So what I really want to talk about right now is “The Biggest Loser”…so spoilers ahead if you haven’t watched the show yet…


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OMG! OMG! OMG! I KNEW there was a reason WHY I didn’t like Ron. What a little snake! Telling Kristin he would “talk” to Mike to try to save her. I was not a huge fan of Kristin’s in the beginning but I warmed up to her and I grew to like her. She is really inspiring and upbeat. And then Mike and Ron all acting like Mike has this thing won. Really? Do you think so? What about Tara? What about Felipe? It’s PERECENTAGE of weight loss, not total and since Tara is a freaking powerhouse, I think Mike should be a little worried. I totally liked Mike, too, until last night. I was all crying and stuff with him and totally relating to him with the overweight parents thing. And speaking of crying, I cried pretty hard when Tara got up on that scale. I thought she should have taken the pound advantage, just because she is getting so thin and I thought she was going to go home. I know I’ll probably be crying through next week’s episode AND the finale. Which I can’t believe is in 2 weeks!! I saw the previews for next week and I’m pretty sure Tara is safe and making it to the end. They showed her with her former self cutout so that probably is good news. I am still so ANGRY about Mike and Ron. I was even happy that Ron is now under 300 pounds for the first time in a long time. And amazed that the Mom lost all that weight, too. But it was so darn sneaky!! I was laughing so hard at Bob when he was watching what his team was eating. “What are you? A supermodel?” totally cracks me up!!

Well I’m totally swamped at work. Much to do. Glad it’s Wednesday!!

I hate when I can't sleep

I had a horrible time falling asleep last night. I probably got 5 hours of sleep at best. Which means no gym this morning. I'm exhausted right now. Ugh. I think I was worried about work related stuff and that wasn't helping. I have NOTHING to worry about but I think it's the visit from coporate that is bugging me. They won't even LOOK at the CSR department (we don't exist to most) but still. It's just annoying to have to dress all nice and act phony when everyone knows we don't dress like that all the time and actually have fun most days.

I WILL be discussing "The Biggest Loser" today. I am hoping to update later. I am not happy with a few people and I cried through most of the episode (again).

Off to finish getting ready for work. Grocery shopping tonight. Gym tomorrow (I hope).

It's "TBL" night...

SWF coworker is on vacation for the next 4 days. I am totally beat from a hectic day at work. I will need the OT on Saturday because I'm already behind on my work.

People from the corporate office are coming to my office tomorrow. I'm not really all that worried about it since they won't bother me much. I am way too busy to deal with them anyway. I barely had time to stop and eat lunch today.

Eating has been these past few days. I plan to hit the gym tomorrow. I promised myself 2 days this week and tomorrow will have to be day 1. Friday most likely will be day 2. I've just been so drained the past few mornings I want to sleep in.

I'm a bit stressed out about the lack of money situation we are having right now. *sigh*

I can't wait for "The Biggest Loser" tonight. Go Tara!!

Monday recap

-slept like crap last night
-tossed and turned even though I fell asleep at 8:30pm or so
-no gym since last Wednesday
-SWF coworker is on vacation for the next 4 days
-SWF coworker was super bitchy today
-nice awesome weather this weekend here in Connecticut
-today not so much
-spent the weekend with my awesome husband
-hated to leave him this morning
-subway for dinner today. YUM!
-eating better after the weekend
-TOM is due next week (which will explain the above)
-getting OT on Saturday
-trying to figure out my weight watchers plan so I can do both (need the money)
-miss running
-want to start the couch potato to 5K
-gym tomorrow?
-"TBL" tomorrow!!
-off to catch up on blogs

Recipe Sunday

Ingredients

• 3/4 cup whole wheat flour
• 1/3 cup unsweetened applesauce
• 1/2 tablespoon baking powder
• 1/2 cup fat-free buttermilk or skim milk, with 1/2 tsp lemon juice mixed in
• 1 egg white, lightly beaten
• 1/2 tablespoon cinnamon
• 1-1 1/2 teaspoon no-cal artificial sweetener

Directions

1. Mix all ingredients until smooth.

2. Note: Batter will be kinda thick. If it is too thick for you, add a tablespoon of water at a time until desired consistency.

3. Heat a large skillet or griddle that has been sprayed with non-stick butter flavored cooking spray.

4. Spoon two good sized heaping tablespoon fulls of the batter into the skillet per pancake and spread out slightly. Let cook like a regular pancake and then flip, allowing to cook another minuet or so. Serve!

5. Dietary Info:.

6. Per pancake: 67 calories; 2 gm fiber; trace fat (1pt).

Found here.

a little something...

-down 0.6 this week
-actually spoke a bit during the meeting
-talked to my mom on the phone today for 2 hours
-cleaned the liter box (it is a big deal, trust me)
-did laundry
-watched "Rock of Love Bus" finale. Eh.
-spending the night with the hubby!!
-some sort of workout tomorrow (either gym or treadmill at home)

100 Day Challenge

So I found this challenge over on haidynbright's weight loss site. And I like it. So...starting tomorrow, 04/19/09 I am going to start my own 100 day challenge.

1. Calculate 100 days from your start date.
2. Decide what you're going to focus on.
3. Be completely accountable and honest with yourself for 100 days.

So I want to blog every day (which I've been doing anyway) and focus on eating right and exercising as much as I can.

I'll be leaving for weigh in soon and it looks like I may actually drop a little bit but we'll see!!

Work rant

Today was basically a USELESS day at work. Our computers and phones were still down so we couldn't do a lot of stuff. I filed from 8:30am-3:00pm with a couple breaks in between. I hate filing. It's so time consuming and it really kills my knees when I'm on the floor looking through patient charts. I'm sure if I wasn't so overweight it wouldn't be such an issue. So around 3 the system finally started working again and then it went down again around 4:30pm. What a joke. I bet if our I.T. department was in Connecticut and not in another state it wouldn't be such an issue. And since patients couldn't get anyone on the phones (it went straight to the service) they decided to come down to the office instead. What exactly possess someone to just come in and assume they can get what they want? We're a medical office, not Wal-Mart. You can't just pick something off the shelve and walk over to me and buy it. It doesn't work that way. Then when we tell them our policy and the computers aren't working they get all bent out of shape. People are assholes.

No gym today. Probably going to gain tomorrow. I am feeling bloated already and TOM isn't due for 2 weeks. Blah.

Super tired today. Probably because I was on my feet and moving around all day. Maybe I burned off some calories doing that.

SWF coworker totally pissed me off today. She comes over and goes "Oh you didn't tell me blank won Rock of Love?" (I didn't include the name just so if any of you watch it and don't know who Bret picked). Now, she KNOWS I haven't seen the finale yet. We talked about it on Monday and how I thought it wasn't on because of Easter. So basically, she ruined it for me. And then played dumb by going "Oops" and covering her mouth with her hand like she hadn't realized I didn't see it. Hubby thinks I totally need to fuck with her now. I suggested I tell her I'm on the bacon and peanut butter diet and see if she starts eating it. She also brought her lunch today, something she made last night. I've been making and bringing in my own lunches for about a month now. She also grilled me on the Silk milk I've been using in my cereal this morning.

Weigh in tomorrow. *Fingers crossed*

Made a cake

You know you've already seen this but watch it again. Because I just can't get enough of it and I cried when I saw it this morning. This woman is amazing.

Thanks to Holly and Dee for the info about the sodium issue I have with my cottage cheese. Might have to switch my mid morning snack. I'm trying so hard to have less sodium and it's awfully high (600!!).

I was so full of energy tonight when I got home. Cooked. Did laundry. Cleaned the litter box. Washed my fruit we bought last night. Did some cleaning. Made a cake (yeah I don't know why either) and now I am ready to crash.

Around 3pm today the computer system and phones went down at work. Oh darn. I left 10 minutes early and that was nice. You never know how much you relay on something until it's not there.

Off to watch "Hell's Kitchen" since "Grey's" is again, a repeat.

love me some fruit and cottage cheese

I didn’t make it to the gym this morning. I was tired and a bit sore (3 weeks without exercise can do that to you) so I slept in. But I am planning on going tomorrow AND since the hubby said he would be able to ride his bike in (it’s supposed to be super awesome weather) to school, I can have my car and drive myself to the gym and work. Yeah me!

Eating my Breakstones Cottage Cheeese Doubles (I love me some fruit and cottage cheese) I noticed the sodium amount is pretty high. *sigh* I am hoping it’s the added fruit and not the cottage cheese itself. Next week at the grocery store I am going to compare the plain one with this and if the sodium is lower, I’ll buy that one and add my own fruit to it.

I stepped on the scale this morning just for a little peak and I am still 254.2 pounds. That’s good, considering the candy and cookies I had on Sunday. I’ll take a maintain over a gain any day. I still have today and tomorrow to get through before weigh in on Saturday morning.

I have a lot of work I’m trying to finish up over the next couple of day because SWF coworker is going on vacation next week and I’ll be doing her job more then my own.

I’m off. Can’t wait for lunch and my yummy chicken I made in the crockpot yesterday!

Food is fuel

I have been thinking more and more that food is just fuel for my body. Not sure where that mindset came from, but if it helps, so be it.

I've been eating really good over the past few weeks, making my lunches instead of having a sodium filled tv dinner, eating lots of fruits and veggies AND today I realized while bringing the recycle bin out that I only had one 2 liter bottle of soda in there. So not bad.

Have I mentioned how long my nails and hair have gotten over the past few weeks? And my nails aren't just long, but they are hard, too. lol I really need a haircut.

I'm hoping to hit the gym again tomorrow.

Looking forward to "Lost" tonight. I am super tired and hope I don't fall asleep.

The grocery store had my greek yogurt this week. Last week they were out of it and the replacement kind I got was really nasty. I ate it anyway, but I am super glad to have the good stuff back.

So glad the week is almost over! It's been a long week.

Thank you, Tara!

Thank you, Tara! Because of you, I was able to get my ass to the gym this morning. Ha ha.

I was totally inspired after watching “The Biggest Loser” last night and was able to get up and get in a workout before work this morning. I did 45 minutes on the elliptical and 25 minutes of weights. Not as much as I was doing at night or have done but it’s a start and I’m glad I went. It looks like they are redoing the gym again, painting and putting in new carpet. Plus there is new equipment. I get so confused when they move equipment around. I’m so used to it being in a certain spot and then all of a sudden it’s somewhere else.

I am so excited for the Keith Urban concert next month. It’s nearly 3 weeks away and I really need to listen to his new cd. I have it but haven’t listened to it yet. I am also looking forward to seeing Sugarland, who happen to be opening. We had talked about going to see Rascal Flatts again but I’m a bit tight on cash right now and if we want to go to the Nascar race in June, it’s a no go. I can’t afford both, although I would love to since they are in the same weekend.

Speaking of “The Biggest Loser” I’m going to start talking about it now so if you haven’t seen it yet, don’t continue to read…

OMG! I cried through like the whole episode. I cried when Helen was talking about being able to buy clothes, I cried when I saw how good Tara looked (she is beautiful), I cried when Mike’s brother cried, I cried when Laura found out she hurt her hip and I cried when they sent Laura home (although I believe it was the best thing). I’m sure it’s PMS stuff but it was a very inspiring show for me and next weeks looks even better. I’m getting choked up just thinking about it.

I’m off. Lots of work to do. Grocery shopping tonight and “Lost” as well!!

LAME

Okay, you all know I've mentioned my "single white female" coworker. And her crazy way of copying everything that I do. Well today she comes into work with a brand new ipod touch and speakers for her desk. Which really is fine by me, I could care less but I've had a radio, mp3 player and or a satellite at my desk for 8 1/2 years. She has NEVER had any music at all on her desk and I actually didn't think she listened to music because she never talks about bands or concerts or anything like that. Then she was asking me all kinds of questions about MY Slacker and when I told her I only paid for the device, the music and stuff on it is FREE, I thought she was going to choke on her coffee. Am I just being overly sensitive or is this whole thing getting really strange? Today she told me she wanted to lose weight (although she mentioned a month ago or so about droping 50 pounds by Memorial Day) so she was going to join the gym. Oh fun.

No gym today but I swore to myself I would go tomorrow. We'll see.

One of my coworkers who was on vacation last week, kept calling me slim today. I assured him I had not lost any weight, but he said it looked like I had and that I was his hero. Hey, whatever floats your boat.

It was super busy at work today so I didn't have time to update.

So excited for the makeovers on "The Biggest Loser" tonight. I know that Tara is going to look fan-freaking-tastic!!

Pancakes!!

I had pancakes for dinner tonight and they were super freaking good. I love breakfast any time of the day and I found this awesome 1 point pancakes that I wanted to try tonight. Yum!!

I'm sad that my 20 in 20 challenge isn't going to happen, but I totally understand how Ash is overwhelmed with everything. Hopefully something else will come up. I thought about doing my own challenge but eh...I don't know.

Hoping to get back to the gym tomorrow!!

Sharing a car bites.

I hope that you all that celebrate Easter had a nice holiday. The hubby and I went to his grandparents house for dinner. It was nice, not nearly as horrible as I thought I might be. Ha ha. I miss not having my Mom around for the holidays and a part of me was feeling guilty because my sisters and nephews invited me to go to the movies with them and I didn’t go, but I hadn’t seen the hubby’s family in awhile. It’s hard sometimes. Next holiday I am going to spend with my family, especially since Mom is planning to be here for Thanksgiving.

As for food, I wasn’t too bad yesterday but not as good as I could have been. It was a holiday after all and I probably could have done worse so I’m not going to worry about it.

I still haven’t made it back to the gym and it’s nearly 3 weeks. I’ve had no desire to go at night or in the morning so I’m not sure what I’ll do. I was thinking I might try to go tomorrow morning and just workout for an hour, so I don’t have to get up too early. And then once I’m used to that I could work into doing more then 60 minutes.

Sharing a car bites. I had to get to work this morning at 7:50am which is 40 minutes earlier then I need to be here. I hate it.

Hubby is supposed to grill tonight so I’m looking forward to that. I haven’t had chicken on the grill in awhile. I’m going to have him grill up a couple extra pieces so I can bring those to work with me this week.

Holy cow, my nails are growing like mad since I’ve been eating more fruit and vegetables. My hair, too, has gotten longer then I like and I need to get a haircut one of these minutes.

I may hit the treadmill tonight when I get home. I’ll have to see how I’m feeling. A little exercise would most likely do me good.

Saturday update

I was down a pound today. Not bad. I had hoped for a little more but with only 30 minutes of exercise, I'm surprised I lost anything.

A girl in my meeting got her 100 pounds gone certificate today. That was certainly inspiring. Nearly 6 years ago that was me.

I'm having a kind of blah day today for some reason.

weight loss mood

I'll be leaving in an hour or so to go to weight watchers. Looks like I'm down a little, not a lot but that's what you get with only 30 minutes of exercise this week, right?

Now that my face is pretty much back to normal and I stopped swelling every where I plan to hit the gym a few times this week. Or at least work out at home.

There is nothing like going out to a restaurant and trying to figure out which way is easier to squeeze by people without hitting them with your ass to get your mind in the weight loss mood.

Hubby got entered into the karaoke semi- finales last night. He is awesome like that and rocks.

I was pretty busy at work yesterday so I didn't have time to update. It was actually pretty quiet and slow phone wise because it was a holiday for some most people.

I'm not exactly sure what we'll be doing tomorrow for the holiday. My sister had asked me to have it at our apartment but I told her I can't because we don't have room right now (or a kitchen table). The hubby's grandparents said something about coming over there but I'm not sure when that is. We'll see.

The hospital bills are pouring in from hubby's surgery and it's a lot to handle. I wish I was rich.

After I get back from ww, I plan do to a little cleaning and then dye some eggs. I haven't done it in years but I'm looking forward to it.

Happy Saturday and I'll probably do a quick update later.

I wonder if my gym is open tomorrow?

crazy patients

-work was super busy
-a patient called one of my coworkers a bitch (fun times)
-1 thin mint is 1 point
-grocery shopping was fun tonight!
-avoided sisters ex boyfriend at the grocery store (2 black eyes, need I say more?)
-sad that a friend's marriage looks to be ending (2nd time)
-tomorrow is my sister's 39th Birthday. omg! I can't believe she's almost 40.
-"grey's" is a repeat. boo!
-"lost" was awesome last night. hate ben.
-I want a blackberry
-where is my fitbit?
-bought snacks that have cinnamon in them so now the hubby gets to eat them
-love greek yogurt
-addicted to facebook
-tired
-gym tomorrow morning
-karaoke tomorrow night
-weight watchers saturday
-easter sunday
-glad tomorrow is friday!

breakfast of champions

Lasagna and cheetos are the breakfast of champions. Not that I’m eating them but someone else is. Yum. It would totally go straight to my hips, like everything else. I had cereal with skim milk, strawberries and mandarin orange. Good stuff.

The swelling has gone down A LOT in my face. It doesn’t hurt anymore, which was the worst thing. It didn’t go down enough for me to feel comfortable to go to the gym this morning but I am hoping that by tomorrow I will look “normal” again.

We have to go grocery shopping tonight because I wasn’t going last night looking like that. Luckily I have an awesome husband who picked me up a few things to eat last night to hold me over until tonight.

Despite the lack of exercise this week, I feel “thinner”. Hopefully I’ll drop the pound I gained and a little more. I told my Mom yesterday that I think I finally got my shit together (again) so I can stop this freaking yo-yo I’ve been on.

Okay…so let’s talk “The Biggest Loser”….

Tara continues to kick ass. I was so happy she won (again). And when Lara got the winning ticket for the single vote…that was freaking awesome. I was yelling pretty loudly. I can’t believe those cupcakes were over 500 calories. I am a sucker for cupcakes. Ron HAS to go. His attitude is just terrible and I do not trust him at all. I was sad to see Sione go, but he looks fantastic now and it’s super cool he’s becoming a trainer.

I’m off. Lots to do at work today.

I'm swell how are you?

I left work at 2pm because my whole face is freaking swelled up. I was doing so well and hadn't had a lot of flair ups in a few months and then I swell up really badly last night and haven't stopped since.

I bit my lip while I was talking and eating (guess I can't do both at the same time) and I knew it was going to swell. I just didn't think it was going to swell up this much.

Sooooooooooooo no grocery shopping tonight because I look like a freak. I was going to post a picture but it's bad.

The Birthday party went well at work today. My sister LOVED the gifts I got her ("The Other Boleyn Girl", "Premonition", "Marley and Me", Keith Urban's new cd "Defying Gravity" and the new Sugarland cd). I have only eaten 13 points as of right now since I don't feel right.

Doesn't Valerie Bertinelli look really good? WOW!

Gym tomorrow (fingers crossed) if all goes well!!

"Lost" tonight!!

Funny!!

Ya'll are funny!! Thanks for the comments about my coworker (see post below).

To answer your question, she is 35. Which is 2 years older then me. She has a son (11) and a boyfriend of 11 years. So it's not like she doesn't have a lot going for her already.

Hubby has already suggested I start doing strange things and suggesting I'm going to do strange things just so that I mess with her.

I'm off to work. I'll update later!!

My own personal Hedy Carlson

Have you seen "Single White Female"? You know the movie where Bridge Fonda takes on a new roommate, Jennifer Jason Leigh? And then she sort of starts copying her and trying to be just like her?

Well my coworker is creeping me out like that.

Now you know I've talked about how she copies me. Like last year when I was on a big waffle with strawberries kick for breakfast and after a week of eating that she suddenly was eating the same thing. Or in 2007 when I joined LA Weight Loss and she joined like 2 days later. Or how she's currently eating cereal for breakfast every day because that has been what I've been having. Well she's been saying for awhile that she wants to get her hair cut and layered, like mine. Now that she got it cut she hates it. I told her that I bought my sister a movie for her birthday and then today my coworker told me she bought the same movie for her. Which I already bought and told her about 2 weeks ago when I ordered it. Now she wants a blackberry because I have been saying I want one. Or how she had to go out and buy "The Secret Life of Bees" which I was reading at the time (mine cost me $2.50 hers was $15.00). There are a few other strange things that I can't remember but it really creeps me out.

As long as she stays away from my husband I guess I'm fine, right? I'm still waiting for her to join my gym and then show up when I'm working out and pretend that she didn't know.

Yes, I should be at the gym right now but I'm not. And that is because my angioedema is acting up. It started this afternoon (after my post) and now my whole bottom lip is swollen. I don't mind if my fingers swell, my toes, my foot, my arm, my chest, stomach, whatever. But when it's on my face I'm very self conscience about it and don't like to go out in public. But I did hit the treadmill for 30 minutes. Not as much as I wanted to but it was something.

I've off to watch "The Biggest Loser".

too much tv

I’m having another good day.

I was up later then planned. I watched the end of “Dancing with the Stars” since “Intervention” was a repeat. And then I watched the season finale of “United States of Tara” and was going to go to bed until the hubby suggested I catch up with Sunday night’s “Breaking Bad” (seriously I watch way too much television). So I went to bed at 11:30pm but couldn’t fall asleep right away so it was probably closer to midnight when I finally fell asleep.

Then hubby called me this morning not too long after he dropped me off at work to tell me he thought that the water pump had gone in our car and was on the side of the highway. Turns out it’s not gone but it does need to be fixed. He’s going to keep a close eye on it and we have to scrap some money together to get that fixed, which on top of the hospital bills, is not something I want to think about.

But I’m having another good day.

Hubby and I are planning on hitting the gym tonight, something I haven’t done in 2 weeks. I am actually looking forward to it.

I have another set of cupcakes to make tonight. I didn’t have enough eggs last night so I have to pick some up on the way home. Then I have to frost all 48 of them either before or after the gym. Or tomorrow morning before work.

Super glad to have my sister back at work. Although now my other coworker is acting all bitchy again.

I’ll probably watch some of “The Biggest Loser” at the gym tonight but will have to catch up on the rest of it tomorrow after grocery shopping and before “Lost”.

Like I said, too much television.

hungry monster

Ya'll got to admit that this guy is super cute, right? I mean even if he represents hunger and all, he's cute. Fuzzy and orange and just cute. So they are now selling 2 different "hungry monsters" at weight watchers and one of my coworkers has been saying she wanted one if they ever make them. So I picked her up a little magnetic one on Saturday and she LOVES IT! She was so funny when I gave it to her. I think I want one for my own cubicle now.

My sister is home. She texted me and told me Scooby was so happy to see her. I'll be glad to see her at work tomorrow. My partner in crime. lol

I made cupcakes tonight. I have another batch I need to make and those will be chocolate. We're having a big Birthday part on Wednesday for 6 people at work so I am making cupcakes (instead of a cake) and brining ice cream (which is in my freezer). Wasn't even tempted to eat any mix, which is rare for me. I love sweets.

It's been a pretty good day, considering it's Monday.

My husband is super awesome. Since he didn't have classes today he emptied WASHED DISHES! You have no idea how happy this made me.

I stopped at the grocery store tonight and spent most of the time hiding from a guy I went to school with. I didn't want to have to actually talk to him. He was strange then and seems like he's even stranger now. Ha!

I'm off to watch "Little People, Big World" and then "Intervention". I gave up on "Dancing with the Stars" although I'm still hoping that Ty wins.

Happy Monday!

So I’ve kind of been in a funk for the past week or so. I think that I’m finally out of it. Or least I hope that I am because it really SUCKS to feel like that.

I did a lot of sleeping this weekend. Saturday I slept for about 9 hours and then Sunday I slept for like 12 hours. Plus I napped on Saturday for about an hour. It’s like I did a lot of stuff or anything. I was just feeling kind of blah and wanted to sleep I guess.

Friday night hubby and I went out for karaoke. I did not sing but he did. He has such an awesome voice. I cannot sing to save my life. It was fun and it’s always nice to get out of the house from time to time. And spend time with my man.

Luckily my sister comes back today and Scooby won’t be lonely anymore. My older sister took him Saturday to Sunday and I’m sure he enjoyed that (he slept in her bed) but he cried when she brought him home again and he was alone. Poor baby. If he didn’t hate cats so much I could have taken him for the week.

I hope to get back to the gym tomorrow night. It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve been there and it’s time. I tried to go Friday morning and today but that didn’t happen. I love sleeping way too much. I think that the hubby wants to go, too, so that will be nice.

Hopefully things are finally back to “normal” for me.

Last night hubby and I watched a program about “Christian the Lion”. I cry every time I see that darn footage of him reuniting with the 2 men that raised him. *sniff*

Happy Monday!

Stop waiting to be skinny to live life!

I told my husband that I need stop waiting to be skinny to live my life.

So far I haven't been able to do that.

It's time.

I totally remember that being skinny didn't make everything better. I was still depressed, I was still stressed, I was still insecure about myself. So why am I thinking that being skinny is going to make my life so much better.

Saturday afternoon...

So I went back to my ww meeting today and I was up a pound. That isn't too bad and I plan to take more then that off this week.

Here are a few things on my mind today:

-the "ER" finale was fantastic. I totally cried when I saw Dr. Green's daughter, Rachel.
-super glad it's the weekend
-I bought a little "hungry monster" for my coworker. She said she wanted one so I thought why not?
-Keith Urban is nearly a month away! I need to pick up his new cd.
-Gym tomorrow!
-I get the whole weekend with my hubby! Yeah!!
-I miss running. I need to start up again


I'm off to do some housework and enjoy the rest of my Saturday. My older sister is taking Scooby this weekend so I don't have to worry about him for a couple days. Glad the other sister comes home on Monday night. Her puppy misses her.

Phew

That was an awful anxiety attack today. Ugh. Luckily I finally got myself out of it and I'm doing better.

But no, I am not going to the gym tonight.

I miss my morning workouts and so, I am going to try and start going to the gym before work again. I have my gym bag packed and ready to go so we'll see what happens. I gave it a try, going back at night, but I find myself having a hard time falling asleep when I get home and then I stay up later then I like and then I am tired at work and then I'm exhausted at night and I just find myself rushing to get everything done and missing my tv shows and...well I guess you understand.

Eating has been good since Sunday. I am looking forward to going back to weight watchers on Saturday. It's been awhile.

I am glad my sister will be home on Monday. Her dog is so lonely and I hate leaving him when I am there. Poor baby loves his Momma. lol

I am super sad that "ER" is ending tonight. Once upon a time that was my favorite show in the world and I never missed it. I cried through many a episode.

Super glad tomorrow is Friday!!

anxiety (again)

I’m practically having an anxiety attack right now about going to the gym tonight.

I don’t know what the heck my problem is.

I need to get my shit together.

Happy 70th Birthday

Today is April 1st. Today is my father’s 70th Birthday. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that it’s been nearly 15 years since he passed away. So far I’m handling it all pretty well.

I’ve decided that I need to start going back to weight watchers meetings again. I was doing the whole online thing but I really don’t think that is working for me. I’m probably going to gain again this week because of last Sunday. I need the accountability right now. So I am going to go back to my Saturday meetings and Saturday weigh in.

Planning to hit the gym tomorrow night. Wednesday is grocery night so by the time we get home, unpack everything and eat it’s already close to 8pm.

Hope to update again tonight. Want to talk about “The Biggest Loser”. Another great episode!!